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  1. Loss of an Adult Child

    Just wanted to show a pic of my sweet Amariya Janae
  2. Loss of an Adult Child

    Hello everyone, I've been reading your posts for weeks now but finally decided to say something. My name is Angelica & I'm 27. I am married & we loss our 1st & only child Amariya Janae on July 23rd 2017 from a rare aggressive malignant brain tumor, she was 6 months old. Just a little background information for you guys to get to know me. My water broke when I was 27 weeks along, I was immediately put on bedrest & by the grace of God delivered her at 33 weeks on Jan 17, 2017 at 3 lbs, 6 oz. Amariya stayed in the NICU 6 weeks but only just to gain weight, she had no problems while in the NICU. We brought her home & she had no issues until July. The beginning of July, Amariya started throwing up alot & wouldn't eat so we took her to the hospital & she stayed 3 days & got better. At her 6 month check up the dr noticed her head size had significantly grown & sent us to the hospital. At the hospital we were told Amariya had fluid build up caused by a brain tumor & surgery would be needed. Amariya was scheduled for surgery on July 19th, well 2 hrs into the surgery, the surgeon came & told us our princess had coded in the OR & lost alot of blood but they were able to get her to the ICU for us to be with her. As we went to the ICU they were still working on stabilizing her. Amariya kept opening her eyes & they would have to give her meds to put her to sleep. Three days after surgery I made the hardest decision of taking my sweet girl off life support. I got to hold her as she took her last breath but the pain is so unbearable at times. I'm in my 3rd month of losing her & it's so hard to get out of bed most of the time. I feel I have no motivation in life. I do believe in God but sometimes it's hard to understand why he let her go through something so hard, she was just a baby. Sorry for the long post, I just need lots of prayers & encouragement right now.