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angel44

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  1. Loss of a Mother

    this is me also i just cant get my head around the fact that mom is gone for ever it just doesnt seem possible at all [user=8978]tonnii[/user] wrote:
  2. Loss of a Mother

    [user=51344]aquarius7[/user] i am so very sorry i went thru something similar when my mom past on also - i know its so hard i wish i had some good advice but i dont - just keep praying to god for help
  3. How is everyone doing?

    i am so so some good days and a few where i have to cry also - the holidays are really hard, hugs
  4. i am so very sorry - i know your pain i lost mine in june 07 - i still hurt very much to see her and to just sit down and chat with her like we used to do. i miss seeing her eyes light up when ever i entered the room no matter how sick she was. she had a smile in her eyes like i have never seen in any ones else eyes before or since. it does hurt so bad i know. i wish i had a magical way to fix it but i dont you just take it day by day. hour by hour. i remember when mine first died thats how i lived thru it was hour by hour day by day. hugs
  5. the things with the legal stuff are ok and the house sold PTL - how are things with you ? some of the family members are still the same hateful things as always - i just stay away from them ---
  6. I Believe in God...

    God warns of the ultimate punishment. Revelation 21:8 says of "…those who practice magic arts …their place will be in the fiery lake of burning sulfur… the second death" (NIV). Those who practice witchcraft (sorcery) will not inherit the kingdom of God (Galatians 5:20-21). These practices are anti-God and are in rebellion against Him. The Bible provides examples showing the folly and failures of those who claimed the ability to predict the future based on their own powers or those of spirits (Daniel 2:27, etc.). God calls the word of diviners “nonsense,” “lies” and “deception” for foolish people (Ezekiel 13:8; Jeremiah 14:14; Isaiah 44:25). God said, "Woe to the foolish prophets who follow their own spirit and have seen nothing!" (Ezekiel 13:3). If an Israelite lived the deceitful practice of being a medium, it was punishable by death (Leviticus 20:27). The presence of a medium or spiritist among God's people of Israel was considered a defilement (Leviticus 19:31). All these practices take people further from their Creator, the true and living God.
  7. I Believe in God...

