hismomma

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  1. ADRIAN'S MOM I do not know if this will help but, my son Scott Died 14 months ago. AS I read your post it reminded me how hard it was to even survive those days. Believe it or not the torture you feel will slowly start to ease. Everyone has there own way and time to deal with this kind of never ending life changing event. I am so sorry for you loss. This is not the order of nature... I understand..... What we would all do for just one more hug.... So stand steady and just take one breath at a time. Scott's Momma Andrea bknheartedmom
  2. I do not know if this will help but, my son Scott Died 14 months ago. AS I read your post it reminded me how hard it was to even survive those days. Believe it or not the torture you feel will slowly start to ease. Everyone has there own way and time to deal with this kind of never ending life changing event. I am so sorry for you loss. This is not the order of nature... I understand..... What we would all do for just one more hug.... So stand steady and just take one breath at a time. Scott's Momma Andrea bknheartedmom
  3. Thanks for your warm thoughts,But In my none protected,life at a young age , I lost my faith .and Trying to find it now, after what has happened has been a challenge. Im still trying hard. Andrea
  4. This can't be happening to me, it's just not real. I can't live without him, I will not believe he gone. When ever I try to recall what happened, I get this feeling in my body,, The pain is to intense I have to push down down down.... I know in my heart that if I believe he is gone I will die of a broken heart.. So like so many things in my life it's just a bad dream, my son is kidnapped, someone is keeping him from me.. I just want him to come home now. I wish it could have been me? I would do anything to trade places with him... Scott went missing October 2, 2010 The info I was given about his so called death was. He died in a dark room all alone, torture by day and night. If I could say something to him I would say, you are my sunshine my only sun shine, you make me happy when sky's are gray, you will never know dear how much I love you please dont take my sunshine away...... When I went to the funeral home to see Scott. the fueral guy said oh you want to see him, well I will have to put him back together. I almost fell to my knee's. When came around the corner to see him, it did not even look like him...Then I swear I saw him breathing, I made a feball attempt to give him CPR, I wanted him to take my breath and live on..his mouth was wired shut, i tried to pull it apart so he could talk to me... As I felt his head I could feel the stitches holding his head together. I tried to get him warm with my body. NOTHING I dont remember the rest, my husband told me I tried to get on the bed with him, I was singing to him,kissing him. like I said before this was just a bad dream right? RIGHT RIGHT!!! IF YOU SEE MY SON SCOTT PLEASE PLEASE TELL HIM, HIS MOMMA WONT GO ON WITHOUT HIM. AND HIS SON NEEDS HIM... THANKS FOR LISTENING ANDREA.
  5. Of all the people I've ever met, your the one I can't forget, your love was like a pot of gold hard to get and hard to hold I have this heart and it is true, but now it's gone from me to you, didn't you know the lord above created you for me to love, he picked you out of all the rest, becuase he new I would love you best, if I go to heaven and you not there, i'll paint your name on a golden chair, and if your not there by judgement day, I'll know you have gone the other way, so ill give the angels back there wings golden harps and silver strings and so you know my love is true, I will go to hell to be with you. Momma loves you Scott.. I will fallow you anywhere.... PS Your son ask's about his daddy Scott, and I tell him that you love him and wish you could be here. He looks just like you...
  6. Hi, I am so sorry to hear how Scott died. It must be just awful for you to have to go through this. I am so sorry...as if losing a child is not enough.

    How are you doing? Are you getting any support from your family or friends? Keep posting and stay connected with this forum. It has really helped me.

    Kate

    My son died unexpectedly on December 12th. 2009. That fi...

