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    October 13 2017
  1. He died in my arms

    So sorry for your loss. I hope you find the strength to keep you going. I lost my husband who I knew since my sophomore year in HS in a car accident he was 23 years old I'm 24. He left me the greatest gift of all our 2yr old son he is the only one who gives me the strength to keep going everyday. It's been 1month & 3days since he passed away but it seems so unreal. It's unbelievable to think we all just have to keep going without that special person who was such a huge part in our life's. It really helps reading other people's stories on here and posting our own thoughts. I hope this pain gets a little bit better with time. I don't think the pain will ever go away we will always have that empty hole in our hearts. We just have to be strong for our loved ones who we have left. Take care.
  2. 1 month since he passed away

    Thank you all for the replies i been searching for a counselor. I really hope I find someone that I can feel comfortable enough to talk about everything that I feel. Coming here really helps.
  3. 1 month since he passed away

    Today is exactly 1month since my husband passed away. It seems like yesterday when a cop showed up to my house to tell me my husband had died at the scene of the accident. I don't understand and I don't think I'll ever understand why him? He was young 23yrs old (my HS sweetheart) we had so many things planned out. Our 2yr old son every morning wakes up asking for his dad it's miserable to think that I have to live the rest of my life without him. I just don't know sometimes if I can honestly do this. I have a lot of negative thoughts running through my head 24-7 this is only getting more difficult everyday that goes by. I just wish I could talk to someone who can give me advice and help me some how understand all the things I feel. I feel like I will always be waiting for him to get home from work. When dinner comes around it's the hardest time of the day I'm living without a purpose. I need help and I honestly don't know where to start. Please give me advice. Thank you
  4. Lost my best friend/husband

    Thank you for you're kind words. Reading this makes me feel like I'm not alone and that other people have lost someone special just the same way I did. I feel robbed my husband was everything that I would've ever wanted. We just had so many plans together. I feel like I do things and interact with people just because. Life just seems so meaningless without him.
  5. Lost my best friend/husband

    English is not my first language so please don't judge my grammar. I don't even know where to start I lost my husband on October 13 2017. In a car accident on his way to work. He was only 23yrs old and he was my soulmate my HS sweetheart. We started dating September 2008 and got married October 2013. I can't believe God would want me to be alone without my best friend my soulmate to raise our 2yr old son without his dad. It's just the ugliest pain this emptiness inside my heart that I will never get rid off. People say that time heals everything but everyday that passes by it just gets worst. I just have so many questions in my head and not one answer. He left that morning and it still feels unreal that I will never see him come through the door ever again. I feel so hopeless I just never thought I would experience something like this. My husband is gone and I will never get to hear, touch or talk to him EVER again it's just unbelievable sometimes I have to remind myself of this horrible tragedy. I just need support the only thing that makes me feel better is talking to other ppl that have experience a loss like this. I feel like I'm going crazy like i can't move on from this i don't understand how to keep going without my husband by my side. How can I live my life without my soulmate? My heart is broken into a million of pieces. I feel completely lost.