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About lostwoher

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    Lynn ~ Kayla's Mom
  • Birthday 10/10/1964

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    Pekin IL
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    21 yr old Daughter- Kayla Dawn Casper 2/10/1987 ( drowning)
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    Senior Certified Pharmacy Technician
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  1. Loss of an Adult Child

    Precious Dee I have sent word to the others on our private facebook page. Prayers warriors are doing their thing...PRAYING. Take care and check in when you can. Much love!
  2. Loss of an Adult Child

    Im still hanging in there. Working the same job and coming home. Not a whole lot of activity. Finally broke down to see a dr and was told I need a psychologist because she is sure that Im depressed. Well duh! I dont really think its so much depression as it is just going thru life and getting older. I do not know the details of Kimberly's death except the visitation/funeral being Tues & Wed like Colleen mentioned. I have had to pull myself away from the wonderful group of friends I originally met here because I found that constantly talking of our loss was not allowing me to move forward. I will never forget what I have lost by any means but the discussion of being hurt everyday was/is not doing me any good. Not a day goes by that I dont think of Kayla and wonder what life would be like. The same thoughts all of us here have. I do have Lorri's phone number but not her address. She is in the same place as before. Dee if your email is the same I can email her number. My heart aches for all of you treading this journey. I remember the 'firsts' and the questions about my children. Wish I could say it gets easier but it doesnt. Slightly less painful but still the hurt is there. I have lost my mom, father, and Dad since Kayla's death. Each of them hurt in different ways. I was almost numb and as matter of fact like. Hard to explain except that those 3 didnt compare to the death of my child. I do have a decent relationship with my son and his wife that keeps me motivated to keep going. They recently celebrated their 10 yr anniversary which involved photos of their big day. Why was I not prepared for the photos I was about to see of Kayla? I knew she was a part of the wedding but at the same time it was a huge unexpected surprise that took my breath away. Naturally I had to walk out to compose myself before anybody noticed. Or so I hope. Thats enough from me. Thank you all. xo, Lynn
  3. Loss of an Adult Child

    Im at ease for the moment of being back. Saddened for the reason and for all the added members since I was here last. I totally understand what you are saying Mermaid Tears. In a sense we have moved on. It's been almost 9 years but there are days when it feels like yesterday and yet it seems like its been an eternity. And yes, those adoring angels will be encircling Lorri and her family. I cant even imagine their pain. Im so glad your family has you to help with guidance. Good job! Lou ann, please remember that God did not take our children. He accepted them home. I love your photos and little Tommy is beautiful. I appreciate the story. I know Lorri will be touched from ya'll show of support. Here's a shout out to Dee who was one of the firsts moms to walk this journey with me when I joined.
  4. Loss of an Adult Child

    I too felt the need to return here after learning of Lorri's loss. This is the place we first became friends. I traveled to Oklahoma to meet her and again on a trip to Vegas. Lorri has a heart of gold and is a hoot. Her family is one that will do anything for you without expecting anything in return. My heart aches for what they are going thru again. It has been a few years since I left this site. I left due to someone I was in a relationship with who felt it necessary to read my posts then twist my words into ugliness. That chapter in my life has closed and feel it is somewhat safe to return. Im not sure for how long as being here puts me in a downward spiral and that is not what I want nor need. I do think of you all often and know that I pray for our survival daily.
  5. I am so sorry to hear over the loss of your daughter! She was so young. If you need any support, please do not hesitate to email me. I will like to hear from you soon.

    Thank You,


  6. Loss of an Adult Child

    To my dear friend Betty, Yes I am here today just to let you know how much I am thinking of you and your precious Angel Stephen. A candle is lit in his honor and I am sending you virtual hugs. Stephen StEPhEn STEPHEN
  7. Loss of an Adult Child

    Thank you all for the birthday wishes. This place never lets me down. It was a day filled with tears and alot of wonderful memories. Thank you!!
  8. Loss of an Adult Child

    Susannah, you are by no means slowwwww. I have hopefully changed my password on all the sites. I may start using a different email on the most important ones. It is so ridiculous how some people can need so much attention that they stoop to such low levels. Going to be a rainy day so I will be keeping my laptop close at hand. Alot of homework to get done before my compounding class starts next week Have a blessed day everybody!
  9. Loss of an Adult Child