  7. Wow You really hit the nail on the head. My guilt over, what I know I could have done to prevent Scott's death... My son was Murdered and I was not there to help him....... I am so sorry baby. I to need remember I am still a mother,..to Kerstie, Nick, and Elizabeth...... and grandma (aka) MEMA to.. Grand babies Christian,Summer,Izabell and Alaina... I just want my baby back... If anyone see's Scott , please tell him to come home.
  8. HI everyone it's IT's Andrea, Scott's momma. I have to make my long story about my son death real short. I'm not supposed to talk about it, my lawyer said so. I guess how Scott died really is not important. He is gone and I am lost without him. I have a thick vale over my face, I don't understand..... This can not be happening to me... Before Scott passed I was hanging on to a very small string, now that string is gone and I'm falling, I'm scared, I feel sooo alone, no one else in my family seems to understand what I'm going through, it's like they want me to move on. let it go.. Well that's not gonna happen, as of right now I really can't believe he is even gone...How am I supposed to let him go if in my mind he's still out there and some day he will return to my arms. THANKS FOR LISTENING Andrea P.S. SCOTT COME HOME...........
  9. Hi everyone, Scott's MOMMA here.. First I would like to say thank you for all the warm welcomes yesterday. Even though I wish I could be the only one who has lost a child, it is nice to hear I'm not alone. My son Scott was a small town boy from north Idaho. He had mental health issues, he spent most of his teen years in mental health hospital's. He could not stop trying to kill himself...All he wanted was to be with his momma, when he was with me he never tried to kill himself. So he ended up in a state hospital long term. Well one day they let Scott go outside to smoke a ciggy, big mistake.. They should have known better.... He escaped from every other hospital they put him in.. Wanting to be with me witch was pretty far away, my mentally ill son took one of the hospital workers car... He just wanted to come home...He ended up getting caught real fast.. but instead of putting him back in the hospital they tried to send him to a boot camp military reform prison.... Lost in his world of confusion he decided to jump the fence and try to come home again. I remember him calling and crying for me, momma come get me im lost in the woods. He was caught soon after... Again instead of putting where he belonged (in a hospital) this time they sent him to his death and torture, a place reserved for the worst of the worst, baby killers rapist murders, and gangs.. So here goes my mentally ill small town BOY into a world of torture darkness and sadness. Thats about all I can handle talking about today. Momma loves you Scott.. I keep waiting for you to come home... where are you?bknhearted MOMMa
  10. HELLO, THIS IS MY FIRST TIME ON HERE AND IM NOT TO SURE HOW IT WORKS.... OCTOBER 2ND 2010 MY SON SCOTT MICHAEL HERNANDEZ, aka BUBBA. WAS TORTURED TO DEATH. OR AT LEAST THAT'S WHAT PEOPLE SAY, IM NOT SURE OF ANYTHING, IM LOST. THERE IS A DARK VALE OVER MY WORLD RIGHT NOW. NOTHING IS THE SAME. EVEN HAPPY THINGS MAKE ME SAD. WHEN WILL MY BABY JUST COME HOME... SCOTT WAS MY OLDEST SON AND BESTFRIEND. I WOULD ALMOST ANYTHING TO BE WITH HIM, TO HOLD HIM TO SEE HIM.. WHEN I SLEEP I GET TO SEE HIM AND HOLD HIM. I LIKE SLEEP...
  11. HELLO, THIS IS MY FIRST TIME ON HERE AND IM NOT TO SURE HOW IT WORKS.... OCTOBER 2ND 2010 MY SON SCOTT MICHAEL HERNANDEZ, aka BUBBA. WAS TORTURED TO DEATH. OR AT LEAST THAT'S WHAT PEOPLE SAY, IM NOT SURE OF ANYTHING, IM LOST. THERE IS A DARK VALE OVER MY WORLD RIGHT NOW. NOTHING IS THE SAME. EVEN HAPPY THINGS MAKE ME SAD. WHEN WILL MY BABY JUST COME HOME... SCOTT WAS MY OLDEST SON AND BESTFRIEND. I WOULD ALMOST ANYTHING TO BE WITH HIM, TO HOLD HIM TO SEE HIM.. WHEN I SLEEP I GET TO SEE HIM AND HOLD HIM. I LIKE SLEEP...
  12. HELLO, THIS IS MY FIRST TIME ON HERE AND IM NOT TO SURE HOW IT WORKS.... OCTOBER 2ND 2010 MY SON SCOTT MICHAEL HERNANDEZ, aka BUBBA. WAS TORTURED TO DEATH. OR AT LEAST THAT'S WHAT PEOPLE SAY, IM NOT SURE OF ANYTHING, IM LOST. THERE IS A DARK VALE OVER MY WORLD RIGHT NOW. NOTHING IS THE SAME. EVEN HAPPY THINGS MAKE ME SAD. WHEN WILL MY BABY JUST COME HOME... SCOTT WAS MY OLDEST SON AND BESTFRIEND. I WOULD ALMOST ANYTHING TO BE WITH HIM, TO HOLD HIM TO SEE HIM.. WHEN I SLEEP I GET TO SEE HIM AND HOLD HIM. I LIKE SLEEP...
  13. Hello my 22 year old son Scott, was murdered by torture. I used to look at people with sad faces on and wonder, what could make a persons face look like that. Now when I look in the mirror I see the same sad face, I guess I understand now. My world has a dark vale, nothing will ever be the same. Oh by the Hi my name is hismomma.