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  1. I'm on vacation now and yes it is hard but I also feel a closeness to him at the same time. I cried on the plane, when I first walked down main street, when I went on the last ride I was on with him last time. But it isn't the dark cloud quite like I thought it would be. This was always a happy place for our family, so while this trip isn't the same, it isn't as difficult as I anticipated
  2. Today is a really difficult day. I keep finding myself going off to cry in the bathroom alone so no one knows. It's been a month since I lost my Dad and the past few weeks I was thinking I was doing really well because I could go days without crying about missing him. But today I feel hollow inside. The void he's left in my heart is massive. All I want to do is curl up I. A dark room alone and wait for this to pass. To hurt less. To feel less alone. I feel so alone. And can't stop crying.
  3. Missing my Dad

    It's been a month since my Dad died. I feel the same. I still feel like he will answer the phone if I call their house. That he just popped out to some store and he's going to walk in the door with some silly story about whatever happened while he's been out running an errand. That it was just a mistake that the hospital made and he really didn't just suddenly slip away from us. We've had his funeral. I saw him laying peacefully. He's been cremated. And I still feel like it's just a big mistake.
  4. My Dad died rather unexpectedly a month ago. He had been ill and we knew he wouldn't recover, but doctors said he at least had months left. He died the next day. We had a family trip planned and after discussing have decided to go ahead with it as planned. He'd be upset if we didn't. But as that trip draws near my anxiety over his loss seems to increase. I know I need to still go. I feel like going is part of the healing process. Even the thought of packing for this holiday is overwhelming. The closer it comes the more breakdowns I seem to have. Has anyone else experienced this? What did you find helpful?