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  1. I also wanted to say, Murgatroyd, that I'm so sorry for you, for loosing your sister. I meant to state that earlier, but am finding that higher brain function isn't exactly at my disposal right now! My heart breaks with you, truly.
  2. It breaks my heart to read that you and others are suffering this terrible existence right now, and in convinced always will. For me, it's not been three months yet, but it's weird, like a timeless rotation, that brings you back to square one, when I was told my brother died. The hardest part right now, is to absolute stupid, trite comments that people make!!! "He's in a better place, he's never gone, it'll get better". The worst was a woman I've known for years, saying that her sons breakup from his girlfriend was 'like a death'. And tried to make a comparison. It's like people either put their foot in their mouths, or they ignore you. Murgatryod; you said it exactly, how do they think you, or I feel? We are actually 'surviving' this horror right now. It stuns me that people can be so emotionally stunted, and fearful. That the moment they are needed the most, they leave. I think the moments I hate the most, are being numb....I'd rather barely be hanging on by a thread than feel like my body and mind have shut down, and don't care. P.S. I am also so sorry that you were leg go from your job, over an event you never had control over. It has to be so very painful to be pretty much abandoned by a place you've been with for so long, because your boss is emotionally retarded. I think it's ok for us to not feel good, or be ok ourselves. What else could you expect?
  3. My brother Tommy, died on August 9th. A work related accident, that offered no warning of any kind. I'd say the shock has worn off, but it seems to recycle over and over. We were adopted together, full brother and sister, and so close, from the very beginning. I'm sure people say all the time, that they never expected to bury someone so young. But it's true, I never fathomed that I'd be grieving the loss of my little brother. I don't even think that all of the 'stages' have set in. Since all I feel is the continuous loop of anger and bone deep grief. As a side note, there was no warning that all of my friends, or supposed friends would decide that grief was too much for them, and cut all Contact. Mostly they just ignore and avoid contact of any kind.