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  1. Loss of an Adult Child

    Thanks to all who shared their experiences with signs from their loved ones. How precious they are! It gives hope to those who are still here, traversing the rest of our life pilgrimage. Kate, thanks for sharing about your husband...with his courage of facing this cancer. I do believe the more open you are to receiving these types of experiences, the more they will unfold in your life. Sending gentle thoughts to all.
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    Sandy, prayers for healing for your girl. Dee, good news for your husband and son. Kate, more prayers for your husband....holding your hand. Susan, sending you lots of prayers for Texas!
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    Kate, Yes, I did take a similar trip last year. This year I took my daughter with. She really needed it after this last month. We walked the grounds, and there is a small cafe there with great food. It is one place where I feel safe enough to spiritual connect to a faith... Colleen, the Holy Hill area is probably close to where you are.... On Synchonicity: On Sept 2, we received a final notice that the girl who ran over my son lost her appeal to the courts. She was still trying to place the blame on Jesse 5 years later. (also, nasty things about us were written too, such as we were trying to get the courts sympathy -- what a nut her attorney is, my son dies and no one should feel bad?!?). What is most important to us that the events that actually happened that day now stand legally. My husband after receiving this letter, came to his work to tell his co-worker/friend. He shared, that without our District Attorney's help and commitment -- the truth would never had come out, and lies would have stayed in place. My husband's co-worker, told him, that the District Attorney, Gerald Fox died that Monday, Sept 4. Though we missed his funeral, I was able to light a candle for him in the Prayer Room of Holy Hill. I would not be surprised if Jesse was one of his greeters. Gerald passed of a sudden heart attack at a Boy Scout event. We are forever grateful to his assistance. ***********************************************************************
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    Somersky, I had a similar incident with a cell phone the day Jesse transitioned...it was about 10 that night and there was a text message on my phone that said Thanks...Jesse Also, my son had never texted my phone before (in life) It was where the phone number or contact name would have been. There was nothing else in the actual message area. It was not attached to any phone number. I tried to call it back, but nothing. I never had that happen on a cell phone since. However, on one of his angel birthdays since, I did have a pic of a dove attach itself as an avatar to Jesse's number by itself. No one had touched the phone. It had been sitting on my dining room table. Also, when that particular picture was taken my daughter was sure it was a sign from him. I consider these touch points from the heaven world...I always give thanks to receive such signs.
  5. Loss of an Adult Child

    All...I am ok. Christina and I are at my mom and dad's to check on them. Went to Holy Hill today..it was very meaningful. I will write more tomorrow as I am posting from my phone Sendimg gentle thoughts to all
  6. Loss of an Adult Child

    Georgina....thinking of you and your beautiful James. Prayers for gentle healing.
  7. Loss of an Adult Child

    Thought I would post this video on the journey of Grief from Compassionate Friends
  8. Loss of an Adult Child