    I first received it in my personal email but just put off looking into it for a few days. There was something that didnt sit well with me about it so I replied with something silly. Needless to say that it was returned as undeliverable to an invalid address. Go figure . A few more days passed and something clicked for some unknown reason to check my messages here. Voila! There it is. I decided to check out who/what the profile was all about. Trying to give benefit of doubt but once I read his/her profile I became furious. Today I sent it to the spam dept. Probably should have contacted the moderator. I just wanted to warn everybody that there is someone lurking around this site Oh my goodness its windy, wet and cold. I was just getting use to enjoying the beautiful fall colors. Wont be long and it will be gone once again. Dee! I see I have missed the wedding. Please accept my apology for not coming here sooner to wish the bride and groom many great wishes and the best life. Looking forward to checking out your pictures in just a moment. To all of the newbies: sorry to have to meet you all in a place like this but I am glad you found this place. It's the best thing to have happened to me in such a disturbing time of my life. My name is Lynn and we lost my 21 yr old daughter Kayla due to accidental drowning due to excessive alcohol consumption 8/12/08. Gotta get back to the Bears game
  10. Loss of an Adult Child

    Beware my friends, The following was in my inbox and I believe it to be spam from a freak. Check out his/her profile and you will see why I think that. Gosh, I really hope not but please be careful. This person now has my personal email. The email listed to mail them to isnt valid. I tried which is how I become aware. estherjohn 20 Oct 2011 - 12:43 My name is Miss Esther,i saw your profile today and became interested in you,i will also like to know you more,and if you can send an email to my email address,i will give you my pictures here is my email address (estherjoh3@yahoo.com) I believe we can move from here! Awaiting for your mail to my email address above. Please email me on (estherjoh3@yahoo.com)for more explanation. T...
  11. Hey thank you so much too for accepting my friend request.

    Please get this for your mom and child you loss. www.mostlovedgraves.com its a special gift i made for our lost loved ones to have their memories and image be shared through out the world.

    Thank you so much,


  12. Loss of an Adult Child

    Hello Indigos. Yeah, I just cant stop using that word. I am stopping by to say THANK-YOU for your thoughts and prayers. My Mom's death was so unexpected. I am having a difficult time dealing with it due to the nature of our relationship. It was exactly one year ago to the day that we began to renew our relationship. The what if's keep flooding my mind. Was Kayla there to greet her? Their relationship was not so great either. She didnt believe in God that I know of. I NEVER knew of her to step inside a church. Growing up I cannot recall her EVER saying "I love you". Seriously! It wasnt long ago she questioned my sisters and I why we never say those words. It didnt go over very well when I said my thoughts. Denial. All of us tell our children I love you every time we speak. I cannot imagine never saying that. Enough of that blabbering. I need to keep my spirits up as I return to work today. Been off for 16 days. I think Im ready for a distraction. I just wanted to say thank-you so "Thank YOU"!
  13. My name is Miss Esther,i saw your profile today and became interested in you,i will also like to know you more,and if you can send an email to my email address,i will give you my pictures here is my email address (estherjoh3@yahoo.com) I believe we can move from here! Awaiting for your mail to my email address above.

    Please email me on (estherjoh3@yahoo.com)for more explanation.


  14. so lost

    Dearest Melody, I'm glad you stumbled across this site. Exactly what I did 3 years ago. I was looking for answers and didnt really know the questions. I still dont. Please go to the Loss of Adult Child board. Not everyone lost an adult child so dont feel as if it isnt the right place to be. Trust me, they are the best understanding, unjudgemental group around. I have met one personally and she means the world to me. We have bonded like no other. They are my cyber family. Unfortunately I havent been posting there or even reading. I find myself getting angry & depressed when I do. It has nothing at all to do with anybody on the board, its just an issue with my self. You will find the love and support you are in need of. I honestly dont know where I would be today if it wasnt for them. I am further down the path and still dont have the sence to help or comfort another lost soul. Partly because I am so afraid of offending someone. Strange I know. The pain is still strong in my heart and head but it has eased a bit. Some days are better than others so believe it when I say you will get some relief. There is no time limit on how long to grieve. We all do it and we all do it differently. I am so very very sorry for your loss. Please come back and tell more about your precious angel when you are able. We are on this journey together,
  15. Loss of an Adult Child

    Today is the anniversary... Of my child who has soared I'm left sad and lonely... With a broken heart for sure People can't imagine.. This countdown that I do Each and every single day... Since the day I lost you No birthdays left to celebrate No stocking at Christmas time Always one less plate at dinner Yet someone told me I'm doing fine I gave a little smile... Nodded my head like I said yes... If they only knew the pain inside... There is no way they could guess I have learned to hate the calendar... It just represents the past Back when I still had you near... Now emptiness just lasts I know your in a better place... (Please let this be true) Cause I couldn't take another day... If I thought I'd never again see you So until that day for me arrives... I am learning how to cope Thinking of when I'll see you again... That's what gives me hope I dont know the author but this touched me and I wanted to share for anyone who would like to use it. Many blessing to each and everyone of you for being here. So very sorry we need a place like this but I am grateful for it. Much love.