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  1. Loss of an Adult Child

    ERICA EILEEN - HAPPY HEAVENLY BIRTHDAY! KICK UP YOUR HEELS AND SWIRL AROUND YOUR MOMMA THIS DAY...THE DAY THAT BROUGHT HER THE GIFT OF YOU! Dee - thinking of you on Eri's 30th! Thank you for being here and sharing your wise words and comfort to all who struggle with this loss! Love, Shelly
  2. Loss of an Adult Child

    Good Morning Indigos - It's been such a long time since I've posted. I read most days and apologize for not posting but I could use some help right now. My little sister just lost the older of her two boys to a heroin overdose. Both of her sons were addicted to heroin, both went to 3 month rehab in Michigan and the younger boy is doing well (so far). How do I help her? I know what she and her husband are facing: the long and trecherous journey of grief; the days after everyone goes home and goes on with their lives and you're left asking why; the realization that this isn't a dream...he's not coming back. I pray for all you kind folks on this website. May I ask you to say a little prayer for my sister and her family? Peace and love to all.....Shelly
  3. Does anyone else have anxiety?

    Hello Newbie - I'm so sorry for the loss of your daughter. I lost my 29 year old daughter in August of 2010 to leukemia. Anxiety wasn't part of my grief journey until last year. You and the others are right, it takes over your life. It can be debilitating. I found a website where people can post called anxietynomore. It was started by a man who wrote a book called At Last A Life but I can't remember his name. If you google it you will find it. I hope this will help you. My prayers to you.
  4. Everything is different. i miss her so much

    Forever - I am so sorry for your loss. It is an alternate universe we're thrown into when we lose a child. You're right, nothing feels the same and it isn't. I pray you have someone you can lean on, who can help you at this time. Caring for your little ones is your first priority as you said, but you also need to take care of you. Perhaps you would post on the Loss of an Adult Child thread of this website. It doesn't matter how old the child, there are a lot of kind, caring people there who will listen and offer you hope. I lost my 29 year old daughter to leukemia in August of 2010. My heart to you.
  5. Loss of AYA (Adolescent/Young Adult)

    msmom - I just read your post and my heart breaks for your loss. My 29 year old daughter died from leukemia in August 2010. She was my oldest daughter, I have a surviving daughter who is now 30. I can't imagine the pain of losing an only child. Our younger daughter has an almost 2 year old daughter. If I may ask do you have a husband or significant other to share your grief with? I understand what you mean about a sudden death vs. an illness that leads to it. I know several people who have lost a child suddenly and I often wondered which is worse. I'm sorry that your son didn't allow those words to be said or appreciate the lengths you went through to help him. May I suggest you come to the Loss of an Adult Child thread of this website. There are so many people there who are walking this road and who are kind, loving and compassionate people. You may also PM me anytime you want to chat. My prayers to you. Shelly
  6. So sorry to hear of the loss of your son. My heart and prayers to you. Please come to the Loss of an Adult Child thread of this website. No matter the age of your child, there are many who will listen and share your grief there. This is such a hard journey but there are people who understand what you're going through. Peace to you my friend.
  7. Sorry I am new to this

    Steve's Mom - I read your heartbreaking story...that of your dear son and how you lost him. My heart and prayers to you, I am so sorry for your loss. May I suggest you post in the Loss of an Adult Child on this website. There are many there who will listen and grieve with you, as they have lost a precious child also. I am from PA also and lost my daughter at the age of 29. She battled leukemia for 11 months. This is the hardest and most unnatural thing a parent can go through. Please continue to post on the Adult Child thread of this website and tell us of your Steve. We will share your burden.
  8. Loss of an Adult Child

    Dear Indigos - On this Thanksgiving morning, I pray there is a measure of peace for all who come here. As hard as it is, let us give thanks for the angels God brought to our lives...that He chose us to be their caretakers, to love more than we thought possible. My heart to all... Shelly
  9. Loss of an Adult Child

    Hello Indigos! It has been such a very long time since I've posted. I read most every day but have honestly been reluctant to post what's been happening to me. First, let me say that my heart goes out to the new folks here: Wade, Debbie, SamDs Mom, Shannon and any others I've missed. When I read your stories, I pray for your healing. Back in September, I spent 5 days in the hospital for anxiety. I really don't know why I couldn't control it but it definitely got the best of me. I've had 5 major losses in 5 years: my father-in-law, my 21 yr old neice, my mother, my daughter, and my father in that order. Now I find that my siblings have no real desire to keep in touch since my dad died, and I guess I resent that they never call me just to say hi. I lost my daughter for crying out loud! Forgive the rant about me...just feeling very lonely and sad as the holidays approach. I know all of you are facing the holidays without your angels, and that is something we have in common. I pray for the peace and comfort only our Father can give to each and every one of you! Love, Shelly
  10. Walking along this road

    Gambitjr - I saw your post this morning as I was signing on to Loss of Adult Child. I can hear the hurt in your words and I'm so sorry for the loss of your precious daughter. I noticed you are from Pittsburgh. I live in Pennsylvania also. I understand the desperation of wanting your daughter back. My 29 year old daughter died in August 2010 from leukemia. 7 months is such a short time and I remember well the unreality of it...how is this possible? Why? Why not me? If you'd like to private message me, I am here to talk with you. Also going to the Loss of an Adult Child thread of this website, you will find many that understand what you are going through. I pray for some peace for you this day.
  11. Loss of an Adult Child

    Hello Indigo Friends- M.Matta - my heart to you as you mentioned attending your cousin's boy's services. How heartbreaking that must have been. I pray the relationship with your mother improves. Shannon - what a wonderful gift to see the fireworks from your house! A gift from Trista I would say! Lora - thinking of you and loved the beautiful cloud pictures. Gretchen - I too have been on antidepressants since I had post-partum depression after my second daughter was born. Kate and Dee and Shannon too I believe talked about anxiety and PTSD. I recently started going back to a grief therapist because this summer I have been extremely anxious. I like your outlook, Gretchen, where you decided you would enjoy your time with the people that are here! If I may ask Kate, Dee and Shannon: How does your anxiety present itself? This anxiety I am experiencing is very similar to that when Sarah was sick and things were not getting better for her. Do you think this kind of thing can return for whatever reason? Carol - thinking of you at Mike's angelversary time. Prayers to you. May you all enjoy your Labor Day the best that you can!
  12. loss of my son

    Newbie17 - I am so sorry for the loss of your son. I believe the "signs" you've received are not coincidence. This is a very hard journey, that of losing a child. My 29 year old daughter died 3 years ago from leukemia. May I suggest you post on "Loss of an Adult Child". There are many people there who are on this journey and will lend an ear and give their hearts to you. Peace to you friend.
  13. Loss of an Adult Child

    M.Matta - My heart breaks for that precious little boy. I pray for your family. Sandy - I hear you. It is hard to be the person we were before our loss. It is also sometimes hard to remember who that person was. Prayers to you. Summergirl - You said it perfectly...a puzzle with pieces missing. So true! Wishing everyone a peaceful day. Shelly
  14. Loss of an Adult Child

    Shannon - sending hugs and prayers this new morning. Thinking of all Indigos and wishing you a peaceful day.
  15. Loss of an Adult Child

    Betsy - thanks for your wishes. No worries, I have missed quite a few birthdays and angelversaries but we try to keep up. Lora - I'm sorry to hear you are struggling. I believe we have all been where you are. Peace to you. To all here: I pray you have a peaceful day.