    Kym, I am sorry for the loss of your dear son, Scott. You are still very early on in your grief. Try to take time and just rest, as this has been a major trauma and your body responds accordingly. I made myself fruit smoothies and took vitamins, even though I did not want to. One thing my counselor told me early on, was to create a "safe" spot in my home. For me, I selected a corner chair, bought a soft throw, and placed special teas and other healthy snacks near me. I also had books there. For the most part, I just would retreat there. I also created a sacred spot in my home for Jesse with his pics and other items. Take care. Tina, thinking of you. It is hard. Sending gentle thoughts and hugs.
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    Susan, thinking of you all down in Texas. Prayers and thoughts are sent your way. We had a collection today for those hit in need, I believe there is a huge relief effort coming from the Wisconsin area. Though, it will never replace those lost from the storm. I send gentle thoughts your way and many hugs. Lou Ann, What I observed is that there are varying approaches to how one processes such a horrific event as the death of one's child. Finding others that are compassionate and understanding helps so much. That is what I have found to be of great value in this site, caring bereaved parents forming a circle of our own. Loneliness in such a journey, compounds such a load, a terrible heavy load. We will find our own path...stumble along...on this side of heaven, some things will never add up. Some things cannot fully heal, much like an amputee losing a leg. For most, we learn to adapt. And maybe those wounds are not meant to heal -- but those wounds I carry in my heart and soul for my beloved two sons, I bear with honor and nobility. For me, this served as an impetus for a deep inner search, of spirituality, and finding meaning in life. As many know on here, my son and I had premonitions/knowings the year of his passing. Also, the year after my son passed -- my extended family and circle had many that passed -- some had deathbed visions (I never knew about this before). My uncle Dave who passed in 2013 was able to see his grandson waiting for him. His grandson had passed away in the spring of 2012, my son passed the fall of 2012. There were others that also had these visions while lucid. The death of my adult son, stripped away any facade, and left me knowing I had to dig deeper. I have researched consciousness surviving death of our body since. My son's leaving -- along with my own personal direct experiences -- have brought me to a very different place in my life. I would say, the intense pain has mellowed. I take one day at a time, and try to stay focused in the Now. However, there are times I set aside for mourning, grief processing, and I have learned to keep those moments very private and sacred.
  10. Loss of an Adult Child

    Susan, Prayers of safety for Texas...my mom was telling me tonight about how hard Houston was hit. I am hoping FEMA is down there and running. Tina, Thank you for sharing Kiona's special remembrance place...I did the same for my son, Jesse and also for Taylor. It was my sacred spot to retreat to. Dianne, I am glad that Michael's friend stopped by and seemed to give you a boost. It was kind and thoughtful of him. Sandy, what you said about certain physical places is so true, how they can turn into a trigger for more grief and pain...how good it was for you to attend the birthday for Becca, and how much strength it took to go for her sake. Once someone is bereaved, there are so many things that others may do in their average life, that now takes superhuman strength for us to accomplish. Sending good thoughts. Just got finished working through the weekend...so will be hitting the hay. Wishing everyone a restful night. ********************************* Again, thanks to all who gave a voice of support for Christina. *********************************
  11. There is a Heaven, proof......

    I am sorry for your loss, but thank you for sharing the angel story. Verse of poetry taken from a very old poem: Four corners to my bed,Four angels 'round my head,One to watch, one to pray,And two to bear my soul away.
  12. Loss of an Adult Child

    Thanks for the words of support. I am hoping things will settle down now. Susan, sending prayers for safety...I see the hurricane is still on its way... Kate, the picture of the 2 girls in the field with the city on the horizon is amazing...not often you see a field that close to an urban area...sending prayers for you and Ross's surgery... Georgina, thinking of you today...haven't heard from you for a while? Also, Dianne...and Lesley, thinking of you both...
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    Very nice pictures Kate. My husband talked with this man again tonight, to reach a gentler conclusion...it became apparent he did not have a clue as to the effect of what he was saying to Christina. They were helpful on one hand, yet the demands were too much. I do believe this relationship is behind her. Again, I advise caution, especially to those with other children to who they confide in...even though it was done through ignorance, what was said to Christina, actually had physical effects on her body/system.
  14. Loss of an Adult Child

    Becky, so good to see your post...love all the pictures. I was thinking of you the other day, because somehow I must of downloaded one of your videos...I played it and found it was yours of Jared's spot in your house! Thinking of your JD. I would like to ask for prayer for Christina. After Jesse passed, she joined a church that had a grief group. From there an elderly man teaching sunday school befriended her along with his wife. Well as time went on, he would get into these demands on her regarding her brother's death...how she should be handling it...even quoted some idiotic lines from the movie Shack at her. It was over the top. The church was changing leadership, and so she has now left to attend somewhere else. Well, this man wrote her a letter demanding to know why she was ignoring him and his wife, among other things. I told her not to meet with them but she did and it went bad. (This was yesterday). More demands on what she should be doing with her grieving and him quoting her verses according to his world view. She was so upset from that meeting I had to drive her to work and back. My husband got mad and wrote him a text telling them to stop talking to her and to stop judging her in her grief. So what is bad, is that this man's wife also works where christina does and of course has to sidle up to her today to say How hurt THEY ARE, and how upset they are with my husband for telling them to stop their demands. It is a crazy situation...and feels out of control...I am so pissed at them...if they could not handle being in lay leadership, then they should stay out. I don't want to make anything worse, but it is a word of warning...be careful who you allow into that space of grieving...
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    Also, Kate, sending healing prayers for you....
  16. Loss of an Adult Child

