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  1. My mom died 1 year ago today. The pain is almost as fresh today as it was a year ago. I miss her so much my heart hurts. I walk through the house and tell her to come home. This game isn't fun, please come home. I love you mom.
  2. Mom's birthday was yesterday. I shared this poem with my Facebook friends and family. What a gift you gave me. Blessings.
  3. Birthday

    Mom's 84th birthday today. I have to believe that she is dancing with my dad and the angels. Blessings all.
  4. Surgery

    I have rotator cuff surgery tomorrow. I can't tell you how much I want my mom there. I guess after the surgery the pain is intense for a couple of weeks. My mom would know exactly how to take care of me and help me through this time. My aunt will be here but she is very controlling and not even close to what mom would have given. I am scared. I really need my mom.
  5. WHAT IS "IT"???

    "It" is right on the mark. Thanks for sharing.
  6. I don't know if I will ever be happy as I was. There are times I really laugh with my friends and what family I have left. There are times I can read or watch a movie without being sad. But happy? No. I pray that someday I will be happy again. Hang in there. What you are going through is normal. I lost my mom 8 months ago so this is still fresh with me.
  7. My mom died in February and I still can't focus at times. It seems like I am not connected, if that makes sense. I understand that this is very normal when grieving. The driving part bothers me also. I use to love to drive and now that thought of getting on the freeway scares me to death. Hang in there. Everything you are going through is OK. Keep in touch on this site and let us know how you are doing. We care.
  8. Am I Crazy

    I think it is a wonderful idea. What a beautiful way to honor your father. I must caution you as to burying something in the cemetary. It would be a definante no, no here. Check with the cemetary administration first. I small hole would probably be alright, and you can do it without asking permission, but a two foot hole should be checked. Again I love your idea. What a special person you are.
  9. First year without mom.

    I miss her so much. I will be at my brother's. There will be very little or no talk about mom. They all think I should be over it by now. How can I be over mom when she was my best friend and she will not be here. I wish I could go to sleep and wake up in Janaury or not at all. I WANT HER BACK!
  10. You have a right to be angry. The only thing I can say is that he might have not known what was going on. Please keep that as a hope. Continue with your investigation/compensation, but still think that your dad never knew. Blessings.
  11. This is my first holiday season without mom. We were partners for over 20 years. Longer than a lot have been married. This is the first for me..Surgery on my shoulder the 17th, mom's birthday Dec 24, She told us she was almost baby Jesus so we had to respect her LOL (she had such a deep faith), Christmas...since my mom died in February of this year one of my brothers has decided to not be part of this family...one of my other brothers have invited me to his place for Thanksgiving..big surprise. My aunt, mom' sister, told me I was going to stay at her place Thanksgiving night. This was not an invitation...it was a demand. She doesn't realize that this arrangement makes me almost sick. . She is one of the most controlling women I know. She came to my house yesterday and demanded me to get a haircut before Thanksgiving. She said it 6 more times before she left. That is just a tame request that she asks of me. She questioned the pharmacy I go to. She asked for a list of How much I spend on lunch out during a month, my power bill expenses, food, est...She asked me for my entire expenses for the year. She demanded to know my monthly expenses for her "will". She throws up her will in my face all the time. She does not ask my brothers any of these questions (there are four of us.) Did I say she is wealthy? Did I say tension??? If I question her or yell at her, or question about why she needs this information she says she will cut me out of her will. She tells me she has not asked my brothers any of these questions and has cut them out of her will and then turns around and tells me that she wouldn't do that. .She tells me I cannot yell at her, OR…...she never finishes that sentence. Oh, there is so much more I could write about but the anxiety is great. Some may say leave her and tell her what you think...I can't as I am broke and she if very rich. She gives me money every month. I truly love her and want her in my life, but these demands (and there are MANY) makes me want to tell her to get out of my life...but than again it is the will. I do need the money and I pray hard that I will get myself out of this situation...I have been unemployed for 3 years..Great economy we have. I have surgery on the 17th...my Christmas is basically gone. Now with surgery and all the "special" days I just want to wake up in January. Please God, let me be my own person. One that I have not been anytime in my life. I need to be free of my family drama. Thanks for reading this. This is really the ramblings of a person that has so much on her mind she can't sleep. Blessings.
  12. When my dad died my mom said it was unreal that others were going about their daily routine. People were walking, shopping, laughing, etc. I thought about that when my mom died. I wanted to yell...stop what you are doing...my mom died. Life goes on I guess. It is and will be hard. Hang in there. I understand.
  13. I don't feel anything

    Thank you both for "talking" to me. It will get better.
  14. He lost his father yesterday

    Just listen to him and and hold him tight.
  15. My mom died 7 months ago. My cousin died suddenly yesterday. What if funny is that I feel anything. No sadness, no grief, no anger, nothing. I am not even grieving for my mom, which has consumed me for 7 months. I was working as a volunteer at a no kill animal shelter. I was lined up for an interview for a great job of which I was told I was VERY qualified (I have been out of work almost 3 years). I was going to start volunteering at the local hospital. I was walking 2 miles a day. I have lost over 40 pounds. And then BAM...I tore my rotator cuff and am looking at a few weeks of therapy followed by surgery. It has put my life on hold again. Just when I think everything is going to be OK the rug is pulled out from under me and I don't feel anything. Funny isn't it?