Jesse David & Taylor Mom

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  1. Dee, I am glad that Erifest turned out so well...and that so many came to remember her. How special that the funds are used to help others in need. I liked the story of the girl and how you bought her new clothes...very special. Lou Ann, I do feel much like you...for me it is PTSD...and some things can trigger it off...
  2. Thanks Sherry for sharing that...I often look at gravestones too for the messages they contain...for me, I see connection between those who have gone on before and those of us still here...
  3. Lou Ann, totally agree with that thought....
  4. Mary Anne, so good to see your Stephen's smiling face today...may his light shine down on you today, filling your heart with warmth and love.
  5. Happy Heavenly Birthday, Jeff! We shout out your name today. Kate, sending gentle thoughts your way.
  6. Thanks for the dog pictures...I do think that the unconditional love an animal provides is healing. My dog never left my side for 3 years. Gretchen, I am sorry for that additional loss...it just seems like it stabs in my heart every time I hear of that...the past week someone was killed on my highway, and I was behind the accident maybe 10 minutes...did a lot of praying. Forest's stone is so decorated with LOVE! Dee, can I share your poem? My cousin had her son pass earlier in 2012. Somersky, thanks for sharing the pics of your beautiful son!
  7. Devianz, what a great picture of your beautiful boy! Somersky, I am sorry for the loss of your dear son, Skyler. Yes you are in the right place. Many have come here...some have stayed on to be a beacon to others --- it is a good place. Susan, I did not realize that John David had sepsis...actually my mom told me about this research...and then Georgina posted...yes, we are coming to our marker days. Kate, sending gentle thoughts your way.... It is late tonight but wanted to get this posted... Also, thinking of Gretchen and those we haven't heard from in awhile...Mary Ann, Becky....
  8. Tina, I am sorry for the loss of your friend's son. Once you lose your own child, it seems like these are harder blows to take. Much closer to the heart. Yours is a recent loss so there is still a lot of shock...may you find gentleness in your day.
  9. Dee, thinking of you today on Erica's Angel day. Sending gentle wishes and hugs.
  10. Kate, I am sorry for the loss of your good friend. Hugs.
  11. Georgina....you may want to ask your doctor about intraveneous vitamin C for additional tratment for sepsis....this is the article http://www.npr.org/sections/health-shots/2017/03/23/521096488/doctor-turns-up-possible-treatment-for-deadly-sepsis It's hard not to get excited about news of a potentially effective treatment for sepsis, a condition that leads to multiple organ failure and kills more people in the hospital than any other disease. But there have been so many false promises about this condition over the years, it's also wise to treat announcements — like one published online by the journal, Chest — with caution. The study, from Eastern Virginia Medical School in Norfolk, Va., reported some remarkable success in treating patients who were at high risk of sudden death. The story began in January, 2016, when Dr. Paul Marik was running the intensive care unit at Sentara Norfolk General Hospital. A 48-year-old woman came in with a severe case of sepsis — inflammation frequently triggered by an overwhelming infection. "Her kidneys weren't working. Her lungs weren't working. She was going to die," Marik said. "In a situation like this, you start thinking out of the box." Marik had recently read a study by researchers at Virginia Commonwealth University in Richmond. Dr. Berry Fowler and his colleagues had shown some moderate success in treating people who had sepsis with intravenous vitamin C. Marik decided to give it a try. He added in a low dose of corticosteroids, which are sometimes used to treat sepsis, along with a bit of another vitamin, thiamine. His desperately ill patient got an infusion of this mixture. "I was expecting the next morning when I came to work she would be dead," Marik said."But when I walked in the next morning, I got the shock of my life." The patient was well on the road to recovery. Marik tried this treatment with the next two sepsis patients he encountered, and was similarly surprised. So he started treating his sepsis patients regularly with the vitamin and steroid infusion. After he'd treated 50 patients, he decided to write up his results. As he described it in Chest, only four of those 47 patients died in the hospital — and all the deaths were from their underlying diseases, not from sepsis. For comparison, he looked back