    Dee, also how is your hubby and son doing? Becky, haven't heard from you in a while....are you okay out there? Nice to hear from those who posted here...hoping and sending good thoughts...
  17. Loss of an Adult Child

    Thanks Dianne for the share about the end of life visions. Here is a good resource site ran by Dr. Jeffrey Long. It is on after death contacts. http://www.adcrf.org/index.html I researched some of this after my own event and others that shared.... Dee, have you started the class time yet? Today was Benton's very first day at school...he didn't cry but I felt like it. He said -- Grandma, Its okay, I will be back. =)
  18. Loss of an Adult Child

    Colleen, so nice to see the pictures of your Brian! And the toddler one... Sherry, our garden didn't do so well this summer, it was too wet and I think the deer and rabbits enjoyed it more.
  19. Loss of an Adult Child

    Thanks for the encouragement...It has been harder to breath. Also with so many other things thrown in the pot....I am stretched very thin...I have been taking supplements though....and one is Curamed with Brain Support. Time has moved forward whether we want it to or not. Somedays it seems like it was yesterday....somedays, I realize Jesse is in his new home...whether I want it to be or not....then there is the instant resisting.....I can be mad, sad, sorta crazy all at the same time---but mostly just have learned to be fake "happy" as to not bum people out. There is some kind of mad timetable to this all, that is all relevant to only youself....I do think that one must journey the path in their own way, their own time...it will be your own....finding other compassionate souls to come along side, in kind understanding...like a brother/sister hood that only those initiated can understand... I listen to the stories of end of life or nders mostly...as we had many of these experiences the year Jesse was leaving....the next year 5 more left...3 of those had deathbed visions with total mind clarity...and lucid... Myself, Jesse told me 3 days beforehand that with finality, his life was going to be short. These notices (in various forms) began earlier that year, but increased in intensity as that veil got thinner. I did not know about these type of phenomena before...until it was too late...for me I am a knower, though I wish I was not.
  20. Loss of an Adult Child

    Somersky, thanks for your post and sharing about your son, Skylar. I have taken a different approach to my son and had to research some hard evidence to what really happens post this life. I recommend Dr. Bruce Greyson and also Dr. Penny Sartori. Both are well qualified and recognized as experts in the field of consciousness studies. ****************************************************** Well, I am signing off for now...worked for 10 straight days and then today was chore day. I am bushed!
  21. Loss of an Adult Child

    Dee, I have heard that so much about loved ones coming for the next family member, thanks for sharing the story of your dear cousin Lela. Kate, how fortunate that young man was to meet Ross that day. I am sure Jeff was cheering this all the way. Also, loved the pic of the lake...it is beautiful. Susan, the pic of Veto is so cute...I am sure he gets a lot of love with so many arms to carry him! Lesley, did you notice the truck further back...it said Home 2. I had a few of those types of connections...I always notice that there is a difference in "feeling" when those types of events occur.
  22. Loss of an Adult Child

    Thanks to all who posted pictures...I loved the old church by the sea, and Lake Huron was beautiful. I am sorry if I missed any marker days...but this is a good group of parents here...one place where we can talk about what grief really is...and not have to have the mask on all the time. Miley, I am sorry for the loss of your dear daughter....this a special place here...sending gentle thoughts... Sending a Heavenly Birthday wish to Nathaniel Ryan....
  23. Loss of an Adult Child

