Not sure what to say or where to start? I'm 36 years old I lost my dad on his birthday 6-8-17 we will never know what (killed him) he had cancer, blood clots, a huge bed sore & he was just (tired of fighting) though you could tell he was scared to die. I started attending a grief support group it's hard I'm not sure what I believe at times? I'm angry at my mom, my siblings and my dad's family no-one helped me for 16 years. My mom and dad should've divorced a long time ago not sure why they didn't? I'm angry my dad had no father & mother, he got addicted and became an alcoholic, got diabetes, hepatitis, blood clots, bed sores, congestive heart failure, lost his leg in 2001. And I question over, over, over & daily ask WHY? Why do humans have to suffer (so much emotionally, physically, mentally & etc)? Is Life suppose to be full of (pain)? I question too much Life because I've seen those struggling to get medicines, supplies. Is Life suppose to be so painful?