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About ericasmom

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    Erica's Mom, Dee
  • Birthday 04/20/1956

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    lost my daughter when an AMTRAK hit her car at a broken crossing in Kalamazoo, Michigan
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    July 14, 2003


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    taking long walks, reading, writing
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  1. Loss of an Adult Child

  2. Loss of an Adult Child

    I hope that Everyone is well, it is a quiet day on our site, but a lovely day here, I took a long long walk this morning, while the sun shone bright against a blue blue sky, and the golds and russets of the leaves helped create a masterpiece of Autumn. I love the cold of morning walks, it feels healthier to me than hot days. I'm listening to Joni Mitchell, Ladies of the Canyon Album and just letting tears fall where they may.
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    Jean, I am so glad for the good day. And I am glad that you will continue to host Thanksgiving, while it will be a bittersweet event, it will be another step forward taking your Son along with you in all you do. Let your tears flow when they need, and know that we surround you.
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    Dianne, the miserable rain has turned to snow as I wass so hoping it would. I love snow. It makes me feel happy. You know I am going to lie down now iwth a book and a blanket. Thanks for your good advice.
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    Colleen it is so good to see you and the family smiling out at the world. I know you miss your Brian and I can scarcely believe it is 10 years for you guys. Aaron is 24! Happy Birthday to him, and Michelle with her pretty smile...you all look great.
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    Hang on with both hands and toes if necessary Jean, these firsts are exhausting and emotional, but they also serve to show that we are walking forward, no matter how hard it is to put one foot in front of the other, we are stepping forward...and no better reason than that of your Grandboy's birthday. Happy Birthday sweet little one, Your Daddy is smiling on you, blessing your days and nights as he is all of you, his Momma, his wife and other Children, his friends. May there be a small sign that let's you know that he is nearby. Georgina, I am so glad that you felt that sense of wonderful comradery at the event. The photos are lovely, and thank you for tying a ribbon for the Angels from our lives. Good for you for going to the big event.
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    Thanks Laurie, I will look those up and see if he is interested. I appreciate the thoughts. Oh I finally figured out that that old cold I had/have, was going into a secondary infection, my upper teeth hurt and my eye, and my head all on the left side, realized I had a sinus infection, but no fever or anything. I went to my doctor yesterday and she looked and poked and said, antibiotics, which she does not give often and I don't take often, but I tell you what...two doses in, the infection was disrupted and I began to feel some change, by tonight, while tired and ready for bed, I can feel less pressure in my eye and head...so I am on the mend. This was a tricky one, usually an infection has some other symptoms. Sherry, yes, that song I posted is from a band from Chicago, love their work. And that song...well it just speaks volumes for me.
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    Sherry, I am so glad that you continued with your tradition of laying a rose for your Sweet Little Angel Lisa. She must be smiling on you and your Husband...knowing the goodness of your hearts, knowing that you carry her Everywhere you go.
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    So true Lesley, we mourn each death differently and all of them, most especially ones that are kids from your friends lives, we are sent back to our days of early grief. It's okay, we will be here while you wander the catacombs of loss. I will post a song that pretty much says just that. We have to go back there sometimes, and in my experience, each time I am sent back to those days, those long hours and mess of days, I learn some new strategy or gain a new memory...we glean what we can from the dust and ash. I am so sorry that you are facing this loss of one so dear. Sandy is also dealing with a similar loss to her own Daughters' and these too, are friends of the family.
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    Both the men are doing okay Laurie, thanks. Son is doing okay, but when his Son broke his leg, my Son had to do a lot of carrying of Mike, so that was not supposed to be happening at that point in his recovery. I know he still hurts a lot at times, but he will not go into it much. Husband had a heart attack and it is almost 6 mnths now, he is doing pretty well, drastic changes in diet which he sticks to but wishes he didn't have to ever think of these things...he is working out and walking and looks good. ' I know that the Department of Children services in Chicago and the surrounding area also moves slowly, most the caseworkers are on overload, so I can certainly see what you are saying. I pray that she finally gets the information needed to make a good decision to allow Benton in your care.
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    a lovely dream to share Laurie...thank you. Any word from the department of Children?
  13. Loss of an Adult Child

    Sherry, your sweet little Pink Angel, soft and smiling, loving you for all of time, sits with her Brother and kisses you with Angel kisses...you shall always be their Momma. Wrap your arms around yourself tonight knowing that your Babies are doing this with their angel touch. I am also hugging you sweet Friend,
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    Somersky, talk to Skylar as you go through the paperwork, ask him for help to get through it, ask him to hold your hand on this hard journey. He is there. I know reading the reports from the hospital was surreal to me, Erica lived 6 days never awake again, and each day, more devastation, less hope. The black and white of it is anything but...it leaves all that in between area, all the what-ifs and the how can this be? But the back and white of it tells us the facts, printed without emotion, without connection: female with nearly severed brain stem...broken jaw, broken neck, laceration above right eye...posturing of hands and feet due to brain damage, and many brain bleeds. All of those words, all of those observations told about what happened to a 19 year old girl/woman...but she was my Daughter. She loved Pink. She laughed loud and strong, she messed up in school, she had big hands, she loved to shop. She loved snowboarding and she dearly loved her brother and her friends. She was so much more than the medical reports. She was not black and white. Our Children will always be more than how they died. They will mostly be how they lived. Your Boy was a happy person. Remember when you are low, how he lived.