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  1. I’m only 18. I lost my father to a car crash when I was 15. It’s like that’s where it all started. My best friends father who I considered a second father died unexpectedly 2 years later. My aunt died from cancer 8 months later. Expected but still sad. Then it was my fathers friend and my baby sitter that was like my grandma who both died unexpectedly this past summer. In October my uncle is found dead in his room. It was probably an overdose which is something we thought would happen years ago. We really thought he was doing well. Now as I’m writing this I’m laying next to my cat in what seems to be his final hours. He suddenly became sick yesterday so we brought him to the vet today. He said it doesnt look good, he mentioned euthanization but we decided to wait for the blood work to come back tomorrow. It’s just so unexpected like all of the other deaths. He’s only 9 which is not considered old. He seemed perfectly fine but now he doesn’t even have the energy to move. I can’t stop crying I never thought this would happen to me again so soon. It’s like I’m cursed. Nobody around me understands what it’s like to constantly lose people or pets you love. Everyone I talk to is so unfazed by death and grief and I’m sitting here constantly thinking about who’s gonna die next. So much death has weakened me and it continues to weaken me. I’m positive I have depression which I thought was getting better until today happened. I have anxiety all the time. I feel like I’ll never be happy again. I’m really just waiting for someone else I love to die 24/7. Has anyone else experienced so many random deaths in such a short period of time? How do you keep yourself sane? Please help me
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