at 47 patients the hospital had treated before he tried the vitamin C infusion and found that 19 had died in the hospital. This is not the standard way to evaluate a potential new treatment. Ordinarily, the potential treatment would be tested head to head with a placebo or standard treatment, and neither the doctors nor the patients would know who in the study was getting the new therapy. But the results were so stunning, Marik decided that from that point on he would treat all his sepsis patients with the vitamin C infusion. So far, he's treated about 150 patients, and only one has died of sepsis, he said. That's a phenomenal claim, considering that of the million Americans a year who get sepsis, about 300,000 die. "So that's the equivalent of three jumbo jets crashing every single day," Marik said. An effective treatment for sepsis would be a really big deal. "If it turns out in further studies that this is true, and we can validate it, then this will be an unbelievably huge deal," said Dr. Craig Coopersmith, a surgery professor at Emory University School of Medicine. "But right now we should treat it as a preliminary deal that needs to be validated." Marik may face extra skepticism because the main ingredient is vitamin C, which has attracted a great deal of skepticism over the years. Fowler at VCU was concerned about that when he wanted to launch a study about the role of vitamin C in sepsis. "Honestly, when we submitted the grant to the NIH, I was fully expecting them to say 'vitamin C? Really?' " Fowler tells Shots. But he'd made the case that vitamin C wasn't simply a once-trendy antioxidant. When the vitamin is injected, as opposed to taken orally, it can influence the immune system's response to inflammation, he told Shots. The NIH gave him a $3.2 million grant to run a carefully controlled study of vitamin C to treat sepsis, with all the usual conditions: It includes placebos; the scientists don't know who's getting the active drug; and it's being conducted at several universities.
  12. Thank you Becky for sharing Jared's picture! Beautiful Lion
  13. Lesley, sending gentle thoughts your way. I agree that one should self-care. I still have Lorazapam as a back up medication. I had to switch doctors early on to keep this prescription which now, I only use once in a while. Are your parents able to help you with emotional support? My mom (and dad) have been there as my sister. Also, just going outside for a bit...and making sure you are touching the soil with your bare feet...it helps for reconnecting as I felt like I was on an alien planet afterwards... and just finding a sunny spot to relax in (vitamin D)...that is what my mom does when she gets depressed. She also has had 2 child losses, my adult sister, Julie in 2003, and an infant son as well. Hugs. Dee, thanks for sharing that last picture of your daughter. I asked Christina to look at it too. It almost seems to me that the cloudy overlay has a pink cast to it. Or maybe it just appears that way...and her bandana looks pink. I was thinking about that because of the pink cloud outburst you said happened right after she left to go "home". You have had a lot on your shoulders the last few months, with hubbie and now your son. Try to get some health smoothies in and maybe some D vitamins.
  14. Dee, do you have a copy of the picture of the 3 girls together?
  15. Susan, what a great picture of John David...I remember seeing it but didn't realize the date of it... Dee, sending lots of healing energy your way...both for hubby and for your son! It is best to take it slow with the back care...so it heals right...Thomas (my youngest) had a disc replacement this last October...it seemed to heal fairly well... Lou Ann, those grief attacks are hard to take...it just rips the rug out from under a person...it has gotten where I can tune out some of the triggering events..but some are just overwhelming still....and physically exhausting...it is like running a marathon over and over... Sherry, good to see your post on here...we are just getting through the strawberry picking season...our garden looks very sad this year...way too much rain... Julian's Mom, thank you for sharing the beautiful picture of your son...this has been a very good "place" to share and have others who understand...hugs. Lesley, perfect picture of what grief is like... *********************** I think a few have mentioned on here about having trouble with going back to work...some days I think I am okay, and then some days I am just not. I have 2 jobs, both are flexible...but my mind loses track of details...sometimes I am in split mode...so I have to really plan ahead on what needs to get accomplished...this gets so frustrating but is my new reality.
