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  1. My little girl is gone

    @AJWCat Thank you so much. I am already working my way towards recovery and haven't been crying as much. I also just read your topic and I am so, so sorry for what happened to your kitty too. This may not have been when or how you expected him to go, but I know he lived a very long and wonderful life with you and your husband based on how much you both care for him. It's a very hard thing to go through especially when it happens unexpectedly, but at least you can know that you can let go of your guilt. I hope you will recover and find some peace soon. @KayC Thank you so much, and I'm so sorry for the loss of your cats. I can assure they loved living with you and had amazing lives before it was their time to go. And the unknowing is very hard, I would actually rather find her body somewhere than not know what happened to cause her disappearance because we can give her a burial and know we can stop looking and worrying. I am also so sorry for what your daughter had to go through, it makes me so mad that people do such awful things, especially to small children. I'm so glad she was able to tell you and you got her counseling, people often keep abuse to themselves for much longer than your daughter did or even for their entire lives. I hope everything you're doing to help her has brought her the peace she deserves. Fortunately, about a year ago my parents were able to get me the best counselor I could ask for! The next time I see her I'm planning to talk to her about my cat because it's still affecting me a lot, and my friends have also helped me cope. I'm volunteering at the same animal shelter we adopted her from when school starts for me and we're planning on adopting another cat in a couple months or whenever we fully recover, but it will most likely be a kitten that hasn't had any experience outdoors so we can raise it to be a happy indoor cat. There's just too much danger outside where I live. Again, thank you I hope you and your family find peace. (hugs!) @KMB Thank you so much. I am still barely hanging on to hope and I'm so sorry for what happened to your kitten. She was very happy with you and I'm so glad she was able to tell you she's still happy where she is and that she allowed you to stop looking for her. If a coyote did get her she went quickly with no pain. I'm also glad that you adopted a kitten of the same litter so you can have a pet to keep you company as well as still have a piece of your previous kitten in your life. I hope everything has gone peacefully for you since.
  2. My beautiful cat ❤

    I'm so sorry your sweet girl is gone. I know without a doubt that she had a long and wonderful life with you and your family based on how much you care for her. Do not feel guilty for putting her down; it was the right thing to do based on the pain she was in and there wasn't much else you could have done. I totally understand why you're feeling this way, I feel so much guilt for my kitty too. Crying over the loss of a pet who has been a major part of your life for so many years is the opposite of childish and I'm so sorry people are judging you when you are already in so much pain. Your long-lived and beautiful cat is at peace now and I wish you only the best in moving forward. ❤️
  3. My little girl is gone

    Thank you so much to anyone who comments or even reads my story. I have never been so hopeless and I appreciate anyone reading this for taking time out of their day to help me cope with my loss. I am 16 years old and I've owned my cat since 4th grade. She was only 7 years old when she went missing a couple days ago. She was my rock, my support, my happiness and one of my few reasons for living. Even though it's more than likely that she is gone forever, I can't seem to accept it and I'm still praying that my baby will come home. To give some background, I was abused by a neighbor when I was little and I have only told my parents a few months ago and have been trying to deal with it since. It has given me PTSD and a social disorder and I wish I was able to trust people. I never wanted to live as someone who was abused and whenever I would start crying and/or panic when the memories resurfaced my kitty would comfort me like no other, jumping up on my bed with a loud purr and bumping her face into mine. She was there for me when my parents were too stressed to help me with what I was going through. We went away from home for 4 days recently while my mom's friend took care of the cat, and she reportedly hid under my parents' bed whenever my mom's friend came inside to feed her. She had gotten a little bit thinner before we left but it was nothing worth being concerned over. When we came home she was acting fairly normal but there was vomit in my room. I didn't think much of it because she only vomits when she eats too fast or has clumps of hair in her stomach and then she's completely fine. Later she was desperately howling to get outside after having been inside for 4 days. I know people will disagree with letting cats outside but because of her ear tufts, extra toes, strong hunting instinct and desire to be outdoors, the shelter we adopted her from believes that our cat is part lynx. A strict indoor life would have made her miserable. We felt sorry for her and let her outside, knowing she would come back by 9 or 10pm like she always does. We all took turns looking for her for hours but couldn't find her anywhere and assumed she wanted to be left alone for the night. We still couldn't find her the following morning but we saw cat pee behind the couch in the living room. It was dark with blood and no one knew how long it had been there. We immediately knew that she may have been too sick to get away from predators like she always does and that she may have been taken away by something. We called her outside, shook her food, looked in our front and back yard and all around the neighborhood, and put up posters. Each minute that has passed without her has made my heart heavier and I feel like I'm somehow to blame, that I should have known she was too sick to be left alone outside. I haven't stopped crying and I would do anything to have her back. Even just typing this whole thing out has lifted some of the pain but it's still very present. I would be beyond appreciative if someone saw this and gave me some assuring words during this tough time in my life.