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  1. 7th month

    It's been 7 months for me too. I cry everyday , I'm not really sure how I have even made it this far to be honest. I am lucky to have my kids as they made the holidays bearable. I have no idea how I am going to live the rest of my life without him, it makes me sick inside to even think of it. I never knew there was pain that can cut right through to your soul prior to losing my husband. My life right now is just working and paying the bills, no excitement,joy or happiness of any kind, just existing. I can only hope that it will not be like this forever. I have never felt such emptiness before. My heart goes out to all of us suffering through this.
  2. I am so scared.

    KC, You have helped so many including myself . I can't say thank you enough to each and everyone of you for all the kind words and advice you all take time give others. I haven't posted in awhile as I'm still struggling and feel like I can't contribute much to help anyone but I just wanted to say thank you for words and kindness as it has gotten me through many rough moments. Diane
  3. One Year Later - I'm still here

    Francine, I haven't posted in a,while but after reading your beautiful words I just wanted to reach out and say that your Charles is definitely proud of you. You have helped so many here with your kind thoughtful words and advice. Your compassion for others always shines through even when your suffering through your own grief. I hope year two gives you peace and strength. I have learned so much from your words, thank you Diane
  4. Offline awhile

    Happy birthday KayC! Hope it ended better than it started. God knows you deserve it
  5. Two Months...

    Totally agree
  6. Lost

    KC, You should write a book ! What a,strong woman you are to have survived all of that and still manage to have a positive attitude and help others! Maybe Francine could co-author it with you, you both have a way with words. I sure would read it.
  7. Lost

    Missy, I am so sorry for your loss. In the first few weeks after my husband passed I was so consumed with grief I felt like i was losing my mind. I couldn't function. It has been three months and I still cry everyday but my head has cleared a little . My husband passed suddenly of a heart attack , it was so hard to believe he was gone. Some days it is still hard to believe. Keep posting here, the people here truly care and totally get get how you are feeling. My heart goes out to you and your children.
  8. Lost

    I I used to want to take care of myself and actually said to my husband a few weeks before he passed that we need to be healthier so we can be around for our grandchildren some day. Now when i feel any pain I'm like bring it on I'm ready to go. I don't have the fight in me either.
  9. Want to share my experience.

    Thank you Andy. Tonight has been rough, feeling very overwhelmed with all the responsibility of the house, yard , bills ,kids all while working full time and most of all missing my husband. Feeling sorry for myself I guess. I will try not to lose hope although today it is not within reach. Maybe tomorrow will be better. I'm happy you are on the right path! I hope to find that path someday too.
  10. Want to share my experience.

    Thank you Andy for your post, gives me hope that maybe there is some light at the end of the tunnel.
  11. New here

    I'm Irish and we tend to like a drink or two or three. I just know it will make me more depressed so i don't even attempt it. I lost both my parents by the time I was 19 and it was devastating but not even close to what I am feeling now. I just feel like the pain will never end, how can I live the rest of my life this way. I just wish I could turn it off.
  12. One year ago - today

    Your post has given me hope ,thank you! Like Toodevestaded said it's nice to know there's light at the end of the tunnel even if i don't see it or believe it. My husband died of a heart attack three months ago at the age of fifty. I'm so sad all the time but grateful for this amazing group of people here always giving advice and support. I want to get to the end of that tunnel so desperately, but I'm stuck. I feel like that movie Groundhog Day. Wake up and repeat. I'm not living just existing.
  13. New here

    I'm sorry for your loss. My husband passed suddenly from a heart attack at the age of fifty three months ago. I struggle every day to just breathe. I miss him terribly and wonder if this agony will subside a bit. I too wish I was the type who could drink but i dont think anything could numb the pain we are feeling. I have children as well but I try not to bring up what i am feeling so i don't add to their grief and cause them to worry. I never knew pain like this before. This group has helped me feel not so alone and I can say how i feel with no judgement. My heart goes out to everyone here.
  14. Songs with your loved ones

    Beautiful I love Norah Jones
  15. Songs with your loved ones

    The last song my husband and I listened to the day he passed was Let It Be, we played it at his funeral. I now have it tattooed on my foot. Our wedding song was Have I told you lately that I love you by Van Morrison. I try not to listen to music anymore brings up too many emotions for me. I listen to pod casts when I drive instead.