  16. Gretchen, sending gentle thoughts today. These Angel days are tough to get through...hugs.
  17. Thank you all who sent me birthday wishes for my Taylor. He would have been thirty today. I am so thankful for this site and all the lovely wishes. Below is my mom and my sister at Taylor's site with me in May. His stone is where my sister, Valarie is on the right of the photo. (I should mention that my colonoscopy was clear, just a precaution). Love the picture of Baby Veto and his mermaid blankie.. Kate, I can picture your beautiful lake. Water has been healing to me as well. Georgina, continued prayers and also Dee for your hubbie. Lesley, your experience of the total breakdown sounds like my first two years.
  18. Also, I would like to share a bit here...the last time I went to my mom's in May, it was to encourage her since it is the month of my sisters passing...also my dad was a bit ill and I had to check on him. Now, when I stopped at a gas station near Madison, I was feeling very blue and out of sorts...when I walked in I noticed immediately that this place had spiritual things for sale. Like angels, infinity loops, etc...I went to the restroom and heard over the speakers a song by the Beatles which was totally out of place...for one, not many radio stations play their songs, and this was the only song like it in the station's genre as I listened for awhile...It immediately reminded me of my sister, Julie as she loved their songs. Then I am standing in line to pay for my items, and to the right of me is a card rack...I am looking straight at a dragonfly card...I knew something was up...when I talked to my younger sister later she told me that the last movie her, my mom and my sister Julie watched was named "Dragonfly". It was a very spiritual movie, if you look it up you will find out why. Then on my way back home from my mom's, I decided I would try to figure out which gas station I stopped at so I could buy the card. Again, I walk through the door and a Beatles song comes on overhead! I thought, what is going on here.?!? I did buy the card. The inside of the card says, "You're Proof". Now this Wednesday, I had my first colonoscopy. Went into the gift shop there at the hospital...what do I see, a dragonfly necklace! (Which I did buy too). I am going to send the card and the necklace to my mom.
  19. Tina, it is so very hard taking those first steps. It takes a long time to get one's footing in this, and there will still be times that one may need to retreat and rest. I send you gentle thoughts... Carol, it was good to read your post today...I remember you were still on here when I first came. It was lovely to read of the signs you receive from the 2 Mike's. How timely you would come here and read about Dee's comments about the Labyrinth...I also stop and think about those type of connections now. Myself, I love Labyrinth's and would love to walk one. Kate, good to see your posting...I am glad that the younger man was able to make a contact with you and Ross...I am sure it must have encouraged his heart too.
  20. Hello, I am a little behind in my reading but plan to catch up! First, I wanted to recognize two of our Indigo Angels as I missed their date. In silence of my heart, I think of you both today.
  21. Sherry, thinking of you this angelversary of Davey.
  22. Becky, I am sorry to hear of your health...sending prayers for health your way. Georgina, thinking of you. Lou Ann, thank you for sharing the pictures of your son's graduation...it is hard to go to those milestone events. We had my daughter's graduation from college after my son's passing, but we made through...
  23. Dianne, just so identified with this, Through my unwanted knowledge of the process of grief, I’ve learned you’ll have moments where you feel 100 percent fine. You’ll go about your day feeling a semblance of what normal used to be, and it’ll feel good. You will have moments where you find yourself entertaining the fact that none of this is real. You will have moments where you wish you could have been the one to go instead of that person, so you don’t have to feel the pain of the loss any longer. You will have moments where you search for some hidden meaning of why this had to happen.... If I have learned one thing throughout this entire year, it is that time does not heal all wounds. My wound is still covered by the Band-Aid that’s holding it all together, but I wouldn’t want it any other way. If you don’t let yourself rip off that Band-Aid from time to time to let yourself see the wound or feel the pain, it will just come back to haunt you even heavier later on....It’s important to know that grief doesn’t give you a timeline. I was afraid that each milestone would make me feel further and further away from my best friend, but thankfully, it has been the opposite.... Sometimes I feel so incredibly sad wishing you could be here, living the amazing life you lead. I’ll wallow in my pity and waste my days away. But, it’s on those days I need to remember to do right by you...
  24. Georgina, sending prayers for Charlotte tonight... Sending much love...may you feel her guardian angels close, holding your heart and hers...we pray that her condition would stabilize and her strength to return...