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  1. Loss of a Father

    Ok so its been years since i posted on here and i have to say the support i have gotten from so many people was very helpful, has been 6 year since the loss of my father in an unexpected Auto Accident, After this long the pain and wounds still seem fresh like it just happened yesterday however it is a bit more managable now, i still find some days are almost impossible to get through and i still want to go to sleep and wait till this is over, I have decided to follow in my fathers footsteps and save lives for a living i am currently an EMT/Firefighter and will be starting paramedic next year. I continue to live my life day by day and it works most of the time but when the tones drop and someones life hangs in the balance all my fears, grief and emotions of the shattered life i still pick up disappears and i do my best to ensure that someone elses children,husband, wife,parents and family dont have to do the same as i have!! To all those who lose what seems to be the stitches of your life hang onto the torn seems as hard as possible and things will eventually begin to fall into place! Nothing will ever be the same and the pain will forever remain but when you seem like your at your final breaking point and about to give youll muster the strength to survive. If you dont want to do it for you do what i did and do it for the person you lost who would expect you to be strong, do it for the family members that are in their darkest hour and do it in spite of those who say get over it! youll never get over it but what you will do is be strong enough to ask those jerks who they think they are what makes them the masters of grief what makes them so much stronger then you when you are still breathing after your life fell to a trillion peices that cant all be recovered. I thank you all for your kind words and may the rest of your lives be filled with the ease you all deserve, and may things get easier to manage AND may karma hand those nasty jerks their asses and tell them to kiss it goodbye!!!
  2. Do you lie?

    Hi laura3 I know its hard when people ask you that im 17 and its going on 4 yrs since my dad died in a car accident I dont know how you feel eactly but this may help peaople ask me what my dad did and i either say something funny that he told me or I tell them what his career was when people ask me that i know i tell them well you know that tree there and they say yea and that guy over there, yea and this ground were standing on today , yea well thats what he did and they will stop and think for a while and im sitting there laughing they said ok i give whats he do and i tell them hes god i always asked my dad do you beleive in god and he said im right here it would always make me laugh so i tell people he was god but if you wnt to tell them what he actually did i say he was a paramedic and leave it at that if they want more info just say he passed away it may hurt when you do it but they will tell others and not many people will ask you anymore everytime i say my dads dead or died or deceased I die a little more inside but i dont have to say it as often as i did. In your eyes if your dad did and he probably did do something that changed lives be proud of that not only should parents take pride in there jobs children should take pride in there parents jobs considering it was something legal many people say my dads a drug dealer we have lots of money thats never anything to be proud of there making money by killing others but either make a joke or tell them its going to hurt i can almost gaurentee it but let the world know maybe someone will be inspired to do the same and the more you talk about your father and the more you tell people they will understand the hurt that you feel. so theres no need to lie unless you feel you have to to keep from the aginizing pain.. well im so sorry for your loss i wish i knew how you were feeling so i could help more... sincerely Michael
  3. Loss of a Father

    Its Christmas time my dads favorite holiday and mine. But Im about to give up i just dont want to live another day. Its been 3 years since we lost my dad and it seems like everyone besides my dads side and my mom,sister,and me seems to have forgotten about him. It seems that there is no record of his existance besides what we have in our memories and physically. My moms parents seem like they like my moms new boyfriend more then they liked my dad and i just want to beat them for it. My aunt told my 6 yr old cousin that my dad killed himself and thats far from the truth my dad was in a car accident. And i cant seem to forget the night it happened. I was asleep and heard my ma screamin and cryin i lloked around and my dad wasnt around i just fell to the floor when i seen the two officers and my dads boss standing at the door i knew my dad wasnt comein home to comfort us and help.. I tried to make things up like my dads at work and something happened to my grandparents but inside it was clear what had happened. My Moms family keeps tellin me oh its been three years get over it. But i go to my dads parents and cry with them and my family. My dad was my Hero, Bestfriend, rolemodel and most of all my DAD. Im tired of hearin the crap my family is sayin one time they had the audasity to say hes dead quit cryin i told them there not family i told them there dead to me. After he died it feels like i was crushed by the universe he promised me he wouldnt go anywhere for a long long time. He was the greatest paramedic firefighter and father i thought he was indestructable.Every day the pain gets worse its like theres a big gaping hole in my heart and every time the wind blows it hurts worse and worse and gets bigger and bigger. Every day that passes and hes not here it gets harder to breathe he always said somthin funny whaen he was happy like when i got to drive when i was 13 some one walked out in front of the truck and i hit the brakes he said you know what you do when some one walks in front of you and i said he said test the gas peddal and make sure it works.. i laughed so hard i about died. we were goin to cinncinati OH and we played slug bug but with 50 different cars my leg was black and blue when we got there but that was one of the best moments in my life... Well got to go people but it feels good to talk Sincerley Michael A. Dobrosky
  4. My Daddys Gone

