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  1. Anniversary

    I recently had my husband's birthday, 8 days after he passed away and what would have been our 36th anniversary, 2 months after. My husband had bought me a couple of Wedgwood pieces, which I collect before he went into the hospital. He was in a coma by the time I looked at them. I had told him not to buy anymore because I didn't have room. I'm so glad now that he did. I ordered myself a musical teddy bear that plays Elvis for myself for the anniversary as he usually bought me some Elvis memorabilia. We used to go away for at least a few days each year but hadn't talked about it this year. Last year, he was in a nursing home for rehabilitation so I got Chinese takeout and a cake. We had to stay in his room because he had c-diff and he was considered contagious. I'm sure you'll find your own way to celebrate what should have been. I'll be praying for you.
  2. Don't know where to turn

    I can't believe that yesterday, exactly 3 months after losing my husband, my stepfather passed away unexpectedly. I don't know what to do for my mother as I'm still dealing with my own grief and am having physical issues as well.
  3. Cemetery Marker

    It took me over 2 months to even look at what to have engraved on my husband's urn. I didn't expect it to come so soon and cried when I opened it. It took a couple of days before I took a picture and sent it to his sister. She made me feel better as she liked what I picked out. I guess seeing it feels so final. Praying for you.
  4. first birthday

    I bought something that my husband would have gotten me for our 36th anniversary, which will be Tuesday. We used to go away for at least a day or two but I'm not ready to go anywhere by myself yet.
  5. first birthday

    My husband died a week before his 57th birthday. My son came over and we cleaned out the kitchen cupboards and then we went to his house for dinner. He also past away 3 weeks before my birthday. I was still numb at this point and I went to work and came home. I did not want to do anything. We did go out to eat later in the week. I am dreading what would have been our 36th anniversary, we tried to go away, even if it was only for a few days. I do have to work that day, so hoping that keeps my mind off of it. The next night we are having a 30th birthday party for my oldest niece. It's going to be at a winery, I don't really want to go but she is my God daughter so I feel obligated. My son and I made spaghetti sauce yesterday and today, that was hard because my husband always helped out. It's amazing how many "firsts" there are. I'm sure there will be sadness no matter what you do.
  6. I lost my husband of 35 years in June. I've been to busy until now to grieve. I feel so alone and lonely. I do have faith but am struggling right now. There is no local support groups and my pastor just lost his son and is not in a position to counsel me. My family sees crying as a weakness so I stay at home so I don't upset anyone. I have no real close friends and nobody to talk to. Where do I go from here?
  7. Lost my husband in June

    I also lost my husband in June, he was my life. I feel so alone. My husband was bi-polar and hard to love at times. It seems that no one talks to me anymore. I do believe in God and was attending church but I feel like I'm invisible or something. I have not cried much as that is considered a weakness in my family. I don't have anyone to turn to but I am so depressed right now and I don't know what to do. I feel for you.