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Yasmin.Ali

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    Husband
  1. Losing a Husband

    Hello Pat, Thank you for your encouraging messaging. It's sad to hear about your story of losing two husbands because i have experienced the sadness and difficulties that comes with that. I know the hurt you went through. I also questioned God so many time, even being a strong christian, i question his mercy and even sometimes his existence. I would travel back in my mind to when my last husband died and always ask myself, what if i took him to a different doctor or what if i did something differently. After almost 56 days now, the reality is still hard to accept. Thank you very much for offering to talk with me via skype, it would really help to talk with someone who can empathize with me because you have been in the same situation Thank you for email, i will send you my skype. God Bless you
  2. I miss him so much

    Believing in signs that he comes to me is very helpful. I know many people dont believe but it comforts me. Few times i saw many brown doves in the back of the kitchen where we would always be. I dream him all the time and i like to believe they are visitation dreams Few days before, i put his "oklahoma" Cd in the player and it skipped to #8 When i went to the supermarket and i started to miss him, all 3 of his songs played Sometimes the signs comfort just as much as it hurts.
  3. I miss him so much

    Thank you Kim for your words of encouragement. Ive searched online for books, videos, testimonies, anything that helped. You can share the names/authors of the books, i'll try to source them. Thanks for the advice, i take one day at a time, thats all i can do. Some days are more horrible than others. You are right, people try to say they know how you feel, but unless they experienced your type of loss they can never know. Hugs and best regards Yasmin
  4. Losing a Husband

    Yes Jude, it's horrible and even as many days passed it doesnt get much easier to forget. Someone as close and precious as a spouse, leaves too many memories that makes it hard to accept they are just gone. It's so hard going out and seeing other couples together. The small things we shared together will never be the same, as simple as a trip to the grocery or supermarket. Thank you for welcoming me. It's nice to hear that it had gotten easier for you, i hope sooner or later i can experience that.
  5. The unbearable pain of living

    53 Days ago... I lost my husband My precious husband, No-one can replace him. My partner for 24 years died at th2 age of 72, it's 53 days since he left me. The pain doesnt subside, the pain and tears keep coming more everyday. Everything i see reminds me of him. Everything i eat reminds me of him. His memory is everywhere in this home. He was so active and healthy, then he suddenly died of heart failure and liver failure. He was my comfort when i lost my first husband to liver cirrhosis. Then in 1993 we lost our first child, he was my comfort. Now that he is gone, who is my comfort. Two hours before i saw him, even though his feet were cold and he stood still, i still believed in my heart and in God that he would return home from the hospital. I told him I made his bed and cleaned the room and the children and I would be waiting for him. He gave me and the children so many years of happiness. The only comfort i have is knowing that he knew how much i loved him and how much his children loved him because we showed him and told him all the time. While he was in the hospital i would sing for him "happy journey" by Hank Locklin, now every night i still sing for him...Happy journey happy journey don't forget the one who love you so, I'll be lonely waiting just for you I'll be patient and forever true, Happy journey happy journey darling till that day,When you'll be coming back to stay... I keep questioning God, Why couldnt he stay with me just a little longer. Nothing in this world can replace the happiness he gave me. He was always so contented, he never complained. Yesterday i went into the store room where he kept his clothes he would use to cut the lawn, his scent and presence was so strong, my grief started all over again. I played a song he liked by Everly Brothers, dream dream dream... anything to feel his presence I cant face the supermarkets or church, i cant watch movies or cook things i knew he loved. The grief feels like it has no end. None of my friends or sisters can understand how i feel because they never lost a husband. Everyday i question God, why , my two husbands, my son, then my mother and my father. I still have my children, Sometimes they try to tell me jokes to make me laugh but all my humor is gone. He kept devoted to Jesus till his last breath and he died a christian and with all of our prayers... this is my only comfort, this is all i have, I want to say thanks to all the women who shared their stories, it helps me so much. I appreciate any words of advise and encouragement Thank you all. God Bless you !
  6. I miss him so much

    53 Days ago... I lost my husband My precious husband, No-one can replace him. My partner for 24 years died at th2 age of 72, it's 53 days since he left me. The pain doesnt subside, the pain and tears keep coming more everyday. Everything i see reminds me of him. Everything i eat reminds me of him. His memory is everywhere in this home. He was so active and healthy, then he suddenly died of heart failure and liver failure. He was my comfort when i lost my first husband to liver cirrhosis. Then in 1993 we lost our first child, he was my comfort. Now that he is gone, who is my comfort. Two hours before i saw him, even though his feet were cold and he stood still, i still believed in my heart and in God that he would return home from the hospital. I told him I made his bed and cleaned the room and the children and I would be waiting for him. He gave me and the children so many years of happiness. The only comfort i have is knowing that he knew how much i loved him and how much his children loved him because we showed him and told him all the time. While he was in the hospital i would sing for him "happy journey" by Hank Locklin, now every night i still sing for him...Happy journey happy journey don't forget the one who love you so, I'll be lonely waiting just for you I'll be patient and forever true, Happy journey happy journey darling till that day,When you'll be coming back to stay... I keep questioning God, Why couldnt he stay with me just a little longer. Nothing in this world can replace the happiness he gave me. He was always so contented, he never complained. Yesterday i went into the store room where he kept his clothes he would use to cut the lawn, his scent and presence was so strong, my grief started all over again. I played a song he liked by Everly Brothers, dream dream dream... anything to feel his presence I cant face the supermarkets or church, i cant watch movies or cook things i knew he loved. The grief feels like it has no end. None of my friends or sisters can understand how i feel because they never lost a husband. Everyday i question God, why , my two husbands, my son, then my mother and my father. I still have my children, Sometimes they try to tell me jokes to make me laugh but all my humor is gone. He kept devoted to Jesus till his last breath and he died a christian and with all of our prayers... this is my only comfort, this is all i have, I want to say thanks to all the women who shared their stories, it helps me so much. I appreciate any words of advise and encouragement Thank you all. God Bless you !
  7. Losing a Husband

