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Lovemykitty

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About Lovemykitty

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    Newbie

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  • Gender
    Female
  • Location
    Ann Arbor, Michigan
  • Loss Type
    Cat
  • Angel Date
    7-31-2017

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  • Occupation
    Retail
  • Last Name
    Newman
  • First Name
    Justine
  • Zip
    48103
  1. My Cat Munchkin

    Lost my best friend Munchkin four weeks ago yesterday. I miss her very much!! I think about her every day, and every night. I still have the pain in my heart from missing her so much. I want to believe the "Rainbow Bridge" is real. I am holding on to that hope, that I will see her again. If I did not have this, I do not think I could go on. I feel so alone...
  2. My Cat Munchkin

    This past Monday will be the third week living without Munchkin. I miss her so much!! It is a struggle for me just to try and get through my day. I cannot stop thinking about her. Still falling apart after I get out of work. Then the drive home crying my eyes out. When I unlock my front door and walk in, I still look around for her and then reality slaps me in the face. I have lost ten pounds since all this happened. I am just not hungry anymore. I have little bits of things here and there, but no appetite. I also cannot bring myself to eat meat of any kind. I used to, but with Munchkin passing away I cannot do it. I keep thinking of her rapid weight loss. She was barely eating anything before she passed away. I tried everything I could think of to get her to eat, but nothing worked. I know there is a psychological thing going on in my head in regards to that. I appreciate the kind words from all of you. I know the grieving process takes time, but with me it is going to take a long, long time. I want to keep talking about her. I do not ever want to stop thinking about her. She was my world, and I feel so alone now without her.
  3. My Cat Munchkin

    I just got home from work, and crying once again. I miss my beautiful little Munchkin!! I loved her so much!! I would always tell her that, and then give her a kiss on the head. I sit here and think about all those times. I think about funny things she used to do. I just cannot accept the fact that she is gone. I am having such a hard time with this. I was talking to my daughter yesterday about Munchkin and how I cannot seem to get a grip on reality. I told her I am beginning to think I may need to go see a psychiatrist. She said I should consider it, if I am not feeling any better. I told her about the kind words people have shared with me on this site. I understand everyone here has suffered a loss, and they are here to talk about it like I am. It seems like they are all handling their losses better than I am. I feel like a total basket case. I will never get used to her being gone. The pain I feel is just as intense as it was the day she passed away.
  4. My Cat Munchkin

    It has been two weeks ago, since my little Munchkin passed away. I miss her so much it hurts. I feel so lost and alone without her. Last night I was talking to her ashes telling her how much I loved and missed her. I am not myself, and my co workers are worried about me. I have not been the same. I feel like a zombie just walking through my day, and nothing seems to matter any more. I wish I could bring her back. I am hoping I will see some kind of a sign from her telling me she is okay, and I will see her again. At the same time I am terrified it may never happen. I do not know what to do any more.
  5. My Cat Munchkin

    Driving home from work today, I just lost it thinking about Munchkin. I honestly do not think I am going to get through this. I have experienced so much pain in my life,it is unreal. I am stressed out to the max. Munchkin was my daily therapy. I could count on her to always listen to me. She always knew when I was upset. She was the one who could make me feel better. I do not know how I am going to manage and go on. She was not just a cat, she was my best friend. I miss her so badly. I thought having her ashes with me would simmer me down a little bit. I talk to her like she is still here, but then the pain kicks in and not seeing her entirely is killing me. I am so lost.
  6. My Cat Munchkin

    All I can think about is Munchkin. I am just lost and I just do not know what to do with myself. She has been gone a week now, and I cannot accept that. I will never see my best friend again. I hated leaving her in the mornings when I went to work. I would tell her to be a good girl. I even left the tv on in my bedroom, because that is where she always was. Every day as I drove home from work, I was always looking forward to seeing her. It made me so happy when she waited for me. Then we would go about our evening and I was always talking to her and giving her pets and chin rubs. I wish I knew what Munchkin seen in me. To me, I am a loser. Years of bad things happening made me think that way. Munchkin did not see me that way. She loved me unconditionally, and I loved her. I was not perfect, and she still wanted to be with me all the time. I sure hope she knew I loved her always and forever. I would do anything to have her back with me...
  7. My Cat Munchkin

    All I can think about is my cat Munchkin. I am so so depressed and full of guilt. The pain inside me just gets more intense. I cannot eat or sleep, and my mind will not stop thinking about the day of her passing. She was my everything, and it is hard to go on without her. I was hoping she would make it to her 17th birthday, which is October 13th, 2017. I know cats cannot live forever, but I was hoping she could defeat the odds and be with me always. I am blaming myself wondering what I could have done to save her. Her passing was very fast. She seemed to be doing fine, except for not wanting to eat. I would buy many different kinds of food for her to try, but she barely touched it. I would end up throwing it out. I contributed this to being a senior kitty and you slow down a bit. She lost so much weight and then went on a downward spiral. The day and night before she passed, she was up moving around constantly. I watched her trying to find a place to rest, but it was like she was looking for a comfortable spot to lay down. I think I need to stop writing for now. I am once again starting to have a panic attack and my tears will not stop. I loved my little Munchkin so, so much. I hope she knows she was the best little thing that ever happened to me. She was with me through all my good times, and the unfortunate bad times. She was the one who could cheer me up and make me forget my troubles. She always knew what to do. I "Love You Munchkin"!!
  8. My Cat Munchkin

    I "thank-you" for your kind words. All I can seem to manage to do is break down in tears constantly. My mind keeps thinking about her, and wondering if there was more I could have done. I do not think I will ever recover.
  9. My Cat Munchkin

    I lost my little Munchkin this past Monday, July 31, 2017. I am having a horrible time coping with her passing. I am having severe panic attacks, and cannot stop crying. I am terrified to be in my own home because I am expecting to see her. She was a huge part of my every day life. I am so scared I am not going to get through this. I would do anything to have her back with me now. My coworkers must think I am crazy because I keep breaking down at work. I need help, and I do not know what to do. I do not know how to act in my home, because everything reminds me of her. I want to always remember her, she was my best friend. It is just hard to sort through all this.
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