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Everything posted by Silvermist

  1. Not facing it

  2. It happened last night, she had been ill for a few days and we thought it was stress and then she had a heart attack, hospital said she would be OK but she wasn't... I'm house bound, my Mum took care of me and she was my only friend and my whole world. I don't know what to do, all I keep thinking about is that she wont be able to do the things she wanted to like the washing or baking a cake and that we will never watch TV together and I can't talk to her like I always did. And all her things are here. I keep going between devastation, anger, guilt and numbness. I don't have words for my grief I keep trying to focus on different thing but it is so hard. I...I want her back. It was so sudden and so unfair, I just...right now I'm numb, I need someone to talk to, I just wish it was me instead, the whole centre of my entire life has gone and I have never had to face death before. I really need someone to talk too
  3. Recipes to Remember

    Mums pasta Cook any type of pasta you like, including spaghetti. Chop up fresh tomatoes, cook them in a frying pan with some herbs, onion and garlic, (optional). Add tomatoes to the pasta and add very liberal amounts of strong cheddar cheese, mix in. Place in a backing dish and cover in cheese and melt in the over for a cheesy topping.
  4. Recipes to Remember

    Sorry, double post
  5. Lost My Mum

    Thank you, everyone.
  6. Is this normal

  7. Lost My Mum

    I just keep thinking if we had noticed sooner, if I had noticed sooner perhaps it could have been prevented. I should have talked too her more, I shouldn't have been so selfish I'm so sorry to keep venting here but, I just keep thinking of all the things I didn't do...
  8. Lost My Mum

    I just can't believe it I just can't, I can't, I can't, I can't I was fine this morning but now I'm panicking, what am I going to do without her, I just want her back, its so quiet and I woke up thinking she was there Its so unfair, so unfair, I just want to be were she is! I can't bare this place, everything, even the things on my computer remind me of her, I keep going to tell her things and I can't, I don't know what to do, I just want to escape!
  9. Lost My Mum

    I feel calm and very quite with frequent pangs of pain. But I don't want to eat the food that is here, or touch anything that was here before she was gone.
  10. They say God takes the good first, maybe it is so they don't have to suffer this walk of tears we call life. I lost my Mum last night and she was the kindest sweetest person in the world, who would have given her last penny to help a stranger, but she had an unhappy life, I keep thinking that now, now she doesn't have to worry or stress, now she is with her Mum and her Brother and her Dad and she is watching over me. I know how hard it is, I know how terrible it is, but God is not to blame, I blamed him too and I know how angry you are, I'm angry too. I can't give you any answers, I don't have any for myself, all I can do is walk my path of tears and look forward to seeing my Mum at the end and be at least partially content that she is happy and away from pain now. I hope that you feel better soon and that life throws you a few peaches instead of lemons, take care.
  11. Lost My Mum

    The hospital, NHS, I live in the UK has offered us bereavement counselling and my brother thinks it is a good idea, I also had a chat with a bereavement support line, which helped a bit. I keep talking to her, I know she can't answer me but I'm sure she can hear me. I want to keep her ashes but my Brother says that its not healthy to hold on to the ashes for too long, it might hurt moving on but... I keep trying to do normal things but I feel guilty...I just wish it was me and not her...