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  1. Found mom but was too late.

    I'm so sorry for your loss domniki. That is a horrible way to lose someone. I think it's amazing that you feel he is around you. Honestlly...I don't feel like my Mom is around me and that upsets me. We were so close and I would think she would want me to know she's still with me, but I haven't had anything happen that makes me feel that way. I don't know if I'm totally missing the signs or not. A bit depressing really. Maybe one day, but almost 2 years has passed and I haven't felt, seen, heard or had anything happen. My little sister has though. I'm glad my Mom has done that for her at least. Megan
  2. We won't know the answers to why this stuff happens. I lost my Mom 2 years ago May 16th unexpectantly when she was 56 and I was 28. I do believe everything happens for a reason, but sometimes it's hard to believe that. They say God gives the hardest battles to his strongest soliders. You and your Husband must be incredibly stong individuals. Stay strong...it sucks...but you guys have eachother to lean on. I'm so sorry for the multiple losses you have had to go through. No words can take away that pain. Take care of yourself and eachother. Megan
  3. My Dad Died at 49, Cause Unknown

    Hi Cortney, My Mom passed away at 56. I was 28. I'm not 30 and the 2 year anniversary is on May 16th. I know how you feel. My Mom and Dad were no longer married and it was just my sister and I. I was the one who did everything being the oldest. It is a lot of work and very overwhelming. I hate to say this, but I don't know if the acutallly pain of losing your Dad will ever just go away. It's been almost two years for me and it still hurts. My Mom and I were best friends like you and your Dad. A part of me went with her that day and I don't know if I can fill that hole in. It does get easier to deal with as time goes, meaning talking about him and thinking about him. But I still have bad days. It sucks...doesn't seem fair. You assume your parent will be there for all the big moments in your life. My Mom missed my wedding by 14 months and now my husband and I are trying to get pregnant and I don't have a Mom to talk to about these exciting things. Let alone a women for advice and support. I'm here if you have questions or would like to talk considering we're dealing with the same thing pretty much. Just try to keep your mind busy...that helps. Take care and I'm so sorry for your loss. Megan
  4. My Mom passed away May 16th, 2012 unexpectantly. I was the one who found her. She was not only the most caring and supportive Mom anyone could ask for, but she was my best friend. I could tell her anything and everything. If I was having a bad day, she was the first person I would call or go see. I spoke to her on the phone every single day. Now I can't do that and a part of me truly went with her that day. I may be 30 years old, but I still need my Mom. She always said the doctor never cut the imbelico cord between us because we were so close. I feel like I'm missing a big chunk of me. Well I am a spiritual person and I believe that it's possible the spirit of your loved ones can let you know they're still with you, but nothing has happended to me that makes me know for sure she's with me. I need that more than ever. There was one thing that happened, but I don't know if I was just imagining things or not. I was sitting on my couch reading a book and I smelled her perfume. I have never worn the type of perfume she wore and it was just me, my husband and my 2 dogs in the house. None of them responded to anything and didn't seem to notice. So I figured I mush be imagining things. I don't know if something will ever happen or if I'm missing her signs? I know that if my Mom was able to she would want to let me know she's with me...I think? It's coming up on the 2 year anniversary and I've been thinking about her a lot lately. Even though she crosses my mind daily...the past week or so I've really been thinking about her. I just joined this last night and I'm hoping to find some peace with talking about it. It's just my sister and I...who is 2 1/2 years younger than me and I have had to be so strong for her, so I haven't allowed myself to mourn too much. Plus the pain is too much, I try to not allow myself to think about it because I can cry in a second. This is when I need my Mom the most.
  5. My mum died suddenly aged 56

    Hi Dan, my name is Megan and my situation is pretty simular. I lost my Mom when she was 56 and I was 28. May 16th will be 2 years since she passed away. My Mom struggled with alcohol abuse but then got help and was clean for over 10 years. Well my Dad filed for divorce after 27 years of marriage and it took a toll on my Mom. She started drinking again and was hiding it from my sister and I. Neither one of us lived at home and she lived alone. Well she was also on medication for anxiety and depression and she was absolutely not supposed to mix these medications with alcohol and it killed her. I was the one who found her. I was too late. She had fallen too. She died quickly they determined, but you still question whether that's actually the case. I didn't get to say goodbye to her either. She was my best friend and the most caring suppportive Mom anyone could ask for. I question what if I would have been there too. It sucks. Could I have saved her? I don't know and never will. I am so mad I couldn't help her and she didn't want to ask me for help. But she knew if my sister and I knew she was drinking again it would kill us. But I would have done anything possible to help her. It's not fair. You assume your Mom will be there when you get married, have kids, etc. But my Mom missed my wedding by 14 months and now my husband and I are trying to get pregnant and she's not here to talk to. I talked to her every single day. I don't know your exact situation with your family, but I think it would help to try to bring them back into your life. They may be feeling horrible that they didn't try more. I know I wonder why I missed the signs and it's killing me. I question constantly if I would have noticed, said or done something different would she still be here? Maybe they feel the same way? It's not fair for you not to have your family to lean on for support. They may need you too. I'm here to talk to because I get it. It is the worse feeling possible. I wouldn't wish this on my worst enemy, but I think knowing someone who can understand from experience makes you feel not so alone. Megan Nancy Otte 1956-2012
  6. Missing my Mom so much...

    Your story got me teary eyed because like I mentioned, it's been almost 2 years since I lost my Mom and I have somewhat forgot how my Mom smelled, her voice and how it felt to be hugged by her. Do you have home videos or anything?
  7. I lost my Mom almost 2 years ago. May 16th will be the 2 year anniversary. It's so hard. I lost my Mom unexpectedly as well. I found her but it was too late. They say time heals all wounds but I just think it gets a bit easier to get through the day. A part of me went with my Mom that day for sure. She was 56 and I was 28 at the time. You don't expect to be motherless that early in life which I'm sure you can understand. It doesn't seem fair. On the first anniversary of my Mom passing away it was a hard day. But lean on family and friends for support. It will get a bit easier, but it still hurts your heart. Hang in there.
  8. Found mom but was too late.

    Heartlight that is honestly the most understanding thing someone has said to me and I don't even know you. I wouldn't wish this on my worse enemy but having someone who knows how it feels makes me not feel so alone. I'm so sorry for your losses. Thank you.
  9. I lost my Mom May 16th 2012. I unfortunately found her and it was too late. She passed away unexpectedly at 56 years old. I was 28. It's been almost 2 years and I struggle daily with the what ifs and if only I questions. You never expect to be motherless at 28 let alone be the one who finds her. The image haunts me to this day. It's the last image I have of my Mom. She was my best friend and a piece of me went with her that day. I don't talk about it much because I seem fine on the outside, but inside I'm hurting. She missed me getting married by 14 months. She won't be there when I get pregnant and have kids. It sucks and there's nothing I can do about it.