Dear Patchesmom4ever - I so feel your pain right now and the guilt. My beloved little dog Lily was killed yesterday by a coyote. I let her out and she didn't come back...which I had done before and she always returned. Problem this time is that it was 4:30 in the morning, pitch black. We have a fence so I never really gave it a second thought..she always came back. I found her remains with the coyote in my yard. My poor husband had to pick her up and bring her to the vet. She was in two pieces. He is devestated at what he saw. The little dog with the soft fur and the pink belly was ripped in half. Like your Patches, my Lily was a perfect companion and loving beyond belief. I just can't shake the image or the wondering about whether she suffered terribly. Did she cry? Did she linger? Does she think I betrayed her? All of the questions are killing me. And the lack of unfairness is incredible to me, my dogs sleep on my bed, get a prime spot on the sofa, while other dogs are strictly outdoors, and not included with the family...and these pets are alive and mine is not. I am sorry to hijack your thread PatchesMom, I just wanted to let you know that you are not alone. I truly hope that comfort comes to us both soon at some point, we were good, loving pet parents and I feel we don't deserve this.