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  1. I'm at a place where I kind of feel stuck in my grief but I don't know what to do. My dad died 3 years ago when I was 16 and I thought I was kind of over my grief. I was really sad for a while but then about a year later I seemed okay. I thought I was fine and I think everyone else did too, but now I'm not so sure. For the past year, I've missed my dad immensely and I just haven't been myself. I've been angry and depressed, but I've tried to hid it, especially from my mom because I don't want her to worry. People seem to have forgotten what I've gone through and I'm scared to bring up my pain because I know it makes people uncomfortable. I don't really know how to reach out for help, even to trusted adults in my life. I know there are people who care about me, I'm just scared because they think I'm okay and I'm not sure I am.
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    I'm at a place where I kind of feel stuck in my grief but I don't know what to do. My dad died 3 years ago when I was 16 and I thought I was kind of over my grief. I was really sad for a while but then about a year later I seemed okay. I thought I was fine and I think everyone else did too, but now I'm not so sure. For the past year, I've missed my dad immensely and I just haven't been myself. I've been angry and depressed, but I've tried to hid it, especially from my mom because I don't want her to worry. People seem to have forgotten what I've gone through and I'm scared to bring up my pain because I know it makes people uncomfortable. I don't really know how to reach out for help, even to trusted adults in my life. I know there are people who care about me, I'm just scared because they think I'm okay and I'm not sure I am.
  3. I lost my dad suddenly 3 years ago and it still just doesn't seem real. Sure, there are times that it really hits me, but some days I have the realization that he'll never come home or that I'll never see him again and it just crushes me. It's like I'm hearing the news all over again. I've been really angry about it all lately and it's like I lost all certainty in my life. I was only 16 and he and I were really, really close. I know that he's gone but in a way it seems like I don't believe it.
  4. My dad died 3 years ago when I was 16. He and I were really, really close so it was really, really hard for me. Things became really unstable at home, as my mom turned to alcohol and my older sister to drugs to try to handle it. I was always worried about what I would walk into every time I went home and a lot of responsibilities fell to me since my dad wasn't there and my mom wasn't really capable of it anymore. I was surrounded by lies, a huge lack of trust, and 2 people who were unable to think clearly. I thought I grieved the loss and was doing pretty well about 2 years later. I was pretty happy and getting on with my life. About 10 months ago, I started not really feeling like myself and it has persisted. I think and dream about my dad a lot and really, really miss him. I moved out and I'm going to college but there's none of the relief I thought there would be when I left home. I'm really angry and scared for some reason but I don't know why. It's been 3 years since my dad died, but I miss him so much and think about him so much but I feel like I shouldn't be this upset anymore. I thought I grieved already but is this some sort of delayed grief? Or is it depression or something else? I feel like I have no reason to be upset or angry, I just am. I feel like I was using all of the negative things happening at home to cover up my own problems, maybe. I'm not really sure but it just feels like I'm dead inside. Other days I just ache so badly.
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