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  1. Hi Mia, and Reader, and guest, I'm sharing your pain and emotions. I also lost my beautiful fiance two months ago i don't feel like I can go on in this pain anymore. It doesn't go away for a moment. I cry and cry and cry. I miss him so much..My stomach is in a huge knot all the time. I feel sick. I.can't eat, I take sleeping tablets to go to sleep, holding tightly onto the teddy he gave me, and then I wake up and he cycle starts again. the heartache is unbearable. How are you doing now. How are you getting through each day? Plead let me know
  2. My Boyfriend

    I share your pain. I too lost my fiance two months ago. Living without him is unbearable. Knowing it is because of my circumstances that he died I am ridden with guilt and heartache and regret and the most pain I have ever felt in my life. I too sleep every night holding on to the stuffed teddy he bought me. I feel like I wont last long. I can't handle the depth of pain and regret I feel. Pleade let me know how you are. Has it got any easier. How you are coping. I'm so sorry
  3. My Boyfriend

    I share your pain
  4. Hi Sandy My name's Karin. My fiance died a month ago. I cannot move forward. I just cry and cry and cry. I loved him and was in love with him and I feel responsible for his death. Day and night I remember how wonderful he was, how wonderful we were together. So in love. He wss the most awesome man I ever met. And now he's gone. And I have to try and go on. I don't feel like I can. How are you? Are you feeling any better. Did it get easier. I feel like I don't want to go on, the pain and heartache and regret are too much to bear. It was my fault and he took himself away. I don't know how I can go on without him. And I caused it. Thank you for listening. I am finished
  5. Hi Mayra I'm so sorry you are going through this too. I dont think it is possible to feel more pain than this.. How are you coping. I'm not sure how to cope or how to pick up the pieces of my life. My life feels like it has come to a complete stop. I just don't care about anything anymore. All the joy had gone out.of my life. I think about Joel every second of the day. I don't know how to move on. Let me know how you are. Hugs.
  6. Lost my soulmate

    Lulu, I feel the same way you do. It is sheer torture. And the sense of despair is overwhelming. I am also alone in the home we shared. And I miss my Angel so much, hearing his bursts of laughter when he was watching the comedy channel, dancing to our favorite music together, singing along to the songs we loved, doing the crossword on Sunday mornings, just loving, and being loved. It is so hard to adjust to all this being taken away so suddenly. I do believe that only time can get us through this, and talking here if you need to. But I do know what you are going through. Today was particularly bad for me. I was in tears the whole day, and now I am just emotionally drained. I know what you are going through. My heart goes out to you. It is unbearable.
  7. Lost my soulmate

    Hi Lulu I understand so well how you feel. I don't want to be here anymore. Every day without my Angel is increasing the sadness despair and loneliness I feel. Maybe I am just weak, or pathetic, I don't know, but the pain is so wholly encompassing.
  8. Lost my soulmate

    Hi Lulu Just wanted to say hello. It doesn't really make your pain any easier but I wanted to tell you I am going through pretty much what you are. I was also the introvert in our relationship. He was so confident so out there, but yet only wanted to spend time with me. We spent all our time together, not very healthy I guess, but we only wanted to be with one another. Not many people even knew we were in a relationship together, some may not have approved, but we were so much in love. I cherish the love letter he wrote me before he died. That and some photos, and a short video clip of him dancing. We loved to dance. Almost every night we would put the music on and dance the night away. We'd make supper together, he loved to cook, loved to teach me how to cook, then we'd dance, we'd watch a little tv before falling sleep together. He was the most perfect partner I could have wished for. Then God took him from me. His family ignore me, and my family didn't really know him. But he was remarkable, and the love of my life. I also sit here alone grieving and don't know how to carry on. We just loved to be together. Don't know how to carry on without him either. So lonely. Just thought I'd share that I can relate so all to what you are going through. Hugs
  9. Thank you so much. I feel I want to go and join my angel. Can't see any point of being here without him. He was so beautiful inside and out. And so smart, and clever, and we loved to dance and cook together. We loved music and would dance together almost every night to the old time music we loved. He was perfect for me. And now he's gone. I am old now. 54 years old. I'll never find another love like him. How do normal people get through this. I don't know how. But thank you. It was lovely to hear from you. Hugs.
  10. Hi Mike's Girl I also want to say how sorry I am for what you are going through. I had a similar reaction from Joel's family. Joel was my life. And I his. We would spend hours and hours together and be so content and happy. We were in love. I also asked the family to allow me to keep some of his personal things with me. I needed to feel him around me. They ignored my request. Mike's Girl, the pain we feel is indescribable. I also feel so lost without my beautiful man. I don't have any reassuring words really. But I know exactly how you feel. It is so very hard ;(
  11. Hi sadandlost Thank you so much for responding to me. I am riddlid with guilt and pain. I loved him so much. He was my soulmate and I just didn't see how badly he was being affected by my circumstances. He wrote me a beautiful letter expressing his love for me. So beautiful. I was so blind. He loved me so much. And now he's gone. I just don't know how to live without him. I can't forgive myself. I just want him back. I'm so sad and lonely. Take care too. Let me know how you are coping too. Love Karin
  12. Hi my name's Karin. I also lost my soulmate 10 days ago. I don't know how to go on. Don't want to get up or get dressed or go out. I am feeling so much pain. Just want to let you know I understand your pain. Just so much pain. Strength. Hugs. Karin
  13. Hi everyone. I hope someone will talk to me. I am hurting so much, I am distraught, feeling lost, cry all the time, or drink to lessen the pain, I feel so guilty, and I caused this situation to happen. My beautiful man is gone. I live with a painful knot in my stomach constantly. I can't see how my life can carry on. I don't want too be here without him..My beautiful soulmate has gone away forever. I loved him with all of my heart more than I have ever loved before. He was the biggest joy in my life. We Just loved one another so much. We spent all of our free time together, cooking together, dancing to our beautiful music, singing together, we had so much fun together. My perfect beautiful man. But there was one issue in our lives that bothered. I knew how much it bothered him, but I didn't do anything about it. I just felt powerless to change it. I hate myself now and fell sick to my stomach for not doing the right thing. .We had many fights over this. Just so you know, the situation I refer to involved a man, who I looked after, I paid his rent, gave him food, he was an alcoholic and could not take care of himself, but that's another topic. I supported him. We argued about this a lot. But I didn't have the heart to put this man out on the street. I didn't comptehend it was affecting him so badly until the end. And now he's gone. I love him so much and I feel responsible for his death. He told me he couldn't live without me but that he couldn't take my situation anymore. I hate myself now. I don't want to live without him. I pray for him to come back. That I will make it alright. But it is too late now. He is gone. How do I carry on. Please someone tell me how.
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