Daint2017

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About Daint2017

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  • Gender
    Female
  • Location
    Uk
  • Loss Type
    Brother
  1. Thank you, I am so glad I found this site. It really helps to communicate with people who understand and have loved so unconditionally. My friend lost her twin brother 20 years ago and the advice she gave me is thatonly people that you just learn to live with the pain, it will never be the same but in a way you don't want it to be as they are so special. I couldn't celebrate Christmas and new year properly, I was in so much anguish, but had to put on a brace face and be happy for my husband even though some days I was dying inside. I think they just want me to be who I was, happy and carefree. Now I'm not inside but try to be that person. I just don't have the energy all the time to do that. Sometimes I feel like I want to crawl in a cave and sleep forever. I'm so glad I found this forum, I can just get everything out. I just want to scream with all the pain.
  2. Hi all, it's been 2 years since my brother went and I think I spend 80percent of time in denial. This works for me as when it hits me it's really painful. It's your mind protecting you. It's strange, it's like I know he's gone yet he hasn't in my mind. I think that keeps me going. It's too painful to acknowledge it and I am good at burying it. I will never have that type of unconditional love ever again. Makes me hurt so bad.
  3. Thank you so much for replying. It's good to know you loved your sibling as deeply as I did. He was everything including my guide through life as we lost our dad when we were young. I would have done anything for him as he was the kindest most caring person I met. The only thing that consoles me was the fact he was in my life and I was so lucky to have such a bond and a deep unconditional love. No one really understands the pain. I went to the doctor and said I have physical ache in my chest as I miss my brother so badly and all I got was it may be side effects? These people are meant to be trained in the bereaved! I can't say that the pain gets better, you get used to it but at the same time it is testament to the great love and bond that we shared and will never be broken or even taken away with him going. I will love him for eternity, I just miss him so bad. Glad you understand.
  4. Hi, Am new to this forum and just didn't know what to do next. I lost my beloved precious brother in December 2014 suddenly age 44 from a cardiac arrest and it still hurts really bad. It seems like yesterday but it seems like an eternity since I last saw him. I can't stand it. I just want him back so badly. I can't talk to anyone as I should be over it and move on by now. How can I tell them that it's just starting to hit me? They have no clue. Only my family understands the pain but I can't put this on my mum or sister in law, they are all ready in a million pieces being held by very weak glue. People do not understand how painful and exhausting bereavement is. I am always putting their issues first and having to grieve on my own when I can. I just people would understand this is the hardest thing in the world. I still truly can't believe this has happened and yet I know? My mind exhausts me.