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divalite5

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    Female
  • Location
    Littleton CO
  • Loss Type
    Husband passed waiting for a heart transplant
  • Angel Date
    August 4, 2017

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    Ingrid

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  1. How to get through the day...

    Thank you sharing your experiences.... It really helps when I feel guilty for just not being motivated to do anything (including taking a shower) I would like to write more, however, I am having a very bad day today and I just feel so numb.... Words just won't come out.... I will write when my mind is working a little better.... Hugs to you all..... I am so grateful for finding this forum. I feel like it is a sort of special "family" to me....
  2. How to get through the day...

    Dear Francine, Thank you for your words of comfort.... I so appreciate hearing from all of you on this forum. It feels wonderful to finally hear my own thoughts coming from other people that have gone or are going through what I am going through. I have felt so alone with my grief and pain, feeling that none of my family or friends had any idea how it feels. How could they? They haven't had the experience. It's true that every morning that I wake up I feel torn apart all over again.... Once the realization hits me that Ron is really gone and I will never hear his jokes or singing again. I do believe that I will see him again after my life ends here and I move on to the next. That does give me comfort... But living each day without him is unbearable at this time. I am so hoping that I will be able to overcome the feelings of overwhelming grief and be able to function a bit better as time moves on. It's true that I have to live just one moment at a time. It's hard to do but it does help when I can do it. I also try not to think of the memories yet.... It's too soon. Thank you again for taking the time to write such a heartfelt message to me.... It really meant a lot to me and helped tremendously. It is a good feeling to feel connected to these wonderful people on this forum. I am so grateful that I was guided here.... Hugs to you!
  3. How to get through the day...

    Hello Kay, First of all let me say sorry for your loss.... Thank you for the extremely helpful advice. It is hard to realize that I will miss him every day for the rest of my life.... It is also hard to imagine that the intensity will lessen eventually... I did take down his photos and then put them back up. I also didn't want to move anything that belonged to him anywhere in the house like the bathroom, kitchen, garage... I thought, at first, that if I moved his things out of sight that it wouldn't be so painful to always have to look at them, however, then I realized it was more painful to remove them like he didn't exist at all.... It's only been a month for me and I just can't imagine living in this kind of hell every day... I do make myself get out little bits of time and also have a great friend who happens to be a therapist (but sadly moved to Hawaii last year) but there is still FaceTime so that helps. Also, I was contemplating getting a little dog to keep me company..... I really appreciate you taking the time to write to me with your wisdom and experience. I can't express in words how much that helps me! Big Hug!
  4. How to get through the day...

    Hello M88 and Judy! Thank you so much for the replies..... It is very comforting to hear from someone that actually understands the overwhelming grief and pain that I feel right now..... I have found in my very brief time since my husband/best friend passed away, that most people feel really uncomfortable around me and try to make small talk with me to cheer me up. I don't know how to let them know that I really don't feel it necessary to say anything at all..... In fact, it is just comforting to have someone just give a heartfelt hug and leave it at that.... I appreciate their effort, however I feel like I just want to be alone and talk to my husband (Ronald) My daughters think that I should make the effort to get out and do "normal" things like shopping. But like I had mentioned, I tried that and I had to leave the store due to having such an emotional melt down going down a certain aisle causing me to have a major trigger memory... I am just so happy to have found this forum. I feel less lonely.... Hugs to you..... Also, I am also so very sorry for your loss.....
  5. My husband passed on August 4th 2017. He had cardiomyopathy and we went through the grueling procedures to get placed on the Heart Transplant List. It finally happened that he was placed on the list in June 2017. He was told that he had a good chance of getting a heart due to his size, blood type etc. So we got our hopes up.... Sadly, a heart did not arrive in time and he passed away after the 3 surgeries he endured prior to the end. He passed from a massive stroke due to the blood thinners that they had put him on. I/we really thought that he would get that heart transplant and so it was much more devastating when he passed... I can't seem to function other than doing what is absolutely necessary through out my days.... My family and friends were there during the first few weeks for support, however, they have their own lives to live. Does it get easier? I cry all day long due to all of the memories that flood my mind and seeing all of his things and even places that we went together like the grocery store. How do you get through this? Thank you for listening.... Ingrid
  6. My husband passed on August 4th 2017. He had cardiomyopathy and we went through the grueling procedures to get placed on the Heart Transplant List. It finally happened that he was placed on the list in June 2017. He was told that he had a good chance of getting a heart due to his size, blood type etc. So we got our hopes up.... Sadly, a heart did not arrive in time and he passed away after the 3 surgeries he endured prior to the end. He passed from a massive stroke due to the blood thinners that they had put him on. I/we really thought that he would get that heart transplant and so it was much more devastating when he passed... I can't seem to function other than doing what is absolutely necessary through out my days.... My family and friends were there during the first few weeks for support, however, they have their own lives to live. Does it get easier? I cry all day long due to all of the memories that flood my mind and seeing all of his things and even places that we went together like the grocery store. How do you get through this? Thank you for listening.... Ingrid
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