    This is what the bible says not me -- pick up a bible and check it out for yourself Today, many people dabble in the mystical, occultic arts. Is there anything wrong with being involved in these practices? Yes, the Bible takes a clear position on this subject, strongly denouncing these practices. God created us and therefore owns us. He has a right to set the rules for our lives. God's Word indicates that these practices are part of Satan's strategy of evil tricks and deception, designed to lead us astray. Satan and his demons are real beings set on our destruction. Christians are warned to "put on the whole armor of God, that you may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil. For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places" (Ephesians 6:11-12). See: What is the occult? Concerning occult practices, the Israelites were told: “When you come into the land which the LORD your God is giving you, you shall not learn to follow the abominations of those nations. There shall not be found among you anyone who makes his son or his daughter pass through the fire [an ancient occult practice], or one who practices witchcraft, or a soothsayer, or one who interprets omens, or a sorcerer, or one who conjures spells, or a medium, or a spiritist, or one who calls up the dead. For all who do these things are an abomination [detestable] to the LORD…” -Deuteronomy 18:9-12a Astrology (predictions by the planets or moon; horoscopes; sometimes referred to as “observing times” in the Old Testament) Although the Bible does go into great detail about astrology, it certainly makes its position clear. We should never trust in astrological beliefs or predictions. Astrology is an ancient, heathen practice that leads to disaster. Our lives are not determined by the stars or movement of planets. The Bible warns against the false predictions of astrology (Jeremiah 10:2; 27:9-10; Daniel 2:1-4; 4:7; 5:7-9) and repeatedly condemns the associated practice of worshipping the sun, moon and stars (or “deities or demons associated with them”) (Deuteronomy 4:19; 17:2-5; 2 Kings 21:3, 5; Zephaniah 1:5; Job 31:26-28; Jeremiah 8:1-2). In Isaiah, God sarcastically rebukes Israel for practicing astrology, …For you have trusted in your wickedness… Therefore evil shall come upon you… trouble shall fall upon you… Let now the astrologers, the stargazers, And the monthly prognosticators stand up and save you from what shall come upon you. Behold, they shall be as stubble, The fire shall burn them; They shall not deliver themselves from the power of the flame… -Isaiah 47:10-14a Magic, Spells, Enchantments, Charming, Sorcery, Wizardry, Witchcraft Research has shown that occult magic is often fraudulent and deceitful illusion - counterfeit miracles. Many books have been written on this subject. In some instances, occult magic or divination are a manifestation of demonic powers or the result of demon possession (Acts 16:16). Of course, the power of Satan and his demons is extremely limited compared to God's power. Those who follow the path of the magic arts are on the wrong path - a road that leads away from God, not toward Him. In one way or another, the end will be disaster. The evil Queen Jezebel practiced witchcraft (2 Kings 9:22) bringing catastrophe on herself and all Israel. Over and over, God denounces those who “conjure spells” (NKJV) and those who practice witchcraft and sorcery. The Bible says that anyone who does these things is detestable to the Lord (Deuteronomy 18:10-12; 2 Kings 21:6; Micah 5:12; Isaiah 47:12; Ezekiel 13:18, 20; Acts 8:11-24; Leviticus 20:27; Exodus 7:11; Revelation 9:21; 22:15). God warns of the ultimate punishment. Revelation 21:8 says of "…those who practice magic arts …their place will be in the fiery lake of burning sulfur… the second death" (NIV). Those who practice witchcraft (sorcery) will not inherit the kingdom of God (Galatians 5:20-21). These practices are anti-God and are in rebellion against Him. Many of citizens of ancient Ephesus practiced the magic arts. Those who became Christians realized the foolish error of their former lives and burned their expensive books of magic as the trash they were (Acts 19:19). The Bible tells how the apostle Paul once dealt with one of these deceivers, a sorcerer and false prophet who led people astray. "Paul, filled with the Holy Spirit, looked intently at him and said, O full of all deceit and all fraud, you son of the devil, you enemy of all righteousness, will you not cease perverting the straight ways of the Lord? And now, indeed, the hand of the Lord is upon you, and you shall be blind, not seeing the sun for a time.' And immediately a dark mist fell on him, and he went around seeking someone to lead him by the hand" (Acts 13:9-11). Divination, Fortune-telling, Mediums, Spiritism, Necromancy, Familiar Spirits, Wizardry, Seances, Channeling, Clairvoyance, Spirit-guides The Bible strongly warns people not to consult mediums and spiritists for the truth, but to inquire of God (Isaiah 8:19). Clearly, if those who practiced these arts have any power (beyond being great deceivers), it is not a gift from God (as some falsely claim). The Bible condemns and forbids these practices several times (Deuteronomy 18:9-14; Isaiah 44:25; Jeremiah 27:9; 2 Kings 21:6; 23:24). Divination and Spiritism were despised practices of the heathens (Ezekiel 21:21; Isaiah 19:3; 1 Samuel 28). Scripture says that one of the reasons King Saul died was "because he consulted a medium for guidance" rather than God (1 Chronicles 10:13-14). The Bible provides examples showing the folly and failures of those who claimed the ability to predict the future based on their own powers or those of spirits (Daniel 2:27, etc.). God calls the word of diviners “nonsense,” “lies” and “deception” for foolish people (Ezekiel 13:8; Jeremiah 14:14; Isaiah 44:25). God said, "Woe to the foolish prophets who follow their own spirit and have seen nothing!" (Ezekiel 13:3). If an Israelite lived the deceitful practice of being a medium, it was punishable by death (Leviticus 20:27). The presence of a medium or spiritist among God's people of Israel was considered a defilement (Leviticus 19:31). All these practices take people further from their Creator, the true and living God. Following omens or signs We are not to look to omens or “signs” to direct our lives. The Bible reprimands people for doing this. It is an “abomination” and foolishness (Deuteronomy 18:10-12). Look to God and His instructions for life as provided in the Bible. To do otherwise is to foolishly deceive yourself, or allow Satan and others to deceive you.
  8. I Believe in God...

