My apologies, for not replying, sooner. You can read up , sir, more about me, on my mental health, blog. Also, you can read up on a converstation of mine on a Facebook Group.
Basically, I'm seeking completion per the Grief Recovery Handbook, whilst being terribly numb emotionally, but still feeling painful. I also feel torn between reconciling, and moving on; I make scenes at family get-togethers, because I do not want to be invited, but go, because...well, I think you get it.
Hopefully, this explains things, better. Does it? I'm suffering from Attachment Trauma, and Emotional Numbness, trying thus to escape. Ideas?