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Sad4leafClover

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About Sad4leafClover

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  • Gender
    Female
  • Location
    Sacramento
  • Loss Type
    Both my dads, mom, aunt, grandma, grandpa
  • Angel Date
    1986, 1992, 1994, 2008, 2009, 2010

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  • Occupation
    Self employed
  • Last Name
    Holt
  • First Name
    Tina
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  1. How to forgive an Angel....

    My most recent Angel left me in 2010, my mom. I thought I had already forgiven her. But in 2013, I looked in the mirror and there she was. A lonely, sad, angry, alcolholic, who doesn't know what a healthy relationship is. I didn't realize how much like her I was when she was here. I just knew I needed her recognition, guidence, and protection. Now she's gone and so is my opportunity to feel loved by her. When I looked away from the mirror, I turned to my kids, who were patiently waiting, for the same affection. As a mother, I grew, learned a better way, and our lives blossomed . As a daughter, I wonder why I wasn't worth the same transformation. I tell myself that she just couldn't handle looking into the mirror...but it doesn't help. I love her. I need to forgive....I just want to miss and remember the good...because I am her.She's my Angel.
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