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  1. my sons dog Nash

    Thanks AJWCat. I'm hoping for that for sure. One day at a time.
  2. my sons dog Nash

    Thanks Missy P and AJWCat. My wife had asked me to log on to this forum and talking about it with others that have gone through the same would help. As usual she was right. Missy P - I feel for you. A few years ago a came home to my cat Mitsy lying on the floor, breating heavy and had to take her to the vet to put an end to her pain. She was sick for a while. She was ten years old though. I expected that would happen. This is over powering. Nash was a little kid in my eye. 2 years old - full of energy and life. As I said before I have never felt like this in my life. This sadness and depression. Can't shake the images in my head. I'm a HUGE animal lover and what happened on Sunday is going to haunt me forever. Spent the morning crying in my kitchen before I came to work. Sitting here hoping i don't have to head out to my truck or hide in the bathroom 4 times again today so no one sees me crying. As others on this forum say, I just want the pain to go away. To get to that point where i can remember the good times with Nash without breaking down. Not like it is now where just looking at my front porch makes me break down because Nash used to sit out there with me in the morning.
  3. my sons dog Nash

    Thanks for the link KayC. That helps.
  4. my sons dog Nash

    My son also asked for us to bury Nash at our house. One of the toughest things I have ever done. He couldn't help as he was so devastated. I can't even look in our backyard without tears rolling down my face. I closed the pool on Sunday right after this happened and honestly don't know if I will ever be able to look at the pool wihtout crying let alone going in it. My daughter's a nurse and has seen a lot of death and grieving. She told me that if loving something feels so good and right then losing that is going to carry that same amount of sadness and hurt. And that's it in a nutshell. It hurts so much beacause you loved so much. Poor poor Nash is all I keep thinking over and over. just want to pain to stop. Hard to explain.
  5. my sons dog Nash

    Thanks AJWCat. My mother used to say 'this too shall pass'. That is where my hope hangs now. Hard to imagine when you're right in the depths of it. We had to go to my Son's house last night to get some of his clothes. I went with him to keep it company and it was tough. Seeing the dogs things scattered around the house. So sad. I can't explain the way I'm feeling. Obviosuly, at almost 50, I've lost close family members in the past. Cried over losing them. But i have never felt this kind of loss. It's all encompassing.
  6. my sons dog Nash

    Not sure where to start with this. My 27 yr old son had left his dog Nash with us over the weekend. Nash was an amazing full of life 2 year old miniture schnauzer that my wife and I loved so much. On Sunday he got past our pool gate and fell into the pool and drowned. I found him and tried to revive him but it was too late. Thankfully my wife or younger daughter didn't find him but since it happened I just can't get passed the grief, guilt, depression, sadness. This little dog was my son's and my little buddy. Going with us everywhere. My son is staying with us for a while instead of going home to an empty house and he's doing his best to deal with the pain. I feel like my greif is preventing him from dealing with his pain the way he should as he's always asking me if I'm ok instead of the other way around. There just seems to be no controlling it. Even now as I type this it's through eyes full of tears. Anyway, I'm not sure why I logged in other than I just needed some place to write this down. Trying to get through the day, crying every 10 mins. Hoping the next day will be better than the one before.