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  1. Don't know what to say

    Alone first time in last 8 years. It sucks big time.
  2. I don't want to continue on without him

    Oh gosh same i am experiencing, pain in chest. I don't know how to describe this but yes sometimes i feel pain in my chest, sometimes on left and right and sometimes both sides but like you said no plan to meet doctor. Who the hell care to meet doctor, i will be more than happy if this pain take my life then this will not sucide and may be no guilt on me to take my own life.
  3. Don't know what to say

    Same case with me , i cant feel his presence. Where is he if he is seeing me why don't he show up.
  4. Don't know what to say

    I was on bed since 6pm on Friday evening and had little drink. I was thinking to start drinks but I was stopping myself, I don't like drinks not its taste but don't know why i drank last night, I just wanted to take revenge but no idea from whom. Sometime i just wants to spoil my self, my life , everything around me.
  5. Yes he does not exist, at-least not for me. After loosing my husband I have no faith on God so yes I am totally agree with you, HE DOES NOT EXIST.
  6. I don't want to continue on without him

    Yuppp its Friday again. Friday night here, can you believe we survived 6 months without them. Today 6 months completed last time i saw him, heard him, can't believe i survived this far. These 6 months were the most disaster months of my life, i was never that much sad before like i m now. I am so tired of this, hopefully it will end soon no matter how , i just want to stop this pain , suffering.
  7. I don't want to continue on without him

    Thanks Azipod for your words but I am not sure if any love left inside me for anyone, that's my problem, I don't feel for anyone. Others pain doesn't effect me like it used to earlier. I only feel bad for those who lost their partners other than that nothing effect me. I don't care for anyone, nothing bothers me at all.
  8. I don't want to continue on without him

    This is so true, I have learned the same, not to judge other peoples and life can change in seconds. Earlier if I saw any annoying person or see anything which is wrong according to my morals, I judge others but now I can understand maybe that other person have his own problems. Sometimes I want to do all that stuff which I thought wrong before like smoking, drinking, or doing something bad but then I feel what if he is watching me, does he like if I start smoking or drinking then at the same time I feel if he is watching and not liking all this, he can come and stop me. This is my way to take revenge from him. He left me here for crying, in never loosing pain so I can also give him some pain. I sounds like crazy person but there are lot of thoughts going on my mind every seconds and I don't know how to handle all these crap.
  9. I don't want to continue on without him

    Its almost 11:55pm here. Last year this time we were going for new year celebrations and i was so tired because of schedule and told him that next year i m not gonna go for celebration out of city. I didn't knew that time, its going to be true, never thought my whole life will change in 2017 and going to be big time sucks. I am in my bed right now and missing him so badly, all I can do is crying and beg for death. Hopefully i will not see 2019 and die in 2018, hopefully this year is my last year of life. Like him i will turn 30 in 2018 so hopefully i will go like him in my 30.
  10. I don't want to continue on without him

    I am not sure if I am numb or not but the only thing make me cry is my loss other than that I feel nothing. I am really bad person because I read in this forum that after this kind of loss people felt others pain more closely but I don't know why I don't feel others pain , I just cry for him and miss him other than that nothing bothers me at all.
  11. I don't want to continue on without him

    I beg for death every single day, I am done with this pain and life. Starting of this year I found out that my grandma having cancer and i was so sad and shocked by this news but after loosing my husband I am no more concerned about Grandma anymore. I am having kind of satisfaction that at least she is in her old age but my husband gone in his 30. My uncle hospitalized from last week and I didn't go to meet him, I know I sound really harsh person but that's what I am now. Nothing bothers me in that way it used to earlier. I was so soft from heart, if I saw any emotional thing on tv I started crying but now nothing melt my heart. I was scared in my initial days that I am going to be harsh and bitter women and I guess its true now, I am harsh bad women who doesn't feel anything.
  12. Don't know what to say

    Hugs for you, from me and My Goli.
  13. Nighttime

    Seeing our luck I guess we are going to wake up again and again for few more years.
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