Sadaf Nazim

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    13 November 2016

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  1. B7176 I am so sorry you had to go through this. I can feel your pain. Losing someone so young is unimaginable. My sweetheart was 24. He would turn 25 this August. He was the most adventurous and healthy person I have met. He never fell sick all his life. And now suddenly he just went away. And here I am, still breathing, still alive. I thought I could never live even for a second after being separated from him.
  2. Knhedges I understand you. I just don't know what to say. I am going through all this myself. Just know that we are here for you.
  3. Let go and move on makes no sense to me. I just turned 23. Some of my friends tell me to forget him, that I have my whole life, I am young and beautiful, I can get any other person in life. An out of question thing for me!! When you fall in love with someone, it doesn't matter if it lasts for a moment or for a lifetime. Even if it doesn't last for a lifetime, you live your whole lifetime in that moment. For me, it lasted from my childhood to my adulthood, that's 14 years. That was the most precious time of my life. My sweetheart taught me life. He taught me how to be ME. He showed me the beauty of love And friendship. We had a rare relationship, sometimes so intense, other times so tranquil. For me, it can never happen again with anyone. I can't explain this to my friends. They would never understand it. They have never loved truly, let alone losing him. Every one around me are in casual relationship which lasts to 1-3 years. Then, they breakup and start a new relationship. And they totally move on. How can they ever understand my situation? I firmly believe that our love still continues. Because we are connected to the souls of our loved ones and not merely to their bodies. I remember thousands of times, when my sweetheart was miles away from me, with no communication no phones, still we could feel each other and what was going on with each other. And then when we met, we discussed it, and it came out to be 100% true. Thousands of time I remember when he was far away from me, and we had not talked for days, and I just whispered to myself 'i miss you ' and he immediately felt something in his heart and called me. We could feel each other from miles apart. I believe it still continues that way. Love is a bond between souls. And it continues forever. There is no moving on and letting go. Only it's form has changed. From a physical plus spiritual relationship, now it has turned into a spiritual relationship. And it takes a brave heart to embrace this.
  4. I feel the most important thing is to be able to talk and share your feelings. For me, I don't believe I could share my feelings with a grief counsellor. There are my own reasons for that. The most helpful thing for me is talking to my brother. I don't have any real close girlfriends and I don't prefer talking to my male friends too much. I fear they might think of me as a potential future girlfriend, which I am nowhere near interested in. So I talk to my brother. He knew my love from his childhood. We all three grew up together. So, I don't need to explain him anything. He understands it all by himself. And he too was close to my sweetheart, so he knows the pain of losing someone. Thanks to him, my heath is improving and I have resumed my studies. The most important thing is to find someone you are comfortable with, and talk.
  5. Oh my God! She is so sweet! God bless her and god bless you sweetheart. Surely Dylan was with you. His presence made it easy for you. How are you now? I can tell..she has your smile.
  6. Numb and lost I understand you. I am going through something like that too. My love died on 13 November 2016 due to a drowning accident. He was discovered on 14 November. I can't stop thinking what would have happened to him between that one day. Sometimes I even have dreams that he is drowning all over again and asking for help. Sometimes in dream I feel his pain and how he felt at that time. I wanted to be there for him at that time. Maybe I could not save him, but my presence would lessen his pain so much.
  7. This brought me tears. Thank you for being with us here kayC. You are an inspiration. When I think about my life and how I am going to survive it without my love, I think about you and how you have survived all these years without your George. I can't even imagine your pain.
  8. Emeliza Don't be sorry. We all are here and listening to each other. Keep talking. Hugs to you.
  9. Knhedges I pray for you and Dylan's mother from all my heart. If it comforts you, know that in this tough time of your life God is there for you. He will take care of you and give you the strength to cope with this. Keep us informed about your baby. I hope she looks just like Dylan, maybe that could bring you some peace.
  10. I am so sorry. What she and you suffered is just too much. No one should ever suffer this. I am so sorry.
  11. Ckydad I must tell you, your wife is so beautiful! God bless her soul!
  12. Knhedges I am so sorry. I don't have anything to tell you except this - Take care of yourself. We all are here for you. When is the date of your delivery?
  13. B7176 I am so sorry for your loss. Your boyfriend was near nearly the same age as mine. They went away at such young age. I hate that. I wish he would have lived 10 years more, or atleast 5. Why does God calls back all the good persons so early? When I see a man of 30-40 years age, it makes me so sad. It reminds me that I will never be able to see him at that age ever. I will grow old but he will stay young forever. His child like innocence, his mischievous actions, his everything will be frozen in time.
  14. Kmb You have suffered so many losses. I am so sorry you had to deal with all this. I have only suffered one loss prior to this, and that was of my maternal grandmother. It was 10 years ago. I felt bad but I didn't really experience the pain because I was too young. I remember when my grandmother was lying on the bed, cold, and everyone was crying, I and Nazim, along with other kids, we were so young to understand death that we were playing hide and seek upstairs during the time of her funeral. I didn't know then, that the next funeral I would attend would be his.
  15. KayC I am always comfortable talking to people here. We all understand each others pain. But I am uncomfortable telling my story to a therapist or anyone else who does not know yet. I am afraid to talk about his death. I start feeling everything happening all over again. Reliving that day again. I think I need some time before I can talk about it to others without breaking down.