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About losthope

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  1. ADC's, Visions & Dreams

    Man, lately I have been getting more odd dreams and I can't remember a lot of them.
  2. I Am Just Grieving...

    I am so upset and sad about what is going on in my life at the moment. I just lost someone close to me and no one where I lived asked how I felt about it and when I went to the funeral I cried for almost the entire time. My eyes were even hurting. Now the state pulls a fast one on me and now I am having to move a week from tomorrow and I don't want to. I was actually doing pretty well in a foster home and not running off and they take me from the home and It isn't fair! I didn't do anything wrong; I've done everything I have been asked. v_v. I found out it was them but they should have given me a more advanced notice so I can say bye to all of my friends......I hate this. Sometimes I hate life itself. I can't even remember a happy time before this home and the home before. Does the state want me to be miserable until I am 18?! Why can't I be happy like everyone else with a 'family' is? It just isn't fair...sigh. Guess I better shut up.
  3. ADC's, Visions & Dreams

    Thankies so much for the websites. I looked at the first one but not the kelly one yet. I'll update ya if anything comes up.
  4. ADC's, Visions & Dreams

    I dunno if this is odd or something but ever since I lost my grandfather I have been drawn to the earth and have not let anyone get close to me. I have had premonitions of the current disasters that have occured and I have seen other things that freak me out a bit because I fear that they will or already have come to pass. Ppl say I have a rare gift and I am not sure what to think of this 'gift'.
  5. Losses From Long Ago

    Here's the thing. About 8 or 9 years ago I lost my grandfather who helped raise me died when I was really little. I think it was six or seven. I can't remember the time frame except that it was three days before my birthday. People say I need to let go but I am not sure if I am even able to let go of him. It feels as if I do I'll forget him forever. I don't want to forget him at all. I can't really remember things we did and I feel so bad about that. He was there for me and I am never gonna be able to be there for him. He'll never be able to hug me like he did or even smile at me when I do something right and protect me like he did. I only remember the things he did for me as a child by the feeling but nothing else. I feel like a failure.
  6. Loss of a Friend

    um.....well I am not sure why I feel so sad all of a sudden. This is about my foster dad who just recently passed on. I wasn't sure what to put this under. We were sorta like friends and sorta like family. All I know is that when I stayed with them I was not sure of how I felt about him. Sure he was an elder and past his passing time some say. If that is so then why does it hurt so bad? Why do I show the weakness of crying? Why do I always blame myself for these things. My good friend took his life last summer as well and I am not sure if I am completely over him yet. There is so much going on and I dunno how to deal. People that I am staying with say I am full of drama about this. If so then why can't I sleep at night why do I not care about anything? I'm so confused and lost. I dunno what to do about this. Great Goddess I wish I knew what to do about this. It seems I am never able to deal with anything in this area. It seems like everyone close to me is dying. I fear so much for my remaining loved ones.
  7. I've Lost Someone...

    I just lost an older person who has taken care of me in the past for three years. I didn't know how I felt about him but now I feel like it was my fault since I caused so much stress and pain in the past and I am not sure if I can ever forgive myself. I just wish I could go back in time and fix what I did but I can't and I am not sure why I cry. I was told crying was a weakness. Is that true?