ericasmom

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About ericasmom

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    Erica's Mom, Dee
  • Birthday 04/20/1956

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  • Gender
    Female
  • Location
    Illinois
  • Loss Type
    lost my daughter when an AMTRAK hit her car at a broken crossing in Kalamazoo, Michigan
  • Angel Date
    July 14, 2003

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  • Occupation
    teacher
  • Interests
    taking long walks, reading, writing
  • Last Name
    conmy
  • First Name
    diane
  • Country
    usa

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  1. Hey, I am springing him from the hospital after school sometime today...
  2. Is there nobody here today?
  3. Divianz...I had so much hormone crap go on too, I had endometrosis from the time I was a young woman, so lots of pain and bleeding. I had fertility issues and had to go on some strange drugs back in the mid-1970's. When the call came in from the hospital when Erica was struck by the train, I had a period. By the middle of that night, I didn't. Amazing ways our bodies work to try to protect us... knowing that the shock i was in could not also deal with excessive blood/iron loss. I then began the road of menopause, and mine was very hard, it was not like that for either of my sisters, but I had a lot of issues...then I had breast cancer, but not Bracca, and no mastectomy, but radiation after two surgeries. Now, after being on meds for 5 years I am off meds and feel like my body has a more even temperature...(13 years of hot flashes). So I well know how hard it is to cope with hormonal imbalances and I am holding your hand. I wish you a good outcome with your health. Hang on.
  4. SITTING AT THE HOSPITAL WITH MY HUSBAND, HE IS SO UNABLE TO SLEEP...AGITATED. I THINK THAT ALL THE MEDS JUST PLAY HAVOC WITH HIS BODY. I TOO AM SENDING THE DEEPEST SYMPATHIES TO ALL OF YOUR UK CITIZENS...AND TO US ALL, AS WE ONCE AGAIN MOURN THE LOSS OF INNOCENCE. AS WE ONCE AGAIN SEE WHAT BLIND HATRED CAN DO...PLEASE GOD HELP US TO BE STEWARDS OF PEACE, LET US FIND WAYS TO COUNTERACT HATRED. AND MAY THE FAMILIES WHO NOW HAVE TO FACE LOSING A CHILD OR LOVED ONE TO THIS HATRED, PLEASE HELP THEM FIND WAYS TO CARRY THE TORCH OF LOVE FORWARD.
  5. Hey thanks EVERYONE...he is such a private man...he'd hate my telling you all, but oh well. He is doing well tonight so thank you for the great and positive thoughts. He is resting and his vitals are good. Sleep well and thank you.
  6. Wish I could talk right now but I cannot, just asking for prayers: My husband had a heart attack today, he called the paramedics and has had a surgery that inserted two stints and one balloon. I will keep you posted as I can. dee
  7. Tinay, you are not failing your Kiona now, nor did you before...she loves you to the highest, as you love her. This is going to be a very hard year, the first year just is filled by the ache of wanting more...we get that. Of course you want to hold her, just know though, that she is holding you. And know too that one day, not right away, but one day, you will feel your Daughter held in all you do. she will be with you when you shut your eyes at night and right there when you open them again, she will be woven into your everyday. The work you are doing to try to keep her memory alive is part out of what you feel you owe her, and part the fear of forgetting, I remember that panicked feeling that I may forget something...and finally I realized that I could trust my heart; I would remember all that was most dear and hold it close, I would never forget my Girl.Once I was able to let some of the reconstruction of her life go...I had more room to remember than I had prior. YOu hang on, as long ago as 2 months is without our Child, it is still very early in grief, so give yourself a little hug, now again, only bigger. Your Daughter needs you to remember that she loves you and therefore you must take good care of YOU>
  8. Lynn, yes, I do have the same email, so I would deeply appreciate your sending her my email...or give me hers if you think she would be okay with it. God Bless Lynn, yes, it sometimes is the only way to go forward is to step away from the daily loss. I will always be glad to talk with you so if ever you want to privately email me, please do.
  9. The first wedding we went to after Erica died was Eri's oldest friend, the next summer. We went to the reception but I cried the whole time. I needed to be there for Tamara, but I was a mess. There was a slide show of Tam's youth...there was ERica in so many frames...it was so sweet to bring Erica into the wedding, she would have been Tam's bridesmaid if she were here. I wept all the way home, full box of tissue in a half hour. WE do not know how long we can last at events like these, but we build our abilities over time...though I still cry like a crazy woman at every wedding...I am for the most part, glad to be invited and glad to be present.
  10. LYNN! My goodness my surprise to see you today, and my delight to know that you are out there finding your way. Yes, you and Colleen came here around the same time. I have wondered if you have found any kind of peace, though I know that is a TALL order, I am hoping. Kayla's beautiful smile is a wonderful light to see shining out from this screen. I don't think that I remembered that you were part of that visit to Lori. So was the information about Lori's Daughter on FB, I still do not have it and likely never will. Can you fill me in on what happened to her? Is there some way to contact Lori and her family?I will look in my old telephone book to see if I have her address still but I wonder if she still lives where she did when she lost her first Girl. Lord what a heavy heart and a depleted hope she must have right now. I am sending prayers like crazy into the great wide open. So what of you Lynn? How is your world these days? I am glad that you resolved that which was a drain in your life. Good for you. It is so hard sometimes to summon the strength it takes to be confrontational when there has been so much struggle in one's life already. My arms are hugging you back here. LouAnn, I too love the Tommy figure you planted with marigolds that sit near those pretty pansies for your Girl. Your photos came out nicely.
  11. Colleen, it is different as you go along and I am so glad that you can enjoy watching as the family grows up; adn changes...but yes, bittersweet is always there. The trick some days is to find more sweet than bitter...and we all know it is not possible all of the time but boy, take a backward glance and see from where you have come. Long road and there you are the navigator of your own trip. You are doing great.
  12. Susan, Lori left the site prior to your joining...she was a force for sure...funny as heck once she felt comfortable here. When she arrived on scene however, she was like any of us, lost and broken and searching. I remember she was unsure if she was going to stay more than a tiny bit because we were discussing things that were not grief and it was off-putting for her, as it is for many NEWBIES. But she soon saw that the grief everyone had was like her own, that our stories were a sad compilation of our daily appearances here. She started a clothing and school supply fund in her Daughter's name. She and her Husband and Daughter and Son worked very hard to find their way...I just ache in her new loss. Sherry, I sure hope you are on the mend. Our weather here got very cold yesterday, and wet. It didn't climb out of the 40's yesterday, nasty. It was in the high 80's throughout the week and then Boom, down it went. So I hope for your health's sake, that your weather does not get this...get strong and outside my friend.
  13. Thank you Tommy, for sending your Momma rainbow and thank you Tommy's Mom for sharing it with us.
  14. I am at school and have little time but I do know that I have to reach out to Lori and hug her via the internet...let her know that we are here for her if she finds a need. Goodness that Woman worked so very hard to find ways to honor the life and times of her Daughter. Oh such pain. I am shocked. Prayers are headed her way.
  15. Oh my goodness NO! Not Lori Boatright losing another Daughter....Her Son losing another Sister? NOOOOO. I am so so sad and so heartbroken that she has to do this again...