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About dsmurph

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    being with family
  • Loss Type
    sudden loss of daughter
  1. How do i ______ on the forums?

    I cannot figure out how to remove myself from this group. Can you please do so. Thank you.
  2. Loss of an Adult Child

    Trista's Mom, The first year came too fast but yet felt like forever. My heart goes out to you. I wish I didn't have to do another year. I don't want her to be gone another year. I pray that I can accept more so I can really take in the visits and signs. Hugs to you.
  3. Loss of an Adult Child

    Mermaid Tears, You described me to a T! I am possessive of my grief journey too. Thank you for sharing this.
  4. 10 seconds Lord

    Thank you Mermaid Tears.
  5. Loss of an Adult Child

    Jesse David's Mom, It has actually been a bit harder since Emily's angelversary. But I know this is all part of it. I try to keep that in mind when the waves are the strongest. Thank you for thinking of me.
  6. Loss of an Adult Child

    Jesse David's Mom, It has actually been a bit harder since Emily's angelversary. But I know this is all part of it. I try to keep that in mind when the waves are the strongest. Thank you for thinking of me.
  7. Loss of an Adult Child

    Jesse David's Mom, It has actually been a bit harder since Emily's angelversary. But I know this is all part of it. I try to keep that in mind when the waves are the strongest. Thank you for thinking of me.
  8. Loss of an Adult Child

    Shorty6, I think about this all the time too. I have had people contact me and tell me they had a message from their husband or child. They will tell me details of something we did that day or music that has been on my mind. they will tell me Emily sent them a message through their passed loved one. So, I know we meet each other when we pass. When I hear of a young person passing, I hope that Emily is there for that child. I can see them all working together to get a message across to each other's loved ones who are still here.
  9. Loss of an Adult Child

    :rolleyes: :rolleyes: :rolleyes: HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALEX!!!! :rolleyes: :rolleyes: :rolleyes:
  10. Loss of an Adult Child

    Thank you all so much for your beautiful words and thoughts. Friday turned out to be a blessing for all of the members in our small family, a little tiny piece of healing together. I know Emily was watching and smiling as she watched her little sister run and each one of us share some special memories as we released one balloon at a time and watched as it made it's way into the heavens. It seemed like the ones that my husband and myself released danced their way up as we played Emily's music.
  11. Loss of an Adult Child

    Hello everyone, I have not been on here much in quite a while. But, wanted to share that tomorrow will be a year since our daughter Emily passed. This has been an especially hard week for us. Every day is hard but some days are a little easier. The peace that we have found is in the signs that she is still very much alive in spirit. We have had messages from people about what we did that day, the color of flowers my younger daughter picked that day, the color of dress she had on.I feel her with me at times. We know she is all around us. But, the pain is always there. I try so hard to be positive but the days still come where I cannot talk to others, needing to be left alone to grieve by myself. This week I feel like the first few months when I needed kind words from friends. It felt like they were all just too busy to really lend an ear or to even email and say they are thinking of us. This week feels just like that. I feel the hurt and anger start to grow inside of me. I don't want to feel like that. It seems to me that the new friends who didn't even know Emily but know the pain of loss are the ones that have the kind words. When it comes down to it, the kind words might help just a little but the pain will be just as great. This is the grief journey that only that individual can walk through. Tomorrow My husband, myself, our now 7 year old daughter, our 23 year old daughter, and my parents are all going to the cemetery. We are each going to share some special memories of Emily and release a balloon. My husband and our youngest daughter made a box kite and painted it. If it is windy Hava will fly the kite for Emily. Emily used to listen to a song by a band called Broken Walls--Fly Fly Fly like and Eagle, she would put her arms out and fly around the room. So the kite represents that. Today I thought I would be so busy preparing. But, I have done nothing all day long but sat and cried. Please keep us in your thoughts and prayers tomorrow. Thank you all so much.
  12. Lost my mom two days ago

    Thank you for sharing your mother. hugs
  13. dads suicide

    Hugs and thinking of you. I sent you a message.
  14. 10 seconds Lord

    I feel the same Al Rollin. This Friday will be 1 year. The last few days have been especially hard.
  15. I was just thinking today how a piece of my heart feels literally gone forever. I believe also that I am not the same person and am becoming even more different than before. I am not bitter and choose not to become bitter. Emily was love, everything about her. I try everyday to show the kind of love that she had. I need to do that for her, for God, and for me. But, I know the emptiness inside me and the pain to whatever degree will always be there. Hugs to you Jesse David's Mom and twg144.
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