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  1. lost my younger brother...

    It has been 3 months now since my brother left us... but it is not getting any easier... I miss him so much everyday. His clothes and his belongings are still in his room, so everything reminds me of him and I can still smell his scent and that makes me feel sadder and miss him more. I don't know how I can deal with this pain. Everyday is a struggle for me, and each day feels very long. I cannot sleep without taking an anxiety pill. Some days, I still wake up in the middle of the night. Those nights are more painful, and it's even more painful if I had a dream about him and everything in the dream felt like reality, except to just find out it was a dream. It's night time again and I'm scared to sleep...
  2. lost my younger brother...

    Hello everyone. I don't know where to start from and not even sure if I'm ready to write something about my brother yet. Just thinking about him makes me so sad and brings me into tears. My younger brother, who was in his 30's, passed away about a month and a half ago in late August, by heart attack. It was so sudden. So unexpected. He collapsed right in front of our front yard. If he could've walked 20 more seconds, he could've made it home. He was on his way after work on a Monday. It was raining and dark, so he was not found for a while. My doorbell rang and someone told me he had no pulse, so I ran out and tried my best to recall the CPR I had learned long time ago while someone called the ambulance. Unfortunately, nothing worked, and at the emergency room, my parents and I were told the unbelievable tragic news. We scattered his ashes in the sea, his favorite place. He would always travel to islands and beaches alone whenever he had holidays, and had one planned early this month too. Though I am his elder sister, we spent a lot of time together and I have so much memories of him. I still cannot believe he is gone. I feel like he is on his vacation and will come back home any second. This feels so surreal. It's only been a short time since he left us, and I'm afraid how I can go on with my life without him around anymore. It's very painful. I try to be positive but it's not easy. He was so young and so healthy and had so much future ahead of him. This happened so suddenly. He disappeared one day. I pray for him, that he is happy and is enjoying without any worries wherever he is now. Thank you for reading.