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    My 24 year old daughter
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    Dec. 23 2012


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  1. Loss of an Adult Child

    Thank you for you kind words ericasmom, Tommys mum, and mermaid tears. Yes it has been hard doing this. I have attempted it a couple times but it got so overwhelming, and reliving the day she passed away...Thank you all for your kind words. Mermaid tears, I love that quote you posted, it hits right on the spot. Yes I have googled to see if I could get any ideas, but found nothing on how to incorporate the grand-babies on her stone.
  2. Loss of an Adult Child

    Thank you ericasmom.
  3. Loss of an Adult Child

    Hello Everyone, It has been a while since I have been on. It has been over 4 years since my daughter has passed away, and I am ashamed and embarrassed to admit that I have just now purchased her grave stone today. I have made excuses to avoid it up until now, but its done. I have sole custody of her three young daughters. My question is I was thinking of putting their names on the grave stone as far as maybe "Loving daughter, sister, and mother of Abigail, Layla, and Isabella" but I just dont know?? Does anybody have any advice in how i can incorporate their names on her grave stone in a nice way. My oldest granddaughter which is ten really wants it done, but I can't seem to figure out how to put it on there without it looking tacky. Any advice would be helpful.. Thank you
  4. Loss of an Adult Child

    I do know that I am going to make a day for me and my granddaughters to go pick weeds in our yard this week... Thank you Mermaid tears..
  5. Loss of an Adult Child

    I haven't been on here for about a week, but I want to thank everyone for their responses to me.. Honestly I just can't find the right words to say back to you..I will type something then erase it..I am sorry because everyone that has posted something back to me has helped me so much..and I am so thankful for you all.. I read the post and I can relate to everyone..I want so bad to be part of this continuing conversation, but the words are so hard to find...
  6. Loss of an Adult Child

    Tommys mum.. I am so sorry you are having a bad day.. I understand that pain..and my heart is with you right now..
  7. Loss of an Adult Child

    I have realized that this pain does not get easier... its here.. and will always be here..Someone I met at church told me that it does get easier as time goes on.. that I will learn to live with it.. they were wrong.. it does not get easier.. and I am still trying to figure out how to live without my daughter.. life is different.. I am lost without her..its been four years but that pain is the same as when I found out I lost her..I try to stay busy and I believe that's what helps, but now I am at a stand still so all the emotions are drowning me..I just don't understand..I keep pretending to my granddaughters that I am okay..this is just so hard..
  8. Loss of an Adult Child

    Thank you Lou ann for your kind words.... I also feel like I didn't get to my daughter in time...
  9. Loss of an Adult Child

    I am so sorry I don't mean to be a depressant to anyone.. I had a breakdown.. I am sorry..
  10. Loss of an Adult Child

    I block the pain away by making myself not think about my daughter, I think about her then I make myself think of something else so i don't cry.. but it only lasts so long to not think of her.. I love her so much, and I hurt for her so much.. I see my granddaughters accomplish things and I cry of happiness but I cry of sadness because my daughter, their mother, is not here to see it...
  11. Loss of an Adult Child

    This pain is to much to handle ....
  12. Loss of an Adult Child

    Lou ann.. that is exactly how I feel about my daughter...your words are the same words I feel... WHY!!??...why couldn't it of been me...She had her whole life a head of her.. SHE has three daughters to raise....!!!.. I also sit here re-living the mistakes I have made in my life..It should have been me..not her..My daughter was such an awesome young lady..she would give the shirt off her back to help someone..She was the joy in everyone's eye!! She fed people when they didn't have food..She was the apple of my eye..My granddaughters deserve their mother..not me..
  13. Loss of an Adult Child

    This morning I woke up feeling better, and I truly believe its because I have found you all through this group. I just want to thank everyone for taking time to share with me about my daughter (Katrina) passing away and about their children passing away. I am so sorry that we all have that indescribable pain.
  14. Loss of an Adult Child

    ericasmom- Yes I did take on caring for my granddaughters as soon as my daughter (Katrina) passed away. Their father was using drugs so I kept the girls most of the time. Then my oldest granddaughter came to me and told me that her dads best friend "hurt" her so then I filed for and was awarded full legal custody over two years ago. I believe I have grieved..I cry a lot. Usually after it builds up than I break down unexpectedly. I thought I have moved forward but I have found myself falling backward this past month.
  15. Loss of an Adult Child

    Thank you, it is good to hear that I am not a horrible mother that I can't look at my daughters pictures...I want to.. and I try but as soon as i see the first one I break down...