Sadaf Nazim

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    13 November 2016

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  1. Today was the toughest day for me. It's valentine's and it's also 3 month mark of my love's funeral. I cried lots today.. Unlike any other day before. I just miss him so much. I don't know what to say. I am sorry B7176. KayC, your Dog is really handsome.
  2. Green L I am so sorry for your loss. So sorry you had to deal with this terrible thing at this young age. Loss of the love of your life would be the last thing you could have ever imagined. I am so sorry. I too lost my boyfriend my love when he was 24 this November. I am 23. I could understand the torment you are feeling right now. I don't know how to deal with this. I can't give you any advice on that. I would just say, keep on foot in front of the other. Breath. It will get better. I don't know how. But it will. We all are here for you. We will be listening to you. Lots of love to you sweetheart.
  3. Andy Thank you so much. I understand what you feel being more protective of your wife now. I do feel the same now. This thing that we are all into, it's painful, but at the same time it's beautiful. To love someone so deeply without any sort of expectations is the most beautiful feeling a human can experience.. It's a beautiful ache. I don't know if I make any sense or not. I read a qoute saying that if we lose a loved one, it's like losing a leg. It never ever heals completely. But in time, we learn to dance with the limp. We would never get over the pain. How could we? They were the world for us. We will always love them and miss them terribly. But we will keep going on. With our pain, and our unconditional love. Prayers to you Andy.
  4. Francine Thank you. It's a beautiful poem.
  5. Don't know when that someday will come. But it has to come for sure. It cannot end like this. My love grows stronger with each passing day. I miss him even more today.. Than last week or last month. I know all of us feel the same way. I am so sorry for all of us.
  6. 8.00 p.m. 89 days since he is gone. People are back from their families, their loved ones, sharing the adventures of this day, holding each other in their arms.. I am here on my terrace. Alone, in the moonlight, searching him.. Maybe I could see his glance in the smoke of this cigarette .. Or this fog.. Maybe I could smell his fragrance in this air.. Maybe something would remind me the taste of his lips..Or the vibration of his heart. To tell that I miss him would be an understatement of my feelings. I wish I could tell him to not leave me now. I had to do so many things with him. I had to tell him how much he means to me. We had so many dreams to accomplish together. We had to get married. We had to travel the world together.. We had to Stare each other for a little while. We had to live a life together. The memories aren't complete. Our story needs a happy ending. I wish I could tell him the lyrics of this song I am listening. Please don't leave yet, My heart isn't satiated yet. You had just arrived, Just now you had, You had just only arrived, You had spread like the spring, Let the air catch your fragrance, Let my gaze go crazy, Let this evening deepen a bit, Let my heart be steady, Let me live for a little while, Let me take some sips of your intoxication, Haven't said anything yet, Haven't heard anything yet, Please don't leave yet, My heart isn't satiated yet..
  7. Twinmom You have gone through such a devastating loss. I am So sorry. I don't have any experience of a child. So I can't tell you anything. But there are others here who will advise you. I just want to say I am here for you. I understand your pain.
  8. Gracie My heart goes out to you. I am so sorry for your loss. Your boyfriend was your bestfriend, fiance, future husband, everything. I know how it feels to lose a person like that who means the whole world to you. I too lost my whole world this November to an accident. He was my everything. This kind of loss is unbearable. But it gets better with time. It doesn't get away, but we learn to live with it. We learn to adjust to the new kind of relationship that we have now with our beloveds. Keep coming here. We will be listening to you. It helps a lot to share your thoughts here. I am sorry. I can't give any advice to you. The past few days have been a little difficult for me. But I will be here for you. Hugs to you.
  9. I am so sorry for what you are dealing. I will tell you not to lose hope. Your husband is still with you here, maybe you have a chance to save him. I don't exactly know what illness he has, so I can't determine how critical his condition is. But please have hope. You both still have time together. You can make the best of it. Don't worry about what tomorrow brings. Today, your love is with you, breathing. Ask us how much it would mean to us. My prayers are with you. May your husband be recovered soon and may God give you the strength to deal with all this.
  10. Lost, We will all get through this together. We understand the pain, when no one out there understands because they have not gone anything similar to this. I am 23 now. I lost my love when he was 24. It was an accident. We were bestfriends since childhood and couples from 8 years. It has been a terrible experience for me. 2 months back I couldn't think to come even this far. But this forum has been a life saver for me. Keep coming here and sharing with us. We all are here for you.
  11. I am doing well Andy. Thank you for your concern. It means a lot to me. I have my moments of despair and panic attacks, but most of the time I am fine. As you said, Our lives means something. I am trying to figure out what that something for me is. I believe everyone has a purpose on this world. When we start to focus on that purpose, and concentrate on something bigger than us, then our pain becomes easy to handle. Dealing with this grief is different for everyone, for me it is this. I try to focus on others pain and their suffering. I remind myself that maybe I was not born to live my life happily and fulfill all my wishes. Maybe I was born for a bigger purpose. Hopefully, I fulfill that purpose one day. This world will be empty of all human beings one day. You, me, all of us are going to die just like your darling wife and my sweetheart. It's just a matter of time. Might as well, we use that time for something good.
  12. So true Andy!
  13. Lost I am so sorry for your loss. It's a terrible thing that binds us together. I can't give you any advice as I am only 2 months into the loss of my fiance. But here are lots of wonderful people who can help you with how to cope. Hugs to you.
  14. I am happy things are getting easy for you. Hugs to you.
  15. Fzald It's going to be OK. I don't know how and when, but trust me, it will. The first few days are the worst. All the things that you said reflect my own feelings in the beginning of my grief. I didn't get out of my room for the first month. I didn't shower, didn't eat much except for fluids, didn't saw the sky, didn't talk to anyone except on this site, just sat on my bed all day and wondered what the hell happened. I lost weight, had to wear specs as I couldn't see clearly because of continuous crying. I was a complete mess. But then, it gets better. It will get better for you too. Just focus on breathing, take some fluids if you don't feel like eating, take a walk. Do yourself these small favours. You will get through this. My prayers are with you.