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Littlesister28

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  1. I lost the most important man in my life, my brother.

    Thank you for being honest because I feel everyone around me keeps saying with time you'll be better etc. and I know that's not true. I have a routine but I feel so empty with everything I do. You are right the shock really has me unsettled to see him then he's gone forever after that. Hurts even more because the last time I hugged him... he hugged me so tight I can almost feel it when I think hard about it. I keep wondering if he knew he was going to die.
  2. 4 weeks and 2 days ago I lost my brother Angelo. He was 33 I am 21. His death was very sudden. My cousin and I were the last to see him before he died and I honestly feel like I died that day with him. I do have another brother but Angelo was like my best friend my father than my brother. His death is still being investigated but I don't know how much more I can take. I cry everyday anytime I catch myself smiling it goes away just as fast as it came. He is gone. My heart is gone and I don't think I can handle this too much longer. I know I will never be ok and to know 4 , 6 , 8 years from now it is still going to hurt so bad what do I do?? I think about dying everyday just so I could be in his presence again. I miss him so much and my heart just hearts I'm never going to be happy without him I'm so mad but I don't even have someone to be mad at because as of now we don't even know what really happened. But I feel like I can't take it anymore I don't have genuine motivation to continue college or anything I'm mad as hell and I am hurting.
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