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NMRNO

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About NMRNO

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  • Gender
    Female
  • Location
    Nv
  • Loss Type
    Both parents
  • Angel Date
    Mom 11/10/17 dad 1/10/18

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  • First Name
    Rebecca
  1. Hey all, Do any of you have tips for sleepijng? Night are always so hard because I cant distract my brain. Growing up, I always had to hide my emotions. There was a lot of traumas amd it was how I coped, once again, i am finding myself hiding my emotions. I want to cry, i want to let it out but i don't know how to. I feel numb and scared. So much anxiety and fear that i will break down in front of my kids. I think i need to find a therapist. I really need to find a way to face my emotions.
  2. I have always struggled talking on the phone with people. I need to see faces to "read" them. After my mom passed away in November, i had to turn my phone on silent and walk away because I could not emotionally handle talking. I still can't talk about my mom on the phone. Then, yesterday my dad died. My sister understands me and knew to let me know via text message because we just went through it with our mom. I had to have my husband call his wife for me to find out more because I am terrified to talk on the phone. I freeze. I can't do it. I break down into a panic. However, with that said, I think people think I am blowing them off when I don't answer. So, how can I ask people nicely that though I appreciate them reaching out to me, I am not up to speaking on the phone?
  3. I have always struggled talking on the phone with people. I need to see faces to "read" them. After my mom passed away in November, i had to turn my phone on silent and walk away because I could not emotionally handle talking. I still can't talk about my mom on the phone. Then, yesterday my dad died. My sister understands me and knew to let me know via text message because we just went through it with our mom. I had to have my husband call his wife for me to find out more because I am terrified to talk on the phone. I freeze. I can't do it. I break down into a panic. However, with that said, I think people think I am blowing them off when I don't answer. So, how can I ask people nicely that though I appreciate them reaching out to me, I am not up to speaking on the phone?
  4. I am so sorry for your loss. I seriously got goose bumps reading this because i have been dealing with this as well. My mom passed away in November and we had already bought our kids tickets to disneyland for their big Christmas gift. I started having anxity attacks nightly at the idea of going. We were actually supposed to be heading home today but we chose to postpone it until Feb. However, my dad passed away today and now I don't think I can bring myself to go. I have no idea why I am so terrified to go but I am. So please know that you are not alone, though I have no idea why it happens. Thoughts for you and your family.
  5. Hello, I am new here and I could really use an ear. I found out that my dad passed away this morning, just two months after my mom passed away. I have always compartmentalized my emotions around others but since my mom passed, my fear of letting my emotions out has turned into major anxiety. I am not slepeing well. Last night I was up most of the night with anxiety and then got the news about my dad this morning and I have felt like a zombie all day. I am in shock. How do I learn go just let my emotions out? My parents and I were not the closest, a rough childhood but they are my parent. I love them and can't in two months I lost them both. As a mom, it breaks my heart that my kids lost two grandparents so close together. Is anxiety normal? I guess more than anything, I feel lost, scared and shocked.
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