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  • Loss Type
    Partner/best friend
  • Angel Date
    January 1, 2016


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    CIS Analyst
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  1. I'm sorry I didn't see your reply any earlier than today! Thank you for the encouraging words. I am sorry to hear about your father. I don't believe time heals all wounds it just makes them easier to deal with. I got through the one year anniversary of James' death but not without a lot of tears but I made it. James' father passed away six months before he did and my brother passed away right after his dad. Then I lose James. Too much heartache to handle but I know that they are up in heaven looking over me. I hope you are able to find the peace you need to move on as I have. Take care and thanks again for the kind words.
  2. I'll be spending this Christmas with out my fiance. I reflect back to this same time last year and how strange it is to think that he only had 10 days to live. Had I known this, I would of done things so different. His death was not expected but he was ill with end stage liver disease we just didn't expect him to die so suddenly. He passed away the afternoon on New Year's Day 2016. It's been a struggle getting through everyday without him. I don't dread the holidays because I celebrate the life of Jesus at Christmas. I can still see my James opening his gifts that I got for him. He cried. I got upset that he cried. If I had known he was going to be gone in 10 days I would not have gotten upset. I wish I could hear him cry again and I wouldn't complain. I have a lot of guilt for the way I treated him the morning he died and it's tearing me apart. I want him to know how sorry, so very sorry, I am for not being there with him that day. I still can't believe you're gone. The year has gone by so fast and I miss you every day like it happened yesterday.