    Its Christmas time my dads favorite holiday and mine. But Im about to give up i just dont want to live another day. Its been 3 years since we lost my dad and it seems like everyone besides my dads side and my mom,sister,and me seems to have forgotten about him. It seems that there is no record of his existance besides what we have in our memories and physically. My moms parents seem like they like my moms new boyfriend more then they liked my dad and i just want to beat them for it. My aunt told my 6 yr old cousin that my dad killed himself and thats far from the truth my dad was in a car accident. And i cant seem to forget the night it happened. I was asleep and heard my ma screamin and cryin i lloked around and my dad wasnt around i just fell to the floor when i seen the two officers and my dads boss standing at the door i knew my dad wasnt comein home to comfort us and help.. I tried to make things up like my dads at work and something happened to my grandparents but inside it was clear what had happened. My Moms family keeps tellin me oh its been three years get over it. But i go to my dads parents and cry with them and my family. My dad was my Hero, Bestfriend, rolemodel and most of all my DAD. Im tired of hearin the crap my family is sayin one time they had the audasity to say hes dead quit cryin i told them there not family i told them there dead to me. After he died it feels like i was crushed by the universe he promised me he wouldnt go anywhere for a long long time. He was the greatest paramedic firefighter and father i thought he was indestructable.Every day the pain gets worse its like theres a big gaping hole in my heart and every time the wind blows it hurts worse and worse and gets bigger and bigger. Every day that passes and hes not here it gets harder to breathe he always said somthin funny whaen he was happy like when i got to drive when i was 13 some one walked out in front of the truck and i hit the brakes he said you know what you do when some one walks in front of you and i said he said test the gas peddal and make sure it works.. i laughed so hard i about died. we were goin to cinncinati OH and we played slug bug but with 50 different cars my leg was black and blue when we got there but that was one of the best moments in my life... Well got to go people but it feels good to talk Sincerley Michael A. Dobrosky
  5. Coping with the Holidays

    Hello Linda thanks for posting for me and now I'll do my best to help you. You see as i mentioned in my post is my fathers favorite holiday was christmas. Now if your brother got the joy outa christmas that my dad heres what i did. I grabbed all the christmas things out of the attic as i was going through them i started to feel happy yet hurt but soon youll find yourself putting up decorations and buying gifts just look at what you have accomplished. A happy feeling will come ovver you. I personally went all out this year i got a christmas light fx box my house is like the sun lol. as i climbed off the roof i looked at the lights and got a warm feeling. And when your getting a tree make an event out of it. We go to a tree farm and cut down our tree from back in the woods. We come up and listen to christmas music drink hot chocolate or coffee have popcorn the whole familys there. Now when your shopping find something your brother would get for someone and get it now some things will hit ya in the head literally. My sis boyfriend is getting a handgun for her i could not find nothing then a gun safe a trigger lock and a phone crashed off the shelf and literally landed on my head. OUCH. but things will pop out at you hope i could help. Sincerley Michael A. Dobrosky.
  6. Im about to give.

    Its Christmas time my dads favorite holiday and mine. But Im about to give up i just dont want to live another day. Its been 3 years since we lost my dad and it seems like everyone besides my dads side and my mom,sister,and me seems to have forgotten about him. It seems that there is no record of his existance besides what we have in our memories and physically. My moms parents seem like they like my moms new boyfriend more then they liked my dad and i just want to beat them for it. My aunt told my 6 yr old cousin that my dad killed himself and thats far from the truth my dad was in a car accident. And i cant seem to forget the night it happened. I was asleep and heard my ma screamin and cryin i lloked around and my dad wasnt around i just fell to the floor when i seen the two officers and my dads boss standing at the door i knew my dad wasnt comein home to comfort us and help.. I tried to make things up like my dads at work and something happened to my grandparents but inside it was clear what had happened. My Moms family keeps tellin me oh its been three years get over it. But i go to my dads parents and cry with them and my family. My dad was my Hero, Bestfriend, rolemodel and most of all my DAD. Im tired of hearin the crap my family is sayin one time they had the audasity to say hes dead quit cryin i told them there not family i told them there dead to me. After he died it feels like i was crushed by the universe he promised me he wouldnt go anywhere for a long long time. He was the greatest paramedic firefighter and father i thought he was indestructable.Every day the pain gets worse its like theres a big gaping hole in my heart and every time the wind blows it hurts worse and worse and gets bigger and bigger. Every day that passes and hes not here it gets harder to breathe he always said somthin funny whaen he was happy like when i got to drive when i was 13 some one walked out in front of the truck and i hit the brakes he said you know what you do when some one walks in front of you and i said he said test the gas peddal and make sure it works.. i laughed so hard i about died. we were goin to cinncinati OH and we played slug bug but with 50 different cars my leg was black and blue when we got there but that was one of the best moments in my life... Well got to go people but it feels good to talk Sincerley Michael A. Dobrosky
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