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    Mom-brain aneurysm Dad-Colon Cancer
  1. I'm new to this so I'm not really sure how all this works but I found this website and thought maybe this could help me get some things off my chest. When I was 13 years old I lost my Mom suddenly to a brain aneurysm. It was the hardest thing that I ever went through and it took me a while to get passed the fact that she was gone and wasn't coming back. At such a young age it was a difficult concept to grasp and I don't think I really learned to live with it until a few years ago when I saw a therapist. During those years my Dad and I grew so close, being the youngest of seven I was his little princess and he was my world. Fast forward a little over eleven years and here I am today at 25 years old and I just said goodbye to my Dad. He had colon cancer and fought hard over the past year and a half to beat it but it just got the best of him and on July 4th I said my final goodbye. I was with him every step of the way and took care of him full time while he was on hospice at home. I'm so very happy he is no longer suffering because over the last 6 months he was in pretty bad shape and the last 3 weeks he was on hospice at home he was just not himself at all. It broke my heart taking care of him and seeing him so sick, especially because he was such a strong man. I sit here today absolutely hopeless and wondering how I am going to put my life back together. I don't know anyone my age that has lost both of their parents so its not like I can talk to anyone I know personally. I just need someones help to tell me that it will be ok and that I will get through this. I don't want to be lost for years again like I was when my Mom passed, I think of how sad and depressed I was and I don't want to go back to that. Please if anyone has any advice I would really appreciate it. Thank you. Nikki