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About Waynes78

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    My son
  • Angel Date
    Jan. 21. 2016

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  1. Loss of an Adult Child

    So, I decided to take up sketching as a way to cope. I have never drawn anything in my life. I found a kit at hobby lobby and decided to give it a try. Well, I think I found my calling. The picture I am posting is only my second drawing. I have to say I am very proud of it. This is my Logan.
  2. Loss of an Adult Child

    So we got Logans marker set thursday. It is beautiful but does not hold a candle to Logan himself. I'm still having a really hard time. My every thought is him. A lot of his friends showed up. Makes me miss him even more. But it showed me how much he was loved. Well, I finally got his truck running really well. I will post pictures soon and then I am going to start on the body. Anyways, like I said before it will take a while but it will be the truck he dreamed of.
  3. Loss of an Adult Child

    Thanks Becky. Yeah looking back it was pretty hilarious. And that car is absolutely awesome.
  4. Loss of an Adult Child

    Well, one of the funniest memories of I have of Loganwas actually kind of embarrassing for me, but I will share it anyways. When Logan was around 5 or 6 we were at Lowes one time. He was sitting in the cart and I was pushing it. He kept pushing down on his pee pee. I ask him what was wrong and he said "It's sticking up and it won't go down." Then he said "Does yours ever do that Daddy?" Needless to say, my face turned beet red.
  5. Loss of an Adult Child

    Hey Donnah, thank you so much. That is without a doubt the best thing I have read so far to help me.
  6. Loss of an Adult Child

    I am so sad. All I can think about is my baby laying in that grave and I can't get to him. I miss him so bad. I wish I was with him. I don't feel like I have anything left inside of me. I feel like all my love died with him. Don't get me wrong, I still love my daughter and wife but my heart is so broken. Logan and I had such a bond. Where do I go from here? How do I continue on knowing I will never be able to do any of the things that we did together which was everything that I enjoyed doing? We had so much in common, and I do not feel as if I should ever do those things again because he doesn't ever get to. My ex wife and I were talking and we both just don't understand why he was taken. He had such a huge heart. And there are so many people in this world that live that are horrible people. Why? How do you ever make any kind of sense of your baby being taken? Or do you?
  7. Loss of an Adult Child

    Hey Donnah, Your son and mine sound a lot alike. My son loved hunting and riding four wheelers. He was loved by so many people. I had people coming up to me at the funeral telling me how much they loved him and older people telling me how respectful and considerate he was. Logan and I were very close as well. And a lot of his friends have offered to help me repair his truck. I too am also trying and struggling to get justice for my son. There are a lot of discrepancies and mysteries as to what happened and the local police are to lazy or trying to cover for someone that might possibly be involved in my sons death. Anyways, keep coming here. It really does help to talk to people who are having or have been through the same struggles as we are.
  8. Loss of an Adult Child

    Spell check is getting me tonight.
  9. Loss of an Adult Child

    Angel boy of mine. I'd your name Becky? I am still trying to learn everyone's name here. Yes it is kind of healing. I would love if you could post that but if not that is fine. I think maybe I will try to take pictures and post them as I work on it. It might take me a few years cause I am definitely not wealthy but I will get it done. And I plan on being here because everyone here has helped me so I hope that I can do the sAmerican for others some day.
  10. Loss of an Adult Child

    My sons truck had broke down on him 5 days before he left me. It has been sitting in my driveway since. He loved his truck even though it wasn't in very good shape. His previous truck was a big old truck and me and him had spent hours upon hours working on it. But I loved it cause it was our "bonding time". Well, when he got this next truck he had a picture of what he wanted to do to his truck. At first I just wanted to get rid of it because it just made me think of what he didn't get to finish. But now I have decided that I am going to fix it and then restore it to what he wanted it to be. I started working on it yesterday and it has been hard because he is not by my side "arguing" with me about how to fix it. He would always do that but due to my experience he would always say you were right daddy. It would aggravate me but looking back now that was some of our best times. There is actually a song that talks about this although I cannot remember the name of it now. But this is our project. And even though he is not here physically I know he is here with me spiritually to help me get it done.
  11. Loss of an Adult Child

    Becky, That is amazing. I just read the other day that rainbows that appear without rain are definitely your loved ones.
  12. Loss of an Adult Child

    Hi Donnah, My name is Wayne. I lost my son on Jan 21 this year. I absolutely understand the pain you are in. I am struggling horribly myself and am trying to get the police to investigate my sons death. You have definitely come to the right place. The people on this site are wonderful and fully understand what you are facing. No words can describe what we are all going through but just having somewhere to write your feelings to people that are going through the same thing can be uplifting at times. I am so sorry you are in our club. I wish this club did not exist. But we are all here to help even if it is to let you know that you are not alone in your journey through this hell.
  13. Loss of an Adult Child

    Thank you all. At first I just wrote it off as coincidence. But the more I have thought about it I believe it was him telling me he was ok. I am still having a very hard time. I miss him so much. But I think this has helped me some. Also, yesterday, I was washing clothes from my own clothes hamper and somehow one of his socks was in the wash. I have no answer of knowing how it got there. Again thank you all for your encouragement. It means so much to me to know that there are people such as you that have been where I am now and have made it through the worst possible tragedy a person could endure.
  14. Loss of an Adult Child

    Let me add. This was my old phone and it had never done this before.
  15. Loss of an Adult Child

    Ok. So I have been doing some reading about signs. Two days after my son passed I had his phone in the pocket of my coat hanging on the chair in my kitchen. I was sitting in my living room and I started hearing water drops. I went to investigate what it was and found that his phone was making the sound. Then the screen started flashing on and off with a picture of the ocean and sky. Could this have been him telling me he was ok? I included a screen shot of it.