    Dee, thanks for sharing too, the young man Bradley just made an impression on me. What I did not say, is that on the day of his death, he had just stopped at accident site earlier and attended the victims there until official paramedics arrived. At that accident, one man died there and the other badly hurt. It was about an hour later that he himself died in a one car accident. The police -- when they went to thank him -- found that he had already died. Also, he was an orthodox Jew in a priesthood line (by their genealogy records) so why it is worded G-d. Also, thanks for sharing the story of your friend to let others know that sometimes friendships don't always survive after we change. I liked the way you phrased it, that some of the things she did "Just made your heart hurt". I think that is a good measuring tool. I had one friendship I had to let go too. Perhaps using that phrase that would also be a good way of teaching kindness to children. To use that as a simple measuring tool. However, I think that there is too much confusion in the culture today,. Lately I have been watching old movies from late 50s and 60s...I just watched a Doris Day movie. What I did not know about her until my mom told me yesterday, is that she lost her only son to cancer sometime ago. She is now active in animal rescue work.
  24. Loss of an Adult Child

    I was reading in another forum about a young man named Bradley who passed in a car accident Oct 2006 at age 22. I had chatted to his friend, and read a bit about him from an article she posted -- he was an EMT and studying medicine when he passed. Here is a poem I found that someone posted for him and his family from the article's comments. For his remembrance: Letter from Heaven To my dearest family, some things I’d like to say. But first of all, to let you know, that I arrived okay. I am writing this from heaven. Here I dwell with G-d above. Here there are no more tears of sadness, here is just eternal love. Please do not be unhappy just because I am out of sight. Remember that I am with you every morning, noon and night. The day I had to leave you when my life on earth was through. G-d picked me up and hugged me and this is what He said. “I welcome you. It is good to have you back again. You were missed while you were gone. As for your dear family, they will be here later on. I need you badly, you are part of my plan. There is so much that we have to do, to help our mortal man.” G-d gave me a list of things that He wished for me to do. And foremost on the list, was to watch and care for you. And when you lie in bed at night, the day’s chores put to flight, G-d and I are closest to you…In the middle of the night. When you think of my life on earth, and all those loving years.. Because you are only human, they are bound to bring you tears. But do not be afraid to cry: it does relieve the pain Remember there would be no flowers, unless there was some rain. I wish that I could tell you all that G-d has planned. If I were to tell you, you would not understand. But one thing is for certain, though my life on earth is over. I am closer to you now, than I ever was before. There are many rocky roads ahead of you and many hills to climb; But together we can do it by taking one day at a time. It was always my philosophy and I would love it for you too: That as you give unto the world, the world will give to you. If you can help somebody who is in sorrow and pain; Then you can say to G-d at night… “My day was not in vain.” And now I am contented…that my life was worthwhile. Knowing as I passed along the way, I made somebody smile. So if you meet somebody who is sad and feeling low; Just lend a hand to pick him up, as on your way to go. When you are walking down the street And you have me on your mind: I am walking in your footsteps only half a step behind. And when it’s time for you to go…from that body to be free. Remember you are not going…You are coming here to me. Author Unknown
  25. Loss of an Adult Child

    I would like to say how thankful I am that this forum has continued...and those people, old and new continue to come and share. On the bad days, and on the ordinary days. Our world has changed and so have we. May we all find as much healing, kindness, and love here...from those who understand who difficult it can be, and also who can celebrate with us our "successes" which look much different now. Upcoming on my infant son's departure this week...so life here does look so much different. So much of what the world chases after are the trivial matters of life, but we find that in the end all one can take with is the love that transcends boundaries and deeds of goodness we have done. It may not look like much to someone else....but what they think I have found not to really matter anyway. Kate, do you have any pics from the Icelandic festival to post? Wondering how that went. Lesley, I hope you find some alternative treatments to help with fibromyaliga. My sister has many health conditions, so some days she just bumps along according to what her body can tolerate.