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About Djh0901kc

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  • Loss Type
    My wife
  • Angel Date
    June 17, 2017

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  1. Don't know what to say

    I know exactly what you mean. I’ve done the same thing as far as research. There’s even a site that gives a pain score for each method and describes what will actually happen. I cannot see another way. I can get through a day, barely. But years? I can’t see it
  2. One Year Later - I'm still here

    I, like you, am so scared of the things I will forget in time. The little things that made up life together. Silly little songs she would sing. Im trying to write things down as much as I can but it’s terrifying. I don’t to forget anything! I wish our whole life had been recorded so I could watch it over and over! Thank you for helping me to feel not quite so crazy. Thinking of you today.
  3. Don't know what to say

    I can’t stop thinking about Sally and how jealous I am of her that she’s free
  4. Don't know what to say

    I don’t know what to do with myself. That’s for sure. There used to never be enough time in the day to do all the things we wanted and needed to do. Now I can’t fill the days. I try to go to bed as early as possible so I can lose myself to blessed sleep.
  5. Don't know what to say

    Today is 25 weeks. Almost 6 months. Those of you who have been doing this for years have my utmost admiration.
  6. Don't know what to say

    Christmas coming is terrifying. I’ve been avoiding stores that decorate which is hard to do. Christmas music is like nails on a chalkboard. I’m a full blown grinch it seems
  7. My sister, TooDevastated

    I know it’s incredibly selfish but the thought of passing the grief baton or whatever never occurs to me. I’ll be dead. Either there’s no afterlife and I won’t care what is left behind or there is an afterlife and I’ll be with Kayla which outweighs everything else. You’re all better humans than me
  8. I understand that. We have thousands of dollars of decorations in color coded, meticulously labeled tubs in the garage and still all I could manage was to buy a couple pumpkins for the front porch. My wife even made wreaths for each holiday and I haven’t been able to change that since she died either. My center is gone as well
  9. Don't know what to say

    Sitting at my mom and grandmas house. There’s the blanket Kayla made for my grandma. There’s the throw pillow she had made for them for Christmas with family photos printed onto it. Pictures of us everywhere. Her purse sitting next to the couch where she always used to put it. Pies bought from bakers square because she was the one that always made them from scratch. I hate this. I hate this day. I hate that she isn’t here where she should be.
  10. Thank you. Just struggling with the holiday and everything.
  11. It really is an excellent article.
  12. My sister, TooDevastated

    God I was so afraid this might have happened. I even messaged a few other people here to see if they had heard from her. I’m so sorry she’s gone. Your sister was one of the few people I felt truly understood how I was feeling and she really helped me. I’m so sorry
  13. Don't know what to say

    It’s like another life that belonged to someone else. I can remember it like I was there but it was a different person. 15 years gone in 5 months
  14. Don't know what to say

    It definitely already feels hard to remember how it was before. I watch videos of Kayla over and over and it feels impossible this was real just a few months ago. I don’t know how to bear it. I feel like I can’t.
  15. I Just Can't Do This Without Him

    I just found this a minute ago. It’s as true as anything
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