My father passed away just over a week ago following my Mother passing away just over three years ago. It was always just the three of us against the world and now I'm totally alone. I have friends and cousins but they all live many miles away so I am completely and utterly alone. After he died I have to go to an empty house alone and I've been grieving totally alone. I can function, I can get things done. But the absence of him and the aloneness is crippling. Plus the guilt that he passed when I wasn't with him because I was out, something I very rarely did. Sometimes I wish I'd just not wake up.