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  1. Hello from someone who really knows what you are saying. I lost my sister almost 9 months ago and I can recognize all of your questions. Unfortunately I haven't found answers either. We were incredibly close, talked every day at least once, did everything together. I have a wonderful, supportive husband (who also grieves for her. He loved her too). The only way I can describe it is DARK. The world just isn't bright anymore. It's like a bright light has been extinguished and although I am grateful for so much, it will never be light again. My 89 yo father loves to look at her pictures but I can't do it....it's still too painful. I think the idea of living another 20/30 years without seeing her and hearing her voice is unbearable. You're right about your grandmother analogy. When I lost my mother 10 years ago, I thought that was the worst grief. WRONG. No comparison. It is comforting to speak/write to another who really understands. My thoughts and prayers are with you in your journey for answers. Feel free to contact me anytime. Xo
  2. Sending thoughts and prayers to you xo
  3. Hi Kc i am so sorry for the loss of your sister. I lost mine on 11/16/20016. We were as close as you and your sister were. I was almost 5 years older, and the big sister, just like you. The pain cannot even be truly expressed it is so deep. It's been a little over 3 months for me and I can so identify with your pain. For me, I've come to realize a some of the feeling is huge fear...how do I live without her? HOW? Every day that goes by, I realize I'm still here. Hugs to you and please know there are others who understand what you are feeling and care. Contact me anytime. Xo
  4. Older sister died in her sleep

    Jess, thanks so much for your reply. I am so sorry you must go through this. It's just the worst isn't it? I do believe we will be with our sisters again and I'm sure your sister forgives you. The love is what survives. A book that has helped me is "Surviving the Death of a Sibling- Living Through Grief When an Adult Brother or Sister Dies" by T.J. Wray. It has a chapter about guilt that might help... Everywhere I go, everything I do is a memory with my sweet sister. It's so hard. Maybe if we keep comforting each other, the pain will be a little less. This pain is unbearable. Xo
  5. Lost my beloved sister

    ModKonnie, Thank you so much for your warm reply. I do have several wonderful people to lean on, but as I'm sure everyone else on here knows, there is only so much they can do. Ultimately we all have to come to terms with our own grief. All I can do, I guess, is hang in there. It's just so very painful. I never realized my body could make so many tears. Xo
  6. Lost my beloved sister

    I lost my beloved sister 24 days ago. She was my only sibling. We had a rare bond, so close, like twins. We did everything together. By giving a look, we knew what the other was thinking. Although both adults with grown children, we continued to giggle, laugh, and call each other by childhood nicknames. A huge portion of my life died with her. I'm grateful and remember my many blessings (healthy kids, wonderful husband, a great dad, 89yrs old). but the pain is so all encompassing. I will never again have a relationship so unconditional. Who will I tell my deepest, darkest secrets to? The kind of secrets you share with the person who grew up with you? I just stumbled upon this site and it has been very comforting. I'm so sorry for all of your pain but I thank you for posting your stories. It is encouraging to see that others have survived and even found joy. It's also good to know that there are others who understand what you're going through. Right now the pain is so horrible it's hard to believe I will survive.