Allen B

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About Allen B

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  • Gender
    Male
  • Location
    Germany
  • Loss Type
    Lost my 16 year old Son
  • Angel Date
    28 Jan 2017

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    Allen
  1. Thank you Hibson33 for your condolences. Yes it HURTS everyday :-( . and you are correct, really there is nothing in this world that console me or my wife and daughter. really, I would not wish this on anyone. Here on this planet, this space in time, that we are all sharing, this is the worst of the worst that can happen to anyone, I would rather be a bum living on the streets than go thru this pain.
  2. Very SAD Day today, Cried driving into work this morning, 6 months since he left us.... I wished no one had to go through what we are all going through MISS U SON!! <3
  3. In 2 days and it will be 6 months, 26 weeks this coming Saturday.... Life is unfair. Wish you were here my Son, I gladly take your place... I LOVE You!
  4. 23 weeks today :-( LOVE YOU MY SON!! MISS YOU DEARLY!!!!!
  5. Shorty16, MikeP Thank you for your words. God Bless you and yours as well. Again, Wish no one of us had to be here in these situations... Sad Days
  6. Again I am so Sorry for your loss.
  7. Mermaid Tears, Cathy& Tommy's mum, Again Thank you for your thoughts and words. yes talking to our counselor does help, but..... Again Sorry for everyone loss here, No one should have to go through this ****. 21 weeks on Saturday..........I Miss him SO!! Today he would have basically graduated from high school. :-(
  8. I am an American, but Live and work in Germany.. We thought Germany would be a safer place to raise children.... Guess we were wrong. Drugs and Drug users are even in small towns here in Germany too.
  9. Mike P Thank you for your thoughts from both of us. yes we did think it would be safer here, turn out we were wrong...:-( This coming Friday (23 June), our Son would have his Abschluss from school (10th grade). He was planning to continue to go for his abi. (11-13 grade) . 20 weeks have past now.... GOD DO I MISS HIM!!!!!!!!! he would be so HAPPY right now, with an extra 2 weeks of (school) summer vacation too.
  10. Still Hurts :-( (19 weeks), or 133 days or 3192 hours
  11. Nick's mom I think you are not a terrible mother or grandmother.
  12. Mamatink7, Yes, it is said but true, people think after a short time things will turn back to normal... Our Lives will never be "normal' again :-( People ask me are you all right? I say no, but would like to tell them, "if you lost a child how would you feel a few days, months and even years later", Almost 18 weeks in (this Saturday), and the PAIN is still intense as it was on day one. I think you can never recover for this, People go on with their lives, and we do too, just not in "our normal way" that we had been accustomed to. Yes my wife and I do go to counseling, (since the 1st week of this hell), and my 21 year old daughter as well. so yes it does help, but still..... Yes we do visit our son, we have him placed in a cemetery about 4-5 kilometers away in another small town here in Germany, we had him placed there so we can take him with us (one day) when we return to the USA.. it does seem like I do miss my Son more and more each day as the days go by. and I know my wife and daughter do too. Here in Germany, there really isn't as much support for our situation, there might be more near bigger cities, but we do go to talk to a counselor and my wife is on these type boards more than me, but it hurts us both to read all the different situations of why everyone is here to begin with. I still wished it was me instead of my Son. 31 days prior to my son's passing, I buried my Dad (81). He had bladder cancer, and I went to see him last Sep., and was with him over Christmas and held his hand as he passed, this is normal, I am suppose to bury my parents, and my Son and Daughter are suppose to bury me, but it didn't happen according to plan. My Life F@cking suxs!
  13. Mamatink7. I am SO, So sorry for your lose, It is the hardest and most painful thing in the world. 17 Weeks in and the PAIN is still Very much there. I miss my Son, would give my life for his in a heart beat.
  14. I hate that all of us are on this web site. Seems not the be fair that our children pass before we do.. My Son passed 31 day after my Dad passed, Yes I was very sad at my dad's passing, but he was 81 years old, and that's the normal way of going thru our life's journey. But when child that is " 16 is such a milestone....a time to be happy...carefree..young" man, that was so loved, liked and caring, leaves us in such an abrupt way, my heart is FOREVER broken. I do have a daughter that will be 21 next week, but this has truly broken all of us, (me, wife, daughter). We have each other. But a part of all of us is no longer there. Yes the poem was so beautiful Tinay, I do think it fits well to a lot of our children. 15 weeks tomorrow since.... Life is so unfair :-(
  15. I am Crying as I type this! The poem you found fits perfectly to my Son.