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About solarbug

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  • Birthday 12/10/1977

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    MN, USA
  • Interests
    music, outdoors, snowboard, cats
  • Loss Type
    father in law - true legend
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  • About Me
    Ive lost grandparents, my father in law who was very special to me, other relatives, cats, dogs. Family and friends are most important to me. Love is what matters most!

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  1. I made it thru the holidays ... ok... somehow... it wasn't easy. I've been doing ok to good most days. I decided I was going to put in the extra effort to smile and enjoy the moments and be more present. My only objective was to Love my family and friends with all my heart, by showing and telling them. Today is my father in laws Birthday- he would have been 62. When he was here we wouldn't do anything in particular for him. We would talk on the phone, I would wish him a happy bday. and we would often get together as a Family when time permitted to celebrate and give gifts and such... So nothing to spectacular... Today has been the most difficult that Iv'e had in recent memory. I miss the guy more than ever today!!! Maybe I'm reflecting more because it is 'his' day? I've had to leave my desk at my office twice already to cry. (reminder Im a dude!) I FUCKING MISS HIM SO MUCH! My heart literally hurts today!! The physical heartache that I experienced for many, many months after he passed is back today in a major way. I am a wreck.... I am curious how some of you may celebrate or honor your loved ones on their Birthday?? Do you experience the physical pain more so on special days or occasions?? The photo attached below is of Bob and I Christmas 2013~featuring my tribute stache Thanks for taking the time to read my feelings. I dont have many people who I can speak with openly about how I feel. (HEART)
  2. Share pics of the angels you love

    My father in law Bob - we were very close. I miss my buddy so fkn much!
  3. i came across this article this morning, thought id share. I can definitely relate in many ways. Make it a Great day friends! http://www.huffingtonpost.com/avelist/my-friend-died-10-years-ago-and-i-never-imagined-the-ways-it-would-change-me_b_8282562.html
  4. Lost my father-in-law

    ModKonnie, sorry for the loss of your father in law. to answer you question my job did allow bereavement days for the passing of my father in law. Bob and I had a very close relationship, I miss him every single day. its been a year and a few months, I think of him and miss him terribly. His passing was my first significant loss. It has been an extremely challenging year of coping and working thru my grief journey.
  5. Elevate by St Lucia this song will always stick with me. It was played a lot during Bob last year here

  6. Missing my GrayKitty

    Tom I was just reading thru this thread. I am sorry for the loss of your GrayKitty. I know how hard it can be to lose a loved cat. We lost our cat Princess who we actually called BlackKitty! to cancer a few years ago. She was one of 3 cats that we had. It was heartbreaking to get the cancer diagnosis, it was so sad to watch her go thru treatments, only to have to be let go. One of the hardest things I have ever had to do was make that call, and watch her die in my arms. Our other cats missed her just as much as us. I think of our BlackKitty every day! The pain is less, but I miss her terribly everday. I am glad to see you have a new friend Skitty-kitty! pets will always have a special place in our heart and soul. best wishes, make it a great day!
  7. I came across this poem, I find it very true for me. thought I would share. Make it a great day! BEHIND A SMILE ~ By Gwendy Vanucci Someone asked me...Just today...How I am doing...Since he went away I said I'm okay...That I'm doing just fine..That I'm holding up well...And time is flying by She said I really look good..And how strong I must be...How I pulled it together...She was real proud of me I didn't let on..There was no way she could see...All the pain and the sorrow....I hold inside of me We laughed for a bit...I put on a smile...Made lots of small talk...And all the while I was silently crying...For missing him so...I was screaming inside...I wished he didn't go But I didn't let on...My grief I hid...Behind a smile...Yes, that's what I did We said our goodbyes...And we parted ways...I took a deep breath...Thought back on that day I felt my eyes swelling...I blinked the tears away...I have to keep going...God help me I pray I'll be with him soon...Though I don't know when...I just have to believe...I will see him again Another deep breath..Put the smile back on...Just get through the day...That is who I've become
  8. WBM waves

    From the album BOB

  9. BOB

  10. WBM 3

    From the album BOB

  11. K WBM

    From the album BOB

  12. Hug

    From the album BOB

  13. WBM

    From the album BOB

  14. buds

    From the album BOB