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argkangie

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About argkangie

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  • Gender
    Female
  • Location
    Portland Oregon
  • Interests
    Spending time with my children, scrapbooking and the computer
  • Loss Type
    Too many loved ones but the one that has had the most impact on my life is the death of my father
  • Angel Date
    06/15/2008

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  • Occupation
    Stay at home mon
  • Last Name
    Killam
  • First Name
    Angela
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  1. I find myself questioning God, first my father unexpectedly passed away on Father's Day 2008, one month shy of his 51st birthday and now my 33 year old sister overdosed and passed away on the 18th of January and all I have are question's, so many what if's. I am so afraid of there not being any after life, never seeing my loved ones ever again and if I am never going to be with my loved ones again then really what's the sense of living? It feels pointless
  2. I lost my dad very unexpectedly on Father's Day 9 year's ago, he one month shy of his 51st birthday. I had to be strong for my mom and my 4 younger siblings, I was only 30 at the time of his death and never had expected that I would be planning a funeral, picking out my dads casket. My younger sister was never the same after the death of our father, she started taking opiate's to numb the pain, she overdosed and died on the 18th of January. I am still grieving over the loss of my father and now my sister. I honestly don't feel that time heals pain, you just learn how to deal with it, cope with it. I tell myself that at least my sister is now with our father but I don't feel that I will ever feel complete again, how is that possible when two pieces of our puzzle are now missing. My children, husband, family are what keeps me going, I try living my life the way my father and sister would want me to, I am trying not to take anything for granted, Cherish everything, always love and care for the family I have left here on earth and always keep the memory of my Dad and Sister alive. I am truly sorry for your loss
  3. My father passed away on Father's Day 2008 at the age of 50. Him and my mom had been together for over 30 years since she was 14 years old, I think seeing her in so much pain hurt me more then anything. Here we are almost 10 years later and my 32 year old sister just overdosed on the 18th, so once again my mother is feeling some of the worst pain there is. To top it off my younger brother was also just sentenced to 14 1/2 years in prison. My heart breaks for my mom and no matter how sad lost and alone I myself may be feeling I try and keep it together the best I can, I know it gets really overwhelming at times, there are many times I want to scream and say we'll what about me, what I am going through but I don't, all u can do is take it day by day
  4. Loss of my little Sister

    Thank you for your kind words
  5. Loss of my little Sister

    Loss my little Sister on the 18th to a drug overdose, had her funeral yesterday and it all still seems so unreal to me, I am feeling so much guilt, I feel that I should have done more to try and help her and my biggest fear is that my daughter will be next, I have called the crisis intervention team on my sister and they kept her for three days and released her. My family and I have tried and tried talking to them both, tried to get them to get the help that they need, needed but it's like it goes in one ear and out the other, they seem, seemed like an empty walking shell with no, heart, no morals, no common sense. I am afraid of what's going to happen when it sinks in that my little sister is gone, as of right now it still feels as if I am stuck in a bad dream, I don't know what to think, say, or do
  6. Mom's New Boyfriend

    Hello, I am sorry to hear that you are going through so much heart ache and pain, I can relate to some of what you are going through. I lost my father as well, on fathers day of 2008. He was only 50 years old and like you my father was my superhero. Thankfully I still have not been faced with my mother having a new boyfriend but I can imagine what it would feel like. Of course like you I would want my mom to be happy and it would be very selfish for me to tell her otherwise but if she tried pushing her new boyfriend on me I would confront and express my feeling's to her. She's your mother so I would think, well hope that she would understand and respect your feeling's. If you don't face this situation and deal with it, you more then likely will end up feeling like you betrayed you father, not that you should feel this way but I know I would. Hope I helped you in someway.
  7. Thank you for your response. I never would have thought I would still be feeling this way 5 years later. Truly the greatest man that I have ever known and I am not just saying that because he is my father, his number 1 priority in life was to be the sole provider in our lives even if it meant working night and day, he stood behind us 100% no matter what we may or may not have done wrong but at the same time taught us right from wrong, he raised us with morals and strong family values....When his grandchildren were born he was the best PaPa that they could ever ask for.... He was the true meaning\definition to the words husband, father and grandfather..... Everyone of us are hurting being left in this world without him, we love and miss him more and more each and everyday.... I am Proud to have had him as my Dad..... He was truly not only our Dad but our Super Hero..... We are who we are because of him and mom, thats something that I will cherish forever..... Thank you for everything, I love and miss him..... As for my Mom, I too think this support group will help her deal with his loss, I have been telling my mom that she needs to talk to people who have gone through the same loss as she and I will help her get set up on it cause she is not very good with computer's yet. Again thank you for your support.
  8. My Dad

    Photo's of my Dads life
  9. My dad passed away a little over 5 years ago on Fathers day, he died unexpectedly at the young age of 50, my dad worked for my cousin and her husband at their wrecking yard and he had decided to go to work that day, he was found in the Loader unresponsive, the parametics tryed saving him, they worked on him for well over an hour but their was nothing that they could do, I just still cant believe hes gone, I know this will probably sound stupid to a lot of people but I never thought that he would leave us, he was such a loving and dedicated husband, father and grandfather, now my poor mom is alone, her and my dad were together over 31 years, my mom was only 14 when she had met my dad and they stayed together ever since, it kills me seeing my mom in so much pain. Does anyone else know what its like to have to plan the funeral for your father, pick out his casket ect... Never in a million years would I have ever thought that I would be faced with this at the age of 31.... Its going on 5 years, 3 months now and I still cry everyday thinking about my dad, I miss him so much, I dont think that I will ever be truely happy ever again because how is that possible when a piece of me is missing and to be happy you would have to be whole....
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