    53 Days ago... I lost my husband My precious husband, No-one can replace him. My partner for 24 years died at th2 age of 72, it's 53 days since he left me. The pain doesnt subside, the pain and tears keep coming more everyday. Everything i see reminds me of him. Everything i eat reminds me of him. His memory is everywhere in this home. He was so active and healthy, then he suddenly died of heart failure and liver failure. He was my comfort when i lost my first husband to liver cirrhosis. Then in 1993 we lost our first child, he was my comfort. Now that he is gone, who is my comfort. Two hours before i saw him, even though his feet were cold and he stood still, i still believed in my heart and in God that he would return home from the hospital. I told him I made his bed and cleaned the room and the children and I would be waiting for him. He gave me and the children so many years of happiness. The only comfort i have is knowing that he knew how much i loved him and how much his children loved him because we showed him and told him all the time. While he was in the hospital i would sing for him "happy journey" by Hank Locklin, now every night i still sing for him...Happy journey happy journey don't forget the one who love you so, I'll be lonely waiting just for you I'll be patient and forever true, Happy journey happy journey darling till that day,When you'll be coming back to stay... I keep questioning God, Why couldnt he stay with me just a little longer. Nothing in this world can replace the happiness he gave me. He was always so contented, he never complained. Yesterday i went into the store room where he kept his clothes he would use to cut the lawn, his scent and presence was so strong, my grief started all over again. I played a song he liked by Everly Brothers, dream dream dream... anything to feel his presence I cant face the supermarkets or church, i cant watch movies or cook things i knew he loved. The grief feels like it has no end. None of my friends or sisters can understand how i feel because they never lost a husband. Everyday i question God, why , my two husbands, my son, then my mother and my father. I still have my children, Sometimes they try to tell me jokes to make me laugh but all my humor is gone. He kept devoted to Jesus till his last breath and he died a christian and with all of our prayers... this is my only comfort, this is all i have, I want to say thanks to all the women who shared their stories, it helps me so much. I appreciate any words of advise and encouragement Thank you all. God Bless you !
  8. 53 Days ago... I lost my husband My precious husband, No-one can replace him. My partner for 24 years died at th2 age of 72, it's 53 days since he left me. The pain doesnt subside, the pain and tears keep coming more everyday. Everything i see reminds me of him. Everything i eat reminds me of him. His memory is everywhere in this home. He was so active and healthy, then he suddenly died of heart failure and liver failure. He was my comfort when i lost my first husband to liver cirrhosis. Then in 1993 we lost our first child, he was my comfort. Now that he is gone, who is my comfort. Two hours before i saw him, even though his feet were cold and he stood still, i still believed in my heart and in God that he would return home from the hospital. I told him I made his bed and cleaned the room and the children and I would be waiting for him. He gave me and the children so many years of happiness. The only comfort i have is knowing that he knew how much i loved him and how much his children loved him because we showed him and told him all the time. While he was in the hospital i would sing for him "happy journey" by Hank Locklin, now every night i still sing for him...Happy journey happy journey don't forget the one who love you so, I'll be lonely waiting just for you I'll be patient and forever true, Happy journey happy journey darling till that day,When you'll be coming back to stay... I keep questioning God, Why couldnt he stay with me just a little longer. Nothing in this world can replace the happiness he gave me. He was always so contented, he never complained. Yesterday i went into the store room where he kept his clothes he would use to cut the lawn, his scent and presence was so strong, my grief started all over again. I played a song he liked by Everly Brothers, dream dream dream... anything to feel his presence I cant face the supermarkets or church, i cant watch movies or cook things i knew he loved. The grief feels like it has no end. None of my friends or sisters can understand how i feel because they never lost a husband. Everyday i question God, why , my two husbands, my son, then my mother and my father. I still have my children, Sometimes they try to tell me jokes to make me laugh but all my humor is gone. He kept devoted to Jesus till his last breath and he died a christian and with all of our prayers... this is my only comfort, this is all i have, I want to say thanks to all the women who shared their stories, it helps me so much. I appreciate any words of advise and encouragement Thank you all. God Bless you ! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZGoWtY_h4xo
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