    Hun i only go by what the christian bible says --- it condemns such practices - as evil - these arent my words but Gods words - go to any christian church and ask what they think of tarot cards etc - do it for your self not for me ps i dont use tarot cards - so dont say i live in a glass house - and by the way me telling what the bible says is not condemning any one just telling the truth. Gods truth not mine. And yes there is a hell: a place for rapist's, murderer's, child killers and etc. Look at some of the bible based scripture if you want proof. Dont ask me look in the bible.
  9. theres no way you can accept it yet you will be in a stage of deep numbness for quite a while - i lost my mom june 6th 07 - and i still am numb a lot - i am trying to continue my life but i know how hard it is to do it w/o your mommy - eventually i adjusted to a new normal but still very so miss her a lot - i always will - i feel her at times & feel her thoughts - even some times i fell her - i was so worried a few nights ago as i do so much so a lot - i worry at night who doesnt - when i lay there in bed - and i felt her tickle my neck and let me know in a mental thought that every thing would be ok - i was almost a sleep and thats when you really feel them the most. and sure enough things turned out perfect i know she pulls strings for me with God - before she passed on we would often talk about that and she would agree to pull strings with God for me - and to pester him as much as possible -- to help me --- things will be better in about 2 years that how long it took me to adjust some what all though i know i am still adjusting and getting used to things -- to her not being here etc -- at about 2 1/2 years i think it was i started to feel some better but i know i still have many times i feel like i have such a hole in my heart --super strong anti depressants are what got me thru the first year and a half or so - they made me feel so UP and thats what i needed to survive it all --- thank Goodness for dexedrine - and for my dr for giving me them HUGS
  10. Loss of a Grandparent

    [user=25807]angelbabies[/user] wrote I know how you feel i didnt have contact at all with my grand father for many years as i was busy etc - then when he came to denver to be in the nursing home here and then into the hospice shortly after i felt like i had lost so much time with him i never got a chance to know him again as he didnt live long after coming to denver to be in the nursing home etc here. he was never in the home here as he was to ill and was immediately put into the hospice and died after just a few weeks there. my mom wanted to visit him one night and i was to tired i said lets go in the am or you go if you want to she was afraid she would get lost it was a hard place for her to find her way around. he died that night and i have always blamed myself. she never go to say goodbye. i should have been there more often - many times as soon as we would get there i would want to go etc. i feel so badly about that. i was young and bored and stupid and didnt realize that soon times would be up for them both.i miss them both so much so.
  11. Mom died Sept 7, 2009

    well maybe plan short trips there on the bus even if you have to just to be close to family again --
  12. Mom died Sept 7, 2009

    t bird have you thought about moving back to Indiana? to be closer to the family still there - i think i would - i lost my mom in june 2007 and i have never known such pain and emptiness - death is so FINAL. i never got that till my mom died. even when my very much beloved grand father died i didnt get it. i miss mine so much also - so many things i would have liked her to be a part of. if i had family some where that wanted me and wanted to be in my life i would also move to be near them. i have my dad who is not doing real well in his health he is 79 this year and i have a dear aunt in las vegas - i so often want to go to be near my aunt. but i have lived where i am for so long now. i cant imagine living any where else but denver. plus i hate the hot summers there. the aunt is also elderly like 73 or 74 and i dont know how long she has also. i would hate to go there and then in a few years when she goes again be in the same boat wanting to move. i have lived here in the same place since 91 or 93. i know how you feel. it feels so empty.
  13. BC i guess that they didnt like it real well go figure - but thats ok they are family that i never hear from neither did my mom when she WAS alive. Things are ok i got some good news today about my husbands work card that we have been trying since May to get. Probably on the week of the 30th the attorney will again send out the papers and then we should have enough things right this time to get it. I am so excited i can hardly wait till that week, of course the attorney is taking a nice long vacation next week so everything has to wait till when i said it does. Hugs.
  14. Loss of a Mother

    i really miss my mom lately - some times at night i will be almost asleep and then it hits me that shes gone and that i am without her and sort of alone in the world - i dont know know why but sometimes even though i am with someone i feel so alone. and when that hits me i feel so afraid and alone in the middle of the night. i had wanted to take some classes early next year but i dont think it may be that good of a idea as i have super bad migraines and havent yet found any meds that help them. in college you cant miss any classes at all or you fall you so far behind and also they give you the boot. or i am not sure if i should do this or not. if i could take them they last 5 months mon thru fri for 4 hours each day. i have lived on gov aid for so long now and just hate it so much so. my health has been to bad to do anything about it. but i want to try to so much so. still i know if my mom was here i wouldnt be so afraid to try. its like without her i know i will fail on some level. i was thinking baout she treated her mom always with such kindness, and somehow it made me miss her even more. here her mom lived to be 80 something and mine died at 67. what a differance. so sad. i was just 33 when mine died. and mom mym om was in her 60s i think when hers died.
  15. Suddenly taken away

    Ty Diane i appreciate that very much, it has taken me some time to see that it is ok to move forword, but i am trying to. I think i have found my new normal she passed in June 07 and i cant remember how many months etc its been but thats how long its taken me to find my new normal, every one out will also, it takes patience and for me finding a hubby and a new life with him. Peace to all.
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