Jump to content
Online Grief Support, Help for Coping with Loss | Beyond Indigo Forums
  • Announcements

    • ModKonnie

      Advertisements   09/05/2017

      Hi all,  I'm sure you've noticed some changes in the forums. We've again had to do some updates, so that's why things may look a little different. Nothing major should have changed.  Also, we are going to start adding advertisements sensitive to our community on the boards. This is something we are experimenting with, and we will certainly make sure they are in the best interests of everyone. We want to make sure our forums continue to stay accessible and cost free to all of our members, and this is a way to ensure this.  If you have any questions or comments, please feel free to privately message me or email me at Konnie@beyondindigo.com.  As always, we will be here with you, ModKonnie


  • Content count

  • Joined

  • Last visited

About Fani

  • Rank

Profile Information

  • Gender
  • Location
  • Loss Type

Recent Profile Visitors

25 profile views
  1. Oh my god I can not imagine how you are feeling. I lost my mom recently and I am a mess. You lost both of your parents, your world must be upside down ever since. If you want to talk I am here and I’m willing to help as much as I can. I know everything seems very shity but I hope that as time goes by it will get easier (as easy as it can get). You are not alone. Ask people who are close to you for help or advise and talk about it as much as you can.
  2. Hey I lost my mom about a month ago. I know how hard and painful it all is. Everything seems pointless and just too damn hard, I know. If you want (please do) message me. I really think we can support each other as we are in the same position.
  3. My mom has recently passed away. I may be able to say it or write it but I still can’t quite understand what this really means. I still expect to see her again sometime soon or when the phone rings sometimes I catch myself thinking it might be her calling before I realize that that is not going to happen again. She was diagnosed with cancer in 2010 making 2017 the 7th year she was fighting this illness. I’m not gonna lie this wasn’t easy for me, seeing my mom like that or thinking every day that it might be the last day I am seeing her (I was 9 years old in 2010) but I was always greatfull for having her and I never stopped hoping that one day she might actually beat this thing and be healthy again. And then one day she woke up and she could not communicate with anyone very well and for a week she got worse and worse until she died on the 20th of December. Every single day since then feels grey. I feel like I’m never going to be fully happy again. I’ve never cried so much in my life. I try to do things so that I don’t think about her all the time but usually it doesn’t work. I want more years with her, it wasn’t enough. Other people have their mother for 50 or 60 years, why should I have mine only for 16 that’s not fair. I don’t understand how the world works. I miss her so much.
  4. I just felt that noone could understand what I am going through and I decided I would search for any people who might be going through the same stuff as me and I found your story. My mom died on the 20th of December from cancer too. She was 51 and she was diagnosed in 2010. For about a week before she passed away she lost the ability to communicate with anyone and I basically freaked out and then everything happened so quickly and I cannot still comprehend what is going on. I can’t (or don’t want to) realise that I won’t see her or have a conversation with her again and I just miss her so much. I feel like I’ll never be totally happy again, like something will always be missing. I had 16 wonderful years with her but is it wrong to ask for more even though I can’t have any? I don’t know. This post reassured me that I’m not the only one going through such a difficult time and I just wanna say thank you for sharing your thoughts because I was too reluctant at the beginning. I don’t know if it’s comforting but you should know you’re not alone.