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About Patti14

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  1. I am so sorry for your loss. I lost my husband 3 and a half months ago. He was also 47 when he passed away. It is so unfair that we have to go through this. I know you don't think so but you will some how make it through each day. It won't be easy and it will get worse before you have a few semi ok days. You will never not miss him. I am here if you need to talk.
  2. 3 and a half months

    It has been awhile since I have been on here. It has now been 3 and a half months since I lost my husband. I have been going to griefshare and that does help a little when I am there. I have had some semi ok days. Then it all comes crashing back. There is never a day that I don't think about him 24/7. My heart is still broken and shattered. The gut wrenching pain has wore off some. I still can't believe I will never see him again. I turn 39 in 13 days and my love won't be here. He has always been here for ecery Birthday since I was 19. I still don't know what to do with my life.
  3. Don't know what to say

    I am sorry for your loss. I also lost my husband unexpectedly. It's been 5 weeks for me. It is so unfair. It is awful that we all have to go through this. It is helpful to come on here and realize we are not alone in this horrible grief journey.
  4. Lost bf

    I am sorry for your loss. I know your pain I lost my husband a month ago. He was only 47. I am 38. He was my best friend and soulmate. It is lonely and I feel so broken. I also can't imagine him not being here any more.
  5. Helpless

    I get that some people can't do funerals. It's the way she treated him before for many years. It just hurts that she hasn't reached out.
  6. Broken

    She called his parents and I don't know if it was for sympathy or money or if she does care him. I just know the way she treated him before caused a lot of stress on him. I just don't understand why she hasn't reached out. I do know she is talking to her birth Mom again that's why she stopped talking to us again. I have legal guardianship of her sister who is not my husband's child but their birth Mom is on drugs. I know is daughter has some deep seeded issues. It just hurts.
  7. Helpless

    It has me so sad and upset. I just want my husband here to hold me. I am at work balling my eyes out.
  8. Helpless

    She blocked us from Facebook and we had no idea where she moved to or her phone number. I have reached out through people I know she talks to.
  9. Helpless

    Yesterday was so difficult. My husband's daughter who I considered my daughter to stopped talking to her father and I several months back. My husband didn't even know he had a daughter until she was 13. She came to live with us when she was 14. She ran away several times and hurt us a lot. She will be 21 in December. My husband had been so worried about her. He just wanted to know she was safe. When he passed away she did not come to his memorial. I called his parents yesterday to check on them. His Mom said she called them crying and upset about her Dad. I don't even know how she got their number because she has never called them before. My heart sank and I felt the way I did the day he died. She has not reached out to me at all. I was hoping she didn't know and that's why she didn't come to his memorial and why she didn't reach out. I am so hurt and my heart breaks for my husband that she treated him that way. This is bothering me so bad and I don't know what to do. I just wanted him to hold me yesterday and tell me everything was going to be ok. I also saw on her old Facebook a message that my husband put on there 10 days before he passed away asking for people to help him find his daughter because he even worried about her and wanted to know where she was. It's cold here this morning and that makes me miss him even more if that is even possible.
  10. Bad day

    It helps me to know we are not alone. I hate that we all have this in common but we do. So it helps to hear from others who are going through the same thing.
  11. Broken

    Thank today went from bad to worse for me. His daughter who stopped talking to us months ago. Which broke my husband's heart. She didn't even come to his memorial. I called his parents for his Dad's birthday today. His Mom told me his daughter called them crying last week upset about it. She has not called me at all. It just hurts so much. It breaks my heart for my husband because he was so worried about her and where she was. Today I feel as bad as the day it happened. I can't stop crying and hurting.
  12. Broken

    That is true it is a part of life and everything does go. It's the acceptance part that I am struggling with. I used to be a kind sweet person. Now I am just angry and bitter. I was happy and loved freely. It's so hard to realize I was happy a month ago.
  13. Broken

    I have so many beautiful memories with him and of him. I am just so sad and heart broken that there won't be any more memories.
  14. I Cannot Take It Anymore

    Me to. I thought I was ok for half a second and bam it hit me again. I am so angry and bitter. I am so overwhelmed abs and don't know where to go from here. Hugs to you my friend. I know exactly how you feel.
  15. I Cannot Take It Anymore

    Same here I have been having a rough few days to. All I want to do at work is go home to. I can't stop crying. Last night it was raining so hard. All I wanted to do was cuddle with my husband and watch movies. He's not there but I keep hoping he will be. It is so sad and lonely