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  1. It's been a little over a year since losing my dad unexpectedly. Not a day goes by that I don't think about him. At least once a week something will happen or I'll read something and think "I should give dad a call and tell him..." I visited his grave for the first time last month when I was back visiting family and that was really hard, couldn't control the emotions! I am currently riding a rollercoaster of emotions and have good days and bad, lots of struggles...
  2. So I lost my father unexpectedly in June 2016. I got to spend almost 5 days with him in hospital along with my oldest brother watching him fade away. I was there when he took his final breath which is a sight I will never forget, I am grateful for the final time I spent with him but it was REALLY hard. Since his passing I have struggled with depression. I have never been very good at talking about my emotions, I prefer to bottle them up and I have pretty much bottled everything up for the last ~24 years. I have talked to a psychologist a bunch of times and tried to talk to my wife but it only helps for a bit then I start bottling up everything again. I take it out on my family by being very short with them or not talking to my wife which I feel absolutely horrible about. Over the last year since my dad's passing, my mom who lives 3,000+ miles away has been slipping deeper and deeper into depression and drinking more and more until a few weeks ago when we happened to be in town visiting where she decided she needed to make a change and got herself admitted to a mental health institute where she is doing much better. I'm hopeful but trying not to get my hopes up in case things go sideways again. So that's a lot of rambling... I'm not sure what I'm doing on here but I obviously have things I need to discuss so I guess I'm hoping this helps.