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    Lost My Boyfriend
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    January 15,2017
  1. okay I don't get to stay where we lived together, and a friend moved me into her and her husband's place an hour and a half away, but now it seems like she is pushing me to find a job and do things. Don't want to hurt her feelings, but it seems like she is getting irritated with me being here, maybe it's me but i don't know.
  2. Today was our day, we liked to do our hair and his beard green. We would dress up in green and go out for dinner and a few drinks. I felt like he was here with me today, so today seemed like a good day. This group has helped me with my emotions. I am glad to be able to talk to people that know what I am going through, without opinions, and offer comfort and support. Thanks everyone for being here for us and me.
  3. I have been searching for maybe group grief sessions, but waiting sucks. Then I found this web site and decided to go for it, I need to get better and improve my life. My kids are worried about me and I don't want that, they have their lives to worry about. Sometimes I just want to disappear but I know I can't do that, too many people look for me. I'm also trying to decide if the things that I have, that belonged to him, should I keep or not?! Still trying to work things out and try not to cry. He was a wonderful person, made many friends, helped other people out and asked for nothing in return. I'm gonna miss his smile, his touch, his laughter, just him all together.
  4. Thank You Marcel, it does help knowing there is someone I can talk to about what I am going through, but it also seems like there are a lot of us going through the same things. I know losing him is one of the hardest thing I have to deal with, the other is since we never married his children are selling the house and land and everything that is his on the property. That hurts.
  5. He passed away in January 2017. I am having a difficult time with his passing, not sure what to do, where to go, who to talk to about anything. I miss him so much it hurts. Everyone keeps telling me time heals all, but how much time. I don't want to cry anymore but I can't help it. Feeling sad, lonely, lost, all at the same time. We have been together for 9 years and decided to get married this year which didn't happen . His heart was tired and stopped pumping, no attack, no pain. I had a dream where he said he was ok and not sick anymore